Greetings

Tell me about it! How has life been? I know, ive been keeping life on a leash, but now, ive realised, its time to let it go. I dun wanna be under the serfage of committments or contracts. In fact, im a changed person now. Let loose, just as KennyRogers said, let life hang loose like... u know, those things.

So, im back into my long stretch of brainstorming sessions and honestly, im feeling kinda new. If uve noticed, congratulations, but for those who havent, ive changed my punctuation, they dun have a spacing after every last word now. Isnt that great? See, i told u! Ive changed! Drastic measures with fantastic amazing results, just like BeiJing101! Cool...

Life has been a facade. Being such a huge shot, it deserves a bigger mask than all of u out there. I know, a masquerade! Or a Mardi Gras, which is the last day before lent celebrated in some cities in Europe or America, as a day of carnival and merrymaking. I dunno, but whicheva it is, its a huge thing. Everybody is being so fake, like plastic dolls, but far worse than Barbie. Really! They come about telling u that u look good, but deep inside, u and even the dead knows that u look horrible. Well, thats just an example. U know, facades and masquerades have one common meaning, which is termed, 'disguise'. So, to save the bruises on the bushes, i think its time to be honest with everybody and stop all those backstabbing hardcore actions at the backstage.

If u wanna say something bad, dun beat around the bush to cause those injuries, because it is bad. Really bad. Mummy didnt tell me that before, but i figured that out since i was a small kid. I watched my aunties fight, i witnessed Jane beating up Amanda, i have tolerated the first and last slap from my father for disrespecting my grandmother and finally, ive smacked the face of an Indian boy before. To save the embarrassment, i wont tell u that the Indian boys name is Morven. Thats not the point, what im trying to say is that ive gone through quite a little to realise some really bad things that people do. Regardless of whether the fact that it hurts or not, what ive been experiencing nowadays is one of a feather that belongs to all of the above. Which, in common, is bad.

Im like caught in the between a rock and a really hard place. I dun wish to feel so, because its not my style at all. My surname aint my ex's, im not anywhere close to being such a loud slut. U know, i prefer to feel really honest without a sense of guilt hidden anywhere behind that face of mine. I had a plaster on, because ive been badly scarred. Its a lasting aftereffect thingi, and seriously, it hurts badly. The plaster is to mend things back, not to make myself look better with what i have on my face. Its not some embellishment, it has its hidden motive. This is where analysis would be of good use, im doing DrKan proud.

Anyway, ive done quite badly with my analysis, ive once again successfully obtained an F. However, i do not need to repeat the whole entire module! Surprisingly, i would just need to hand in another work, which is an essay, to DrKan this coming Tuesday. The rest of my peeps are enjoying their time studying for re-assessment this coming Tuesday. Some has to re-take the entire module during the next academic year. Pity, really. One of which is YangQin player, HaoSong. Well, im not sure whats wrong with him, but i think he must have had his reasons. Anyway, SiHan must be thrilled to have the opportunity to re-do his essays for history re-assessment! Im glad u are looking at the bright side of things, cheers!

Well, Samuel aint in school no more. Sooner or later, EeWei will be called along with him. No matter what, i wish u guys the best! Samuel, since u are so free for the period now till ur army duties, we should go out more often. But to think of it, as a player like u are, u sure will know how to enjoy life as it flows along with time. As for EeWei, u seemed depressed from the last time ive met up with u. Whateva it is, there is surely a resolution. Why? Because no problem is unsolvable, because there must be a solution before there is a problem. Well, dun bother listening to what im saying, because im clueless as u are.

So sorry, i forgot to call u today Tommy. I was busy practicing and meeting up with SiHan. Well, im so sorry, but dun worry, i'll get u again next time! I promise!

Holidays, they come and they go. I wish they stayed longer, but sometimes i wish they'll go away. Now, im enjoying my carefree days to practice hard for the coming competition. Well, i had lesson with YanYu this morning. Things are going well, but obviously, there are plenty of rooms for improvement. I dunno how to explain what ive been feeling nowadays. U know, busy fingers and restless soul, has nothing to blame other than the gravity which keeps pulling me down. I want to fly for a moment, but its working against me. However true, to keep my safe and grounded with reality. I want to fly, but i need to be on my feet, because the path is lonely and i have to walk through it no matter how. As they always say, do it now since u have to do it sooner or later. Anyway, im kinda sure that this competition will be a screw up, a major political joke. For me, i just wish that im ignored sometimes, just like the period in ACS when i was ignored by somebody. I ponder back, and i think i must have felt horrible, but again, great! Because, i didnt have to suffer under such a selfish emir. No, not a king or ruler actually, its a dictator! I wont name him here, but well, its kinda obvious.

I just farted. It smells after a few seconds. In a more dynamical term, am i smelling it now in life? Or am i lucky that its some inodorlous fart.

Well, im back into blogging, i swear! Ive been feeling guilty for myself since i stopped. Of course, the main reason is as sinful as anything else, because im lazy. But, after thinking for a very long time, i found another reason to cover things up! I want to blog the truth, and not lie. For this period after my last entry, ive been living a lie. A horrible blatant liar impaled through me, and came into my world. People are turning like dolls, such cute looking plastics! Not just that, i cannot tolerate to lay my hands on the keyboard thinking about what not to blog, because it'll hurt others or indirectly reveal terrible facts which might indirectly or directly cause some misunderstandings. Well, im puzzled. Can anyone assemble me back into one piece?

Regardless whether im fixed or not, im still fragile, unless u frame me up. I mean, literally the frame, as a noun. Other than that, im just here to deny the fact that im lazy! Im not as lazy as i thought i was anymore! Behold, as the magic of my blog will unfold once again for myself to see. As for others, its just another junk place. Welcome back my little flies, because u cant get enough of my shit, can u?

More to come!