Superman

Im blogging early today , because ... im quite sure that nothing is going to happen later . Anyway , im trying to find my old portfolios , so i can lend it as reference to HuiQi . Just reference , thus ... it isnt plagiarism . Anyway , i just got home ... and Mom fetched me home and ... i got Christoven's MP3 in my bag . Imagine , how lonely is his journey home now . I'll return tomorrow , dun worry ...

Well , u wanna know how i feel ? I know , u dun really bother , but well ... u have to . Too bad . But , i'll tell u that later ... For now , let me recall the day ...

Woke up early , and went to school for lecture . DrKan's lectures are killing me . And i know , its kinda late for me to feel it now ... because , i was so enthusiastic for her lectures back then . Now , im feeling kinda bored , mainly because im kinda lost ... and i dun have much time to catch up with her speeding bullet ... points . So , anyway ... i didnt copy any notes , and thanks to YongRui , he'll be sending me the notes . Thanks alot .

Anyway , after that , we had harmony with Yohanna . But before so , YongRui and i went to have a little meal . We were released earlier ... because , next lecture is going to start half and hour earlier ... so , this time , she released us earlier . Well , not really worth the time . Think about it , we've to wake up a hell lot earlier just to attend the lecture next Thursday . Well , im not against DrKan , neither do i have any sparks with her , unlike Christoven . Im joking . But well , Christoven and DrKan are interesting if u put them together . Better , lock them in a room together .

Im only joking . Christoven is very independent and sovereign person .

Anyway , then i met KaiXiang , and i tried writing the title of the piece im playing . I was stuck with the first stroke ... and well , it proves ... im lousy with my Chinese . So much for a clown with no jokes in his books . Im like a Chinese instrumentalist ... knowing no Chinese . Im doomed , i know . But well , that'll depend ...

Yohanna's class was fine . But still , i think its better with Karen , because ... we get work done faster . Its kinda effective too . Yohanna will force us to do things ourselves , while ... Karen do things together with us . Both have very different teaching methods . For MrYap , even better ... he'll usually be very busy ... and sometimes , running about .

I stayed on later , to finish up my class work . After leaving , we went off to eat at Bugis . Remember the restaurant that i ate with Fairul ? The Thailand food restaurant . Well , i ordered green curry the other time , and i drank like 8 cups of water . This time , again ... nothing changed . The waiter changed , and its better . Well , we ordered a big meal , and i sat beside Vincent . There were many people there ... There was Samuel , Mark , May , LiSuan , YinXuan , Christoven , QingLun , LianWei , Vincent and i . Well , our meal cost around $114 . In the end , we only paid $110 ... and everybody left . I was the last to leave ... so the lady chased after me , and asked me to pay the $4 . So , i looked around ... and there wasnt anybody . My loss !

Aural was ... again , tough . We did very little work . Usually with Yohanna , we'll cover at least 2 pages of questions ... With EricWatson , we only got through 2 questions , and he'll play it like at least 5 times . Its tough ... and it seems tougher this year ... or isit that we're being pampered in some way or another . Im not sure , but i feel that i might fail this year's test . EricWatson was nice and very willing to help . He helped FeiYang and Charles ... to get the notes right . I am good with the melodic writing , so ZhengQiang copied some of my answers . But still , i think i must work hard on the rhythmic part ... because it'll be useless if i only get the pitch correct .

Anyway , after that , we went down for our history tutorial with DrKan . Again , another lecture to faint about . Before that , i did go around and help HuiQi with her portfolio . I think i forgot most of my stuffs already about the Baroque era . Weird ... but still , the general idea is still there . But if i were to write an essay out , it wont be as good as before ... i think . Anyway , so ... after class , Christoven and i headed to PlazaSing .

In class , i was disturbing Fairul . But to only realise that im disturbed myself . Thats how i feel . I think that im kinda disturbed by my surrounding . Well anyway , i better do something about myself . And of course , everybody should do something about themselves . But hack it .

Vincent was in the army before . U notice something ? WeiXiang and Vincent are rather similar in some ways . Dun u think so ? The smile and the ... character . So , army really changes a character . Look at my cousin , Timothy , he's grown to become more polite . Well , amazing work that the army has done . Or ... isit the food ? I think im going to pack my own sandwiches there ...

Went to watch the movie . U know , the movie on the return of Superman . Its cool , and today its the premiere . So , ive to private screening tickets . We had free popcorn and drinks ... and we bought some other snacks . Let me tell u , before the movie even started , the popcorn was already consumed ... leaving just the drinks and the extra snacks . Anyway , it started out with a sudden loud bang . So loud , it scared everyone . Remember , Christoven ?

For those who might consider going to watch the movie ? Because that this Superman this time is the most charming , or not , then its not the worth . Well , its as charming as how Jwen described it the other time . But well , its worth the money for the movie . I think its not that bad . But still , it doesnt have much fighting scenes ... Its all about Lex talking and planning his evil plans to ... destroy the earth ... ? No , but to destroy land . So anyway , Superman and his enemy , they fought and Superman almost died . Well , u might be able to guess the ending ...

Of course , Superman saves the day . Its kinda touching , almost . But still , it lacks some very good story plot . Its not bad , and excellent as compared to Batman .

Batman must be crying at home . Batman , u should be embarrassed . Go fly home , if u can .

So thats what melts the heart of all woman . A nice , gentle , charming and strong man . Girls , u might wanna consider Charles , our hot model .

Even the strongest would fall sometimes . Even the strongest would cry at times . Im no hero , neither am i Superman . I do fall and cry , but all i wish ... is to make it go away . My tears , make it dry ... for that , i do too , need a hero in my life .

Importance

How private indeed . Please , its so obvious ... with the pictures and the names . Im the only one who plays Pipa in school ... hello ... ? Except for Anthea and ShuMin ... but , its kinda impossible for them to know so many people in school yet ... right ? A little stupid .

But well , im wondering ... does a certain religion shape somebody's characters ? If it does , then why there are so many 'sinful' people around . I know , we're all sinners , but still ... according to the bible , people should try to follow the examples of Jesus . Yes , but not as in terms of being as holy as him . Because , we know , its not possible , but it is possible to try . The gist here is to , try .

Woke up quite late . So , again ... i took a cab to school . I wanted to take the bus , but well ... the bus took quite a while to arrive . So , i decided to take a cab down ... because its faster .

I wore bright yellow , and it attracted much attention . I entered the theatre , and Edward asked me to write down the piece that i'll be playing next week . I was , then , thinking about whether to really play that piece , or not to . Because the piece is ... kinda too easy . And moreover , for an easy song to sound that horrible , its kinda disappointing . QingLun wore pink , same goes to KaiXiang . They went for the interview for a grant by NAC . QingLun said that it didnt go quite well for him . EricWatson was there , KenChang and KellyTang was there too . 8 of them in total , and they are all local musicians , famous ones . I think it should be well for KaiXiang .

Im supposedly playing for the platform today , but thanks to the one next week , i told MsPhua that i'll skip today's . I hope ive more chances of performing next time , but still ... of course , i hope ive more time to prepare my pieces too . Angela was kinda nervous , but still , for her own performance on the Organ , its the most interesting one , for me . The Piano pieces were boring ... but YiKai's one was fine , because i like to see him perform . His body language matches his music very well . Maybe some people might not agree , but i think its really quite enjoyable , unlike some boring performance on the Piano with a retarded face .

We saw many things during the platform . Some people were sleeping , and leaning on each other ... and Jwen and i was drawing and writing stuffs during the Piano piece by Darius . Evan was sitting at the other corner , paying attention to his playing .

After the performance , we went to drink . QingLun , and his classmates ... let me recall them , Joyce , Tiffany and Jane . All Pianist , except Jane , who plays the Flute . I heard that she is very nice . On the contrary , Jane , the evil wife of my father , is a fucking bitch . So sorry for the vulgarity .

Evan , Jwen and i tagged along . I had my lunch there , and i think im going to shop around that place quite often . Because , i think the things are quite cheap . I'll drink and rot around there next time , so ... find me there .

Jwen , Evan and i sat around , laughing away . They left for class . And well , not really funny though . So , we went back to school .

I was walking around ... and doing nothing . I had nothing to do , so ... i wasted time till tutorial . DrKan played this video , on this symphony ... Well , i think Western conductors turn me off . I actually would love to see a Chinese conductor on stage more often then a Western one . Not in terms of the differeny orchestras , but actually ... in term of race . Not racist , but just maybe that Western conductors have this weird gesticulation . Chinese conductors have another more dramatic way of bring about the music . Well , ive seen Chinese conductors with the Western orchestras ... and they looked pretty fine to me . Western conductors , dun .

Anyway , i forced Fairul to sit beside me and May . And we talked . I passed around my rings , and they wore it and one of my rings , the one like a belt , was on May's fingers . And so ... ? It got stuck ? No . She likes it , so i'll let her wear it for the time being . Anyway , ive like 5 rings in my bag ... so , anytime , any one .

Tutorial was kinda ... boring . I think Western music has weird stories . So , the symphony that we heard is about this guy , who loves this woman . And well , he fell in love with her , and he dreamt about him killing her . So , he was condemned to death , and he marched to the scaffold , and met the witches of hell . Weird ? Yes , very weird .

Come , let me compare this to a story of a Pipa concerto . Its about this 2 Mongolian girls , taking care of their sheeps . And the storm comes , and they fought the storm together , just to protect their sheeps . And well , late at night , they walked through the cold unfeeling weather towards home . And finally , its dawn , and the morning light shone through the fog , and the homely feeling gushed over , as they danced around because they got through the storm . Typical children story , and its nice and touching .

I think in terms of story , actually ... the Chinese music is better . I think they can convey emotions better too . I think the songs or pieces , dun just have a structure , but has many things going on and stuff . Western music just sounds the same all the time . Now , here's something interesting . I see people sleeping during Western music concerts . I dun see as much sleeping in a Chinese music concert . Its the truth . Im not being biased or something . Well ... up to u to believe . If u dun mind , let me bring u out to a Chinese music concert one day .

Mind u , not pop , nor tradition , but modern or classical Chinese pieces .

Anyway , after history , we rushed down for sightsinging . Last week , we got scolded because DrKan released us late . Well , she gave that face when we told her that we had to go . Sightsinging was fun , we went through the choir piece . I sat beside YongRui . Anyway , before tutorial , i went to drink with Mark and SiHan . I ordered 2 pieces of egg ... and its nice ! I think i shall have that as lunch again .

Practiced for quite a long time . I used YouGuo's Pipa , and i felt kinda bad about it . I wanna buy my own Pipa as soon as possible , but when will that be ? I hope somebody can buy one for me ! Please ! Anyway , i was listening to Edric and his Trumpet at level 4 before that , and it sounded alright . Well , hardworking people . I see him practicing quite often , so does Samuel too . And mostly , YeoYee .

I think its time to wake up , WeiKang .

Jeremy took this horrible picture , and he showed me funny clips . I think he is like ... cool , but funny and ... weird . Really , weird . Well , he is currently chasing this girl ... I better stop here .

Now , i think i need to practice wisely . I went through some old pieces , and i think ive decided to use it for the platform next week ... because , maybe the piece for Anthea , ShuMin and i is too ... simple and ... not really nice to hear . Anyway , my piece aint going to be very nice either . Though its hard , its ... boring and old . I love ancient pieces .

Jeremy just sent me the picture . So ugly ! And Jwen is going to send me another one later . For me , i sent KaiXiang the NAFA logo ... He is so willing and hardworking . He is doing the programme note for the Chinese performance class . MrYeo should be doing it , but ... of course , its hard for him , because nobody can confirm what they'll be playing yet and moreover , he isnt in school often . To think of it , im performing for him this coming dunno when ... and i think im going to screw things up .

I think im not just playing Pipa already . Im starting to play Ruan with nails quite often . I want to ask ChaiXia or others to play , but ... they only want me , because they dun wanna trouble others . And its this connection thingi . So well ... im playing the Ruan , and its giving me headaches , because im not familiar with the fingerings and the keys at all ... So , im always thinking and improvising . But for somebody like me , its not bad already ! I still can produce a sound better and louder than some people . No offence , i mean those learning Ruans in school and stuff ...

Tomorrow will be a good day , i think . Because , we're going to see DrKan twice , and i'll be having aural class with EricWatson , and moreover , Yohanna is going to go through harmony tutorial . And u know what ? Ive only attended the classes once . Im so dead ... ?

Mom fetched me home , and i was reading this magazine that i found in school . And there's this section on the teenage icon thingi . KaiXiang joined the competition and got into the semi-finals . Well , i dunno why ... but ... why join the competition at all ? Weird . But well , im going to go watch him sing on my Mom's birthday . Because , it falls on that day . Good luck !

I gave Mom the ring , and she was ... stunned . Not because she is elated , because she's been recieving gifts like jewelleries ever since dunno when from me , but she was shocked because my diamond is bigger than hers ! And she asked why so ... and i said , because im the guy . And then she dropped her jaw ... and she talked nonsense , as in literally ... like baby language . So cute and funny ...

This year February , i posted this title , and that title is the piece that im going to play . It talks about the sound of silence . As in like Singaporeans , they dun say things out to the government even if they're not happy . For the composer , he aint happy with the society , but there's nothing he can say or do , so ... this song is about an inner shouting , frustration . Its difficult , in terms of both techniques and music . Im gonna have a hard time playing this piece , because its slow ... and very fast too . I burnt my fingers playing this just now .

I took away my father's ring , and left it in the corner . Why ? Because he is gone , and now Mom is the most important person i have now . Ive to take care of her , and make sure she enjoys her life here with me . She always tell others that she is the most lucky to have me as a son , but back at home , she'll shout and tell me how unlucky she is ... because i dun wash my own clothings and stuff . Funny , yes , i thought so , but to think of it , i must treasure her more than Dad , because after all , she is alone with me , and she promised not to marry again , for my sake . As for Dad , he got his horrible witch to take care of him , which caused his death . And well , as for him also , he has a family , a new family . For Mom , she only has me . So , whats the weightage ? U measure .

The Wannabe

Woke up earlier , and of course , i wasnt late . I went to school , all by myself . Uncle didnt fetch me to the bus-stop , neither did he really bothered to do so , because he was watching soccer ... and he didnt even get ready when he saw me carrying my bag and stuff . Well , so much for the football ... and the money , i think . So , i went to school , all by myself . Did i hear some clapping ? Thanks , so much for the encouragement .

Just came home from a sleepy journey , in bus 13 . Im so dead , i went to many different orchestras within this few month . Today , i went to PAYCO . QingLun brought me and ShuMin there . To think of it , i might join ... because , i think its rather interesting . But , im afraid of politics . So , for the people there ... im not really sure yet . But , they look find to me ... especially since Andy is there too . So anyway , we took a cab there after drinking soya . ShuMin paid for the cab first , and ... she bought curry vegetable for us during dinner . How sweet ... not ! Its time to talk about her ...

She is very rough ! She pinched me , and now ... im bruising all over . She is very nice , funny and sociable . I think im in good terms with her . But , she pinches people ! I hate pinching , because i'll bruise easily . I remember those days back in ACS ... when im not pinched , but punched ! Thanks to Darius and gang . So , i went to OBS with bruises ... As for Darius , he has scars and scratches ... from my claws .

Anyway , MsLim , our Chinese music teacher ... came early . She was doing the computer and stuff ... and today , she's all dressed up . Nice hair and eyes . She taught us about Percussion today , and well ... its amazing how they create this kinda bells , that produces 2 different pitches . Dun u think its amazing ? For the Chinese people , during the ancient period , to create this gigantic huge bells ... ? And well , somebody , dunno isit dumb or what , asked if the bells are made to sound out of tune . For those ... idiots , please do not compare ethnical music to ur dear precious well trained Western knowledge . Its nothing quite similar , so ... if its out of tune , bear with it , its still music . Its only out of tune to ur ears .

What has gotten over me ? I dunno . Bitch .

Class was fun . Again , she got really excited ... and she starts talking like shes gonna cry . So cute . I think its the best class ever . So much fun ... and interesting things to see and hear . I like Chinese music class . I mean , tradition Chinese music .

Harmony was great too . For the first time , i felt so ... comfortable . Sometimes , i hide with fear ... knowing that he might just call my name anytime to answer any question ... and worse , when the class is quiet . U know , i cant answer questions like that , i usually need time to think and write or type it out , to give a good answer . Not good , but better . So , if DrKan or anybody ask me any question , i'll just freak out and keep quiet . So , he did ask me a question , and before he even did so , i told him that i dunno . I kept asking Fhairil to explain the things he said to me ... finally , i understood . MrYap was in a very good mood , and i love it when teachers are happy ... because , they wont stress us . Especially DrGoh ... somebody please make him happy everyday ! I dun wanna see him frown .

After that , we went to eat . Ate something simple , with Fhairil and Mark . But later , many came along too . ShuMin , Mark , Fhairil and i sat together . The Malay food opposite NAFA is good . So , YeoYee and her friends were there too . Well , later then she came over , and we talked about this horrible person . He plays the ErHu too . Jason , its not u . And well , this horrible person picks on everybody , and especially YeoYee too . Evil people ... Well , ignore people like that , they're plentiful around ... so , treat them like grass . Step on it .

QingLun took medical leave today . I wonder why ...

I forgot , im not suppose to tell anyone about it . I just did ...

Anyway , he came over to NAFA later . And ShuMin , Anthea and i practiced our piece . We're going to perform this Pipa solo , simple piece , next week . And well , we made it into another version , for 3 players . So , we added things , and removed things ... and well , we made the piece for ourselves . The composer is dead ... right ? Im sorry , well ... im only joking . But people has been doing this kinda things for decades . I think its only a practice that changing scores is a new trend that follows the next generation . So , listen to us next week . Its gonna be noisy ... and amazingly , weird .

ShuMin and i played around after Anthea left . We played some pieces , and we went to eat with QingLun . He dragged us out to curry rice , again ! Well , we didnt eat , we watched him eat . And after that , we went back to NAFA . On our way back , we saw somebody . It was YinHao with his girlfriend . U know , the Dizi guy ... and the girlfriend , an ErHu player . But well , i didnt wanna say hello , because we're not really that close . But sure , we talk and wave when we see each other during concerts or events . But not today . He opens a shop somewhere ... which im not really sure . So capable ... ?

After that , we practiced for a while ... and heard QingLun play . He has this very amazing long part , which requires cycle breathing . People may find that amazing , but actually ... its quite nothing . For me , it still amazes me . Somebody once told me that they breath and blow at the same time , so thats why ... i found it amazing . But hell , that guy lied ! I hope he rot in hell . So anyway , QingLun explained the concept of the technique to me . Now , i know . So , i can start lying to those that doesnt ! Im so ... evil . He played for us , and it was good .

Remember the rare Pipa concerto i talked about ? I heard it . It sucks big time .

So , we took a cab over to PAYCO . The conductor was Sydney , this composer or arranger , who arranged a piece by DickLee , and he was conducting it . I felt the unfriendly coldness when i entered the room . He was scolding the electrician , or dunno whateva . So well , he has attitude problem . Is he a wannabe ... ? Or is he really professional ? His comments are very ... secondary . He gives comments like its from a view of a very simple musician . So , he arranged the music for the Indian , Malay , Western and Chinese orchestra . But well , the Chinese instruments rest for a chunk of big monkey bars . He doesnt know how to write ... thats all i can say . He wrote a non-existing note for the ErHu , and he doesnt know the correct octaves of the ErHu . Anyway , he was kinda strict , and kinda ... act big . Well , whateva . I didnt like it . Good thing , after their upcoming concert , he wont be back .

Gale was the only Pipa player there . Harry has exams or something ... So anyway , she has this cute little good Pipa . Richard and Fhairil came later . I saw the grim on Fhairil's face when Sydney conducted . I know , the expression is weird . Is he of a more ... modern composer ? Or ... maybe , just a person who happens to know how to compose ? Maybe i'll become like that one day . Who knows ... ? ChenWei said that for somebody who doesnt have any training , i have compositional talent ! I love u , ChenWei . Im joking . But well , thanks for the comment .

Yesterday , i sent a few of my compositions to Jason . He composes too , and i heard his piece . Rather nice . Unlike mine .

Im going to go do some other stuff now . Enough for my own blog ... its time to do something else . Jwen , u know .

Half

I almost forgot ... im back into blogging . So , again , i have to ... enter my password ... and type a really tedious entry . It racks my brain , but again ... its worth the reading .

Cyril is a liar . Anyway , he has gone back into his army thingi . He said ... that he misses army . Weird , yes . And he said that it gave him his six packs . In scientific sense , we all have six packs , or maybe eight . But , for me , its covered up by this super huge pack of muscle .

As ive predicted , i woke up late today . Actually , i did wake up at around 7 am , but ... well , i thought maybe i'll close my eyes for a few more minutes . Thats always the case , its already a wont already . Anyway , wont is a tradition and custom . So , i entered dreamland for a while ... and i dreamt of Dad , with me at this some water event . I dunno what , but thats not the point . It was only like 15 minutes in dreamland , and in reality , its already 8 plus . So , im late . I knew it .

I bathed , and took my bag . I rushed down to the busy road . Ever so empty , but the cabs are ever so busy there . When u need a cab , u dun get one . When u dun need one , a single wave would stop a few . Yes , ur right ... i stood there , and waited for a very long time . Finally , a cab .

I shouldnt have opened my mouth . So , again ... the usual hot topics of taxi drivers , government . PAP this and that ... so many nonsense and so many complains . But well , maybe its my fault ... because i mentioned to him about the ERP , and that'll lead into the topic of the government crap . True , they talk alot and do nothing , but still ... they're government . He was cursing ... and i dun think its good if i mention his name here ... who knows , he might get caught in the later weeks .

So , i was late , and i saw ZhengYi , and i felt ... secured . We were both late , and DrManhart was kind enough not to mark us absent . But well , we're not really that late actually . So , he talked about some ethnomusicological terms , and i was ... lost . He gave a question to everybody , and its marked as a quiz thingi . So , when he asked me , i gave him a very definite answer . I said , i dunno .

We were given a few instruments , a total of 6 groups . And i was with Sonalia and Natasha . He gave us 2 different Flutes . Its bamboo Flutes , and it belongs to the Indonesian flutes . So , we described it , and we even played it . I played one of the Indonesian Oboe ... which has this reed that vibrates , but ... due to the air condition , sometimes ... it might not work . Amazing ... ? Sonalia played the Gamelan Flute . Ive seen that one before , Noozli played it . So anyway , the best description of the instruments came from ZhengYi . He got some Percussion instruments , so ... he knew them all already ! Not fair ! But hell , it was damn good . Not just the techniques , but the history of it too . Amazing job . I mean , good job . U know ...

Vincent , this new Pianist in our class , was so ... cute and funny . He was describing the Gong ... which is also known as the NippleGong , i think . The name made me laugh ... but i think he doesnt know the real name of it . Anyway , its funny in a good way .

The vocalists described the vocal music pieces , and they were so subjective , and comparative towards the Western tonality and stuff . The voices were stronger and weaker and stuff ... and the singer breathed with her lungs , not the whole body . Whateva . For me , i think i'll prefer those 'weaker' singing . I think those Sopranos are giving me a headache sometimes . Too much ...

Took a break , and had curry rice with quite a few people . Noticed that KaiXiang dun usually hang around ... or maybe its me , i dun hang around much with him . Havent got the time to . Im usually closer with QingLun . He is a nice lad . So , Evan , Jwen , HaoSong , Richard , Fairul , Jason , Sebestian , QingLun and i ate together . Had fun eating and chatting ...

Had Chinese ensemble again . I played the Ruan . Did i not tell u guys that ? Im playing the Ruan ! Because , there's ShuMin and Anthea playing the Pipa ... they'll need a Ruan player , so ... im playing it , because maybe im better ? Im joking . But seriously , i think i can sightread better on the Ruan . I play with my brain , seriously . Its cracking a hole in my head . I think so hard to get the keys right ... and the chords . So , sometimes , ive to improvise . And , as u know ... i use the nails , so ... there's quite a limitation , or else ... the hands will become like those students of DingXiaoYan . Not bad , but still ... ugly .

Anthea deserves a scolding ! Anthea , if ur reading this ... u better watch out ! Im going to kill u ! Im joking , but im quite mad . She didnt bring her Pipa , and she didnt bring her nails . How can a Pipa player not carry nails around ? How possible ? U tell me , please ! Have u seen a blind man without his walking stick ? Never ! So , please , bring ur own nails . Not carrying a Pipa around is alright ... because , u dun see a lawyer wearing his wig all the time . So , get it ? I know im talking cock , but still ... it makes me a smart cock then . Let me tell u guys ... i didnt wanna bother YouGuo for a certain score , so ... he told me that Anthea has it , so ... i trusted Anthea , and i thought maybe i'll just get it from her . Its been 2 weeks ... and i havent gotten it only till last Friday . And better ... she told me that she was printing it on Monday . Last Monday , and ... so , the lady will call her when its ready . Till Friday then she told me that the lady forgot to print . So , if she forgets , she returns u the score ? She'll print it what ... U get what i mean ? Anthea , ur lies are ... stupid . Not just that , u dun have to lie to me ... Im very nice one . I wont force u or anything . But one thing , im damn mad that u dun pick up calls or even reply messages . So , i called her so many times , she'll never even reply . When i told her that in school , she'll just smile . Honestly , Anthea , if ur character is like that , and it doesnt change , ur hopeless . Next time , nobody will call u to play anything or teach anybody . Because , ur not trust worthy . Seriously ! Change , for fuck sake ! I know u have ur problems at home or somewhere , but still ... this shouldnt affect ur character . It might be fate or coincidence that is going against ur life , but still ... things should be like that . I used MrYeo's phone to call u that day , or else i know i wont even get a chance to get the score from u . I told YanYu about this ... and she's also quite angry . Where got people like that one ? Dun tell me when im not around u got bring the scores , i believe u dun ...

Look , now this whole chunk of paragraph looks like some dedication to u . Anthea , im not against u or something . Im really trying me best to be nice . But u just dun respect people and u dun have the musicianship . Right after that day , u tricked Dedric and i to look for u at the MRT station , i knew it ... ur not right . As in , mentally . And that day , and the SYCO audition , a few year ago ... i dun even know u , and u gave me such a horrible nickname . No respect . Anthea , this music circle aint like ur school friends . Life is different . Im a friend , but not ur bitch .

I know , im bitchy . I have a pointed tail .

Enough .

After class , we went to drink and then we went to watch a movie at Suntec . So , Dedric wanted to watch at Shaw , so ... we walked all the way there . I repeat , we walked all the way there . Its so hot and its so ... tiring . In the end , there's no movie to watch there . We walked over to Suntec , and we watched this movie about luck and stuff . Good movie . I think the actor is so handsome . And of course , the actress beautiful . I sound gay ! Nevermind ...

After that , we went back to school . We walked back ! So far . HaoSong went off first . Then , we stayed in school ... and did nothing much . Downloaded a song for me , Dedric , and its something ive always wanted to hear . Its a rare Pipa concerto piece . So , anyway , im going to listen to it later . ShuMin and i will be playing a duet this time for platform the week after this coming platform . So ... exciting , because i never play the piece before . Interesting ...

We'll practice tomorrow .

We went to drink soya , and we talked . We compared teachers ... and we talked about many teachers . Interesting facts ... and history behind certain people . Gossips , u may call it . But still , its fun ... and nothing offensive .

After that , we all went home .

I was tuning the radio ... and i found nothing to soothe my ears . They are aching for something nice , and angelic . But well , there's nothing . So , i turned off the radio that sang familiar love songs ... saying that love doesnt hurt and love kills all pain . The radio is getting ... boring ...

Its the second post already . I hope this will go on ... but well , hope things wont happen again . Things that will make me hate blogging . But still , did i not mention this ... ? Jane is a bitch !

U guys know .

Anyway , i know . I havent mention ... about choir ! Today , he was in a good mood . I talked to Jennifer about the chamber choir thingi . So , i can excuse myself for this semester . So anyway , we had the test ! And i was the second name to be called ! I have to sing ! I was so nervous . Honestly , i did practice it . Really ! I wrote the notes , but some , i couldnt quite figure yet . Im slow at thinking , im not a good musician , i know . But well , i somehow ... passed the test . He said im half half . So , its ... pass ... right ? Nevermind . QingLun got called upon too , and Jason too . They failed . So funny . Lucky KaiXiang , he went toilet .

Well , great day ... and a better day ahead of me . Hope to see u guys tomorrow . Goodnight . U know , im half . Of everything . Even , half talented .

Rise And Shine

Hello ! Good morning .

I thought maybe its the end of this miserable blog . But well , its back by popular demand ! Right , im joking . But really , many people asked if im gonna continue blogging . For those who might know me better , u'll know , i will continue someday after the saga is over . But hell , its not over yet . Stupid dumb bitch Jane is still on the loose . So , who let the dog out ?

Im sure one day , somebody will claim that bitch back . But for now , lets put all these things aside . I dun wanna rise to such an occasion yet . Today is the first entry after a long coma , so whats the hap about today ? Nothing , but just a summary of what ive done for these few missing weeks .

Dad passed on that day , and from that day on , i thought i'll stop blogging . Mainly because im tired of it , bringing across this message that Jane is a bitch everyday . But , who cares actually ? So , next , something happened to Evan . Remember ? She got scolded for blogging bad things about NAFA . True , she deserves it , but ... im joking . But seriously , i think if some things are true , there's nothing wrong to blog about . Singaporeans dun always say that Singapore is a good country . Yes , Singapore is cool , i mean not , and Singapore is a safe place to call home . Those who can agree , will agree . Common sense . But look at NAFA , its a good place and everybody work really fast .

Right .

Christoven came for the wake , only him . I didnt wanna tell anybody , like as if some kinda news broadcast . So , forget about the publication . Adams did ask , and im grateful for his concern , but i didnt tell him the address . Its gonna be quite hopeless for him to come down ... because , theres nothing to do , and theres nothing to talk about . Other than the respect and concern issues , theres nothing else . So , nevermind . A few days ago , DrKan asked if my father is doing fine . And i was stunned ... How am i going to answer that ? So , i just gave her a weird look . Then she thought maybe im not comfortable telling her ... so she gave another weird look . After class , i told her that Dad was called home , and she gave another surprised look . Weird . She is so kind and caring . But maybe she can also try being more merciful on those portfolios ...

I went back to school on Friday , exactly a week break . I applied for a week , because i thought i'll be busy with some other things ... But well , Jane is doing everything , and getting everything . Did i mention that ? That fucking whore ! That bitch is taking everything ! Dad didnt leave me a single cent ! Fucking whore ! Trust me , she psychoed Dad so badly , im ... speechless . Stupid bitch ! I feel so sad now ...

But anyway , as i was saying ... I took a break , but actually i didnt really need it . I was home , thinking about Jane , not in a good way . And i was cursing away , and trying to find some ways to get to see the will that Dad left wrote . Well , im not sure about the will yet , she have not replied yet . U see , im not after the money . I told everybody that . But they told me that the money is important , not just that its for my education and for taking care of Mom , but also that its not fair for that bitch to take everything ! True ! So true ! That whore ! I tell u , she is a bitch !

Let me admit , one reason why im back into blogging ... is because , i wanna curse that bitch every fucking day ! I tell u , again , she is a bitch ! A whore !

To think about whores , i watched a movie with Christoven yesterday . Its about this 2 clowns , and this foolish king . Great movie . I know , i seldom will watch Korean movies , mainly because i hate Asian stuffs ... but not Pipa , and the language problem . I hate reading the subtitles so much ... because , i cannot look around at the pictures and stuff ... U know , the screen is so bloody big . That time , i had to scroll my eyes around , to see the whole image of a single scene .

So , Mom found out about my cashcard . Too much , i tell u boy , too much . I bought many CDs , and she found out , from the reciept . So , ive been spending , and not depositing money into the account . Im so screwed . I was scolded . And i told her i bought clothings . And she scolded me even more . No more clothings , no more ! She said , if i wanna buy , i should buy expensive things at a cheaper price , not cheap things at a cheaper price . So , i did . I spent $380 yesterday night , with Christoven . What did i buy ? I dun tell u . Actually , that thing would have cost me around ... $600 . Thanks to the discount . I love u , Singapore sales .

Ive been helping other orchestras , i dun even have time for my own . Ive missed 3 weeks of CSCO , i went to help MrYeo and MrBoo . So , ive 2 performances coming up . Interesting ... And im not sure how exactly would others think about that . But , please , i have my own decision , and i still treat CSCO as a home . Hopefully im not just a maid . Am i ?

Life in school has been ... great . People are nice . Did i not say ... ? Only some . So , Chinese ensemble sounds so much better ... and the performance classes are so much ... more professional . Got to know QingLun alot better , nice lad . And i got to know myself more . This sounds ... like some ego boosting talk . Nevermind . U know what ? KaiXiang ... reminds me of YiChun .

Those were the days ...

Anyway , work load hasnt changed . Still aplenty . Ive to buck up with ethnomusicology , i hope i didnt miss out much . I know im struggling with harmony and history . But well , tomorrow is choir test . Again , DrGoh wasnt in a good mood last week , and he told us to practice , for that he might just call any 4 out to sing during tomorrow's session . I hope he'll be alright .

I bought quite a number of DVDs , to kill time with .

YanYu is getting abit ... bigger . Why ? Because she is pregnant . Obvious . So , im still having lessons with her . She didnt give me up ! Im surprised ! After listening to some things that she tell me , i felt so ... touched . I love u , YanYu . Mom , dun be jealous . I'll usually go for classes , with an empty mind . Not to be filled , but to be refreshed . So , i didnt practice much , but ... i managed to do what she told me to do . Im surprised ! I love u , WeiKang .

Its time to go slack around . Life has been too ... cramped up . Its time to stretch it out a little . But how much time do we have ? Little . This year is going to be short . So ... well ... not much time to slack around also . That day , i went over to stay over at Jasmine's place . We watched movies for the whole night . Well , Sharon , ChaiXia and i were there . And her mother cooked ... my personal favourite ... rice !

Im joking , its curry . So , i ate alot ! I tell u , reallly , alot .

I love curry .

Grandpa was admitted into the hospital . Blockage of the ... blood vessels thingi . So , they cleared it . It was kinda serious , but not really . So , i went to visit him yesterday , after eating with Christoven , then i met him again later . He was in the intensive care ward ... When i was there , everybody looked gloomy ... except for one little angel . Grandpa , the cutest thing ive ever seen in my entire life ! I tell u , i love my grandpa . He was educated in the Japanese school during the world war ... so , he can speak quite a few languages . We usually communicate in English ... and my grandma dun understand a single English . But sometimes , i'll speak English to her ... and i dunno why . Nevermind that . He was lying in the bed , smiling and laughing away . He held my hand , and when he talked , he gesticulated and moved alot . His hands , full of needles , moved around ... and i was shocked , and i was staring at his hands all the time while he was talking to me . So , i told him to be careful of the needles , then he told me its nothing , then he showed me a bigger one . What the hell ? Its bloody huge . All the way between the thighs ! So , the nurse fed him , and he talked to me , and told the nurse that i play the Pipa . So , the same things again ... Pipa how many strings ... fingers will hurt or not ... where to buy ... isit cheap ... very amazing ... i love the sound ... can play pop songs ... ? Right .

Grandpa is so cute ! I love my grandpa . U know , once , my auntie asked who do i love more , Dad or Mom ... and i told her , grandpa . Its the truth ! I love grandpa !

I might go down to Mandai again , to visit Dad . If u wanna come , ask me . Its fine .

Im waiting for Mom to come home , so i can give her her gift . Its late , i know ... its actually a mother's day gift . Im slow . Because i was choosing wisely . I know , im a good son . Praise me .

That grandpa is my paternal side's , my maternal grandma just had her operation . U know what , ive been visiting the hospitals since December last year . Grandma couldnt see , so we removed her right eye .

Dun laugh .

That sounds sadistic ! No . The doctors said that it might affect the other eye , so its best to remove it . They replaced it with a fake eyeball . I know , dun tell me . Cyclops is alive again .

Im so evil ! Im joking ... really ...

I rubbed the computer screen , and i took it out to the bathroom . I took some foam and scrubbed it . Washed the screen ... and removed the water inside . Then , i clothed it ... because , its time to wake up ! Rise and shine , no more sleeping . The blog is finally , back and alive and kicking !

Come back for more each day . I know i told u guys i wont blog . But ... screw me ! I lied !

Evil ...

And so , come back again .

Goodnight

Well , i missed out on one entry before Thursday . But well , im not going to blog anymore . If i were to blog about what happened , it'll be seem as im seeking sympathy . Im not , because im not Jane's son . Im Simon's , my Dad , only son . And i'll end my blog here .

Goodnight Dad .

Numbered

So im wrong . Laurel wasnt with his girlfriend ! Its just a friend ... I see . Ive to stop assuming . Stop it , WeiKang ! So sorry for the misunderstanding ... Well , it seemed so ... Nevermind ! Forget what ive said .

I dunno why , but internet now is so slow . Impatience is killing me ... i cannot wait !

Woke up kinda early , but later than yesterday . And well , i took a bus down to school again . This time , i bought breakfast up . I saw this group of fresh blood ... i mean , new students going to school together . They're from the other campus , and they were like kids , u know ... holding hands , fingers on the lips and lining up in twos . Of course not like that , but they gave me the impression so .

Got into class , and found nobody in class . Soon , the lecturer came . Its a new teacher , not MrYeo anymore . Its MsLimChooLi , u know , the Zheng professional player in Singapore . Well , she graduated from China , and she's now teaching the same module in other institutions , but this was her first time in NAFA . And well , screwed up system . She said that she havent even signed any contract with Adams ... and she didnt even know whether she's going to teach or not . Dumb right ? NAFA's system is slow as a dead snail . When they get faster , i think we're all going to be international stars . Well , thats impossible , so ... get what im saying ? MsLim said that she doesnt know what is the criteria for us ... and all those stuff . Well , all ive to say is that ... the module wont work if she doesnt settle this fast .

She is very nice . I've heard that she'll be something like DrKan . But well , she is very sweet and nice . She doesnt scold ... and she has a very cute way of talking . Dramatic . Well , sometimes totally out of point ... and she'll talk and talk ... and sometimes get so carried away that she doesnt even know where she stopped . So , Natasha was in the class , and poor her , because MsLim spoke Chinese . Natasha was sitting there ... trying her best , or not even , to pay attention . Well , Christoven also didnt understand much ... so , he told her to speak more English , and she agreed . But well , progressively , she'll fall back into her Mandarin . Its so funny . Well , Jwen and Evan were like ... not interested . Especially Evan ! She was putting her legs up and talking so loudly ! My goodness ...

So , i , personally , enjoyed myself for the class . But , i think for the rest , maybe not . Firstly , understanding that Chinese music aint anything close with Western music is kinda hard to percieve . Chinese music aint so intellectual as compared to Western , but it is more meaningful and emotional as compared to Western music .

After class , we headed straight for harmony lecture . Well , its kinda fine for me to go for harmony lecture after that class . Because , she'll release us earlier ... for maybe a few minutes . Did i tell u ? This girl came into our class , and only found out that she was in the wrong class after 45 minutes or so . Year ones ...

For the lecture , QingLun came in . He came into the wrong class ... i was like telling him to go , and Evan asked why was he in the class . Its our harmony lecture . We were going through our results and groups . Well , Samuel and SiHan were pending under MrYap's decision or Adam's , for them to repeat or not to , because they failed . So , its decided that Samuel will be going for year 1's harmony . A chance for him to socialise around ... and for SiHan , im not sure .

So , the lecture was ... boring ... I understood the things that he said , but well ... i know i wont do well in harmony . Im just never good with maths . Its the same . As for Noozli , he is different , he is better . I was sitting there , trying hard to catch my breathe . I couldnt breath , and i was panting ... So , i needed some kinda strong mint or whateva to help me . I took this chewing gum from Jwen , and it helped . But , it smelled terrible , its ginseng . So , ive got one from Jobyna , which was some other flavour ... and it mixed them together , and inhaled it .

I yawned in class , then i suddenly remembered ... MrYap is just beside me ! Stunned there , i didnt know what to do . Then , Samuel laughed . Next , MrYap told me to give him . Give him what ? So , i was holding the chewing gum , so i passed it to him . So dumb .

Before the history class , with DrKan , i was slacking around in school . I bought sandwiches and then , i went to disturb Fairul . Next , i played games with HuiQi . Then , Jwen , Evan and Fhairil came into the computer lab . Before lecture , YinXuan and i went to see EricWatson . So , we've a clash . We're repeating our module on music technology , remember ? And it clashes with harmony . So , too bad . Harmony's more important ... thus , we might attend computer technology during the next semester . And u know what ? Now , they've to buy this music technology book ! What the hell ! Im so unlucky ! I should've not skipped that one lesson last year . Honestly , i wasnt feeling well ! And so i dun have a formal letter or anything ... Damn it !

History class was alright . With lots of funny things ... and well , DrKan went through plagiarism , again . So , what is plagiarism ? I think u guys should know what it is by now . The lesson wasnt anything much , but just ... some basic concepts on plagiarism and on our assessment stuff .

After class , HuiQi and i went to Bugis to look for Evan and gang , because they were there shopping ... and they didnt wanna wait for me . Gabriel tagged along , and we sent him off . It was hard to get him to come along ... but anyway , he went home . HuiQi and i met up with Evan , Jwen , Fairul and Laurel at Bugis . Laurel and Fairul went off earlier for class ... So , Evan , Jwen , HuiQi and i found somewhere to settle down ... and we , talked .

Talked for quite a while ... then , i called Richard down . He passed me the DVDs , so i could watch later at SengKang . But well , what we talked about ... should not be said here . Even HuiQi , has a fear that i'll blog whateva i hear . Well , i dun . If i do , everybody would die already .

Secrets are secrets , and nobody where they are , they are deep inside , and i wont pour them out for no good reasons .

Went over to SengKang by bus 80 . And damn , its crowded . So , i sat somewhere really uncomfortable ... it was this facing sideways one . I was tired , and the journey took so long . It felt like as if a day had passed ... but well , i stayed on the bus ... and i kept waking up , like some freak . I hate taking the bus when im tired . So , everybody was facing me and stuff ... its so horrible !

Well , bad news . Or maybe good too , Dad isnt going to make it anymore .

Missing

As u all may know , or for those who still think its the holidays , its time to wake up ! So , i slept early , and of course ... for what i sow , i'll reap . I woke up early , and thanks to Chester ... he didnt off the TV , thus the alarm didnt sound . But , with my own will power , i woke up in time .

Took the bus and i was too early for school . So , i had my lonely breakfast with the airwaves . The radio entertained me throughout my journey to school ... After eating , i went upstairs ... and i was so excited about my new elective modules . Tomorrow i'll be having tradition Chinese music ... by ... somebody . And today , i was so early , so ... i sat in and listened to some of the recordings that DrThomasManhart played . He saw me earlier , walking around at the corners ... then when i entered the classroom , he was like surprised and showed me a thumb up .

At 9 am , exactly , there's only 3 in the class , Charmaine , Jobyna and i . So , there's supposingly 13 , so ... where are the rest ? Well , DrManhart was very nice . He talked to us ... but with a little German accent ... which sounded rather weird to me . But well , at least i can catch what he's saying , thats good enough . More and more came in , later and later . Soon , the class was filled , but with a few more missing . Valerie was the last to come into class . DrManhart was rather patient and he was very funny . He is lame , and smart and the same time . So , a good combination ... i must say , a good choice other than DrGoh's modules . But well , i didnt wanna do orchestration because he warned us about how difficult its going to get , and also the fact that i wont be doing orchestration for Western instruments in the future ... Or maybe i would , but definitely not the Brass instruments . I hate transposing scores ... and of course , that'll happen in the Brass instrument's cases . As in , not the cases ... but as in that case . U know ? Nevermind ...

DrManhart went on into the introduction of ethnomusicology , which is the name of my module . Its simply known as world music to outsiders , but well ... ethnomusicology has more to that . It involves the study of anthropology as well , which is the study of man . So in short , its actually just about ... people making music ! As in ... studying individuals and societies all around the world , including the Western countries , and their musical developments . It explores the ways in which people make use of tradition in daily life as well as times of crisis , celebration , and changes . It explores the dynamics of tradition and creativity in society . Combining the perspectives of the humanities and social sciences , folklorists examine processes of individual creativity and of communication in diverse social and cultural settings throughout the world . So , doesnt that sound interesting ... ? There is no definite defination on ethnomusicology , and there are many perspectives to it , as well as concerns . I think im going to enjoy my time playing , as in fun , in this class ... as well as the time spent on doing research projects . At least , honestly , its way more fun compared to DrKan's lectures .

However so , DrKan's lectures are the most important thing ...

Anyway , after class , we went to check SiHan's modules . Somebody picked studio recording techniques . Good , next time can help me record ... Anyway , SiHan's module starts during next semester . Unfair ! Where is the justice ? The paper has so many lines ... and to check ur module , u've to find ur name ... then follow the line till it has a tick ... then follow upwards to check the module title . Thats so freaking difficult ... By the time u follow the line , ur already at somebody else's slot . What the hell right ? They should design the chart again .

After class , i thought im going to die because i dun have a Pipa for ensemble later . But who knows , there aint any orchestra or ensemble training this week ... because , theres going to be a talk at 2 pm . So , before going for the talk ... i went to KarlHeng to meet YouGuo .

He was teaching there , so i stayed around and played the Pipa and the Ruan . Had some really nice conversations there while waiting for him . He withdrew some money for me , and suddenly , i felt ... rich ! Thanks YouGuo , and especially the scores . He passed them to me today , and i copied it straight away ... The lady at the shop has some attitude problems ... Well , must be all the stress that the papers were giving . She took really long to print the scores , and she printed them double sided ... Its a music score , hello ? Maybe she doesnt know .

We talked about life ... and some people that he saw yesterday or a few days ago . Disgusting people . Its just somebody , not worthy to be mentioned in this blog . Or else , im gonna be sued again . But hopefully , this time , somebody will send the lawyer's letter to my house . I dun like invisable ones . Anyway , after that ... i walked him to the MRT station , then i saw Laurel and his girlfriend . I wanted to pretend not to see him , then he waved ... How nice ? So , ive no choice ... but to wave back . Im so evil . Well , i didnt wanna wave because he's with his girlfriend ... i thought he'll feel weird and stuff if somebody sees him and stuff ... I dunno ! Im too sensitive .

Anyway , we saw DrKan today . And well , she was crippling around . She fell down quite badly , and everybody was like rushing towards her ... She fell a few days ago , and i think its quite serious . She was walking alone towards the recital hall . Poor thing ! Our hearts melted ... and created this flood . But , lectures would still go on ... right ? Damn . DrKan should really take a break ! She needs rest , and she needs time for herself . Please pay her more and beg her to stop working so hard . Im joking . DrKan is a good and motivated teacher .

ChaiXia has a new dog ! What the hell ? No way ! When can i have one for myself ? But , i think it'll die in my arms ... Not the smell , but because of the insufficient care ... Well , ive barely any time for myself ... i dun think i should get a pet or something .

So , many people asked whoeva Dickshen is ... ? And well , Dickshen is my baby cousin . And he is cute as hell ! Get the point ? Cute as hell ... ? See ! Now , he is singing outside ... actually , shouting some repeating lines . So noisy . Well , he is really cute . I think he'll grow up to be some really good looking handsome dude . Dun read the next line . Anyway , hes so cute , but well ... just slightly off compared to me .

Save the vomit ! Im joking !

But well , im going to deface him !

Had lunch with SiHan and Fairul . Not lunch actually ... just a slight snack . SiHan at some ice-cream , and i ate my sandwiches over at the NAFA canteen . Adams told us that its new , because some new management has taken over , and it might be worth a try . So , SiHan bought 3 ice-creams ... and treated to Fairul one . Its scary . He ate like 3 ice-creams ... Now , no wonder ...

The talk that Adam gave was ... rather boring , but still , important . So , we're going to have 13 days of holidays ! Aint anybody excited ? Im excited as a baby tadpole .

What the ... ?

So , the year is going to be really short . And things will thus be rather intense ...

Fairul went off to shop with Evan and gang . SiHan sat around with Samuel and gang . So , i went back to school . Dun cry for me , its nothing sad . I went to find my Pipa , because i'll be having lessons with YanYu at 7 pm and its settled . So , im scared .

I then met Rit , or KaiXiang , and he asked about booking rooms . Then , i stood around and talked to Jeremy and Sebestian . Jeremy made so many friends already ... cheeky monster . Sebestian was just shitting around and stuff , nobody cared . Funny . So , after that , i played around with SiHan in the studio . I played his concerto piece in some really dumb style . HuiQi was there too . She helped me find my Pipa ... but well , i couldnt find it !

So , i made a big mistake . I called LiuYan . And i asked if she knows where my Pipa is ... and i think , she thinks that im accusing her of taking it . Communication problems . Well , then i went to ask Edward ... and then , Gabriel , the other staff . But well , i almost wanted to report to Adams . I even went over to the other building to find my Pipa . The stand was there ... but there wasnt any Pipa ... and im was so worried . So well , in the end ... i called YouGuo , the last person to call , and well ... he left it in another room ! Thanks to him , i found my Pipa .

I took it out ... and wanted to kiss it . But , upon the horrible look on the Pipa , i'd rather not . Its still damaged and stuff ... and it sounded horrible , but better , slightly . I played for a few minutes ... then i kept it , because it sounded way too horrible . So , i went to find SiHan and others ... but well , there aint anybody left . Sebestian , Richard and Rit went off to play at ParkLane .

Well , i called Sebestian and asked if he wanna go home . Because , i'll be taking a bus to YiShun ... so must well ask him along . But somebody has wedding dinner to attend tonight ... so , forget it .

I took bus 857 towards YiShun . On the way to the bus-stop , i met them ... and i asked Richard back for my DVDs . So , i called Cyril and we talked shit for a short while . Then after that , we hung up , and i fell asleep .

Horrible things happened on the bus . U guess ...

Well , i stood outside YanYu's door . And she walked around , then she suddenly saw me , and she got shocked again ! Its funny somehow , but not so , because she is pregnant . So , she's now quite ... fat . And i think its good . So , she looked beautiful and stuff ... but the lesson has to go on . I was nervous .

I just recieved a call from Jane . She told me to go down more often ... because the doctor came and told her that Dad isnt going to make it anymore . So , it'll be roughly within this few days time . I hope that Jane is lying again , with her usual lies . But to think of it , i hope that Dad doesnt suffer so much ... and just let things go . I know its hard , but well , i've already hoped for this day ever since he laid in bed , asleep for the entire day .

So , back to the lesson . I told her about my results , and she smiled . She was very happy , and in a good mood . We went through the scores i got today , and its the same piece that TingTing played with the orchestra that time . Well , she said that it might sound bad . I agree , because its not originally written for Pipa . But well , its one of the easier piece and nobody has ever played it in Singapore , for the Pipa concerto version . So , must well give it a try . She allowed me , and we played through the scores together . She aint very very familiar with the Western scores as well ... She was struggling , not badly , with some of the notes . Sometimes , i even corrected her . Its fun to play along with her . She is honest and very kind ... and funny . So , she corrected some notes and taught me some individual techniques . I never thought that today's lesson would be that great .

So , before that left , we talked about some other Pipa players and stuff . I asked when is she going to perform again , like the concerto she played 2 years ago . I went to watch that one , and trust me , its the best ive seen . She told me in a funny way , she said that her husband wont allow her to fly to Taiwan to perform ... because of the baby . And she scolded her husband quietly for turning volume of the TV too high . Its funny . She is so fun . I love her .

Mom came to fetch me after lesson . And she wanted to bring me to the hospital to visit grandma . She went in today . And well , so many things happened today . Dad , grandma and i ... and so many others . Well , Cyril said that something happened too . I hope he's fine .

Tomorrow i'll be visiting grandma , not today , because its kinda late . Im having class at 9 am almost everyday . Sad . So , i'll have to blog earlier , and sleep earlier . No more games ! Go to sleep .

It was scary when i thought that my Pipa went missing . Well , to think of it , i didnt even felt a thing . I thought , maybe its time to get a new Pipa ! Missing , just like some people after creating such a havoc in school . U know , the sega .

Maybe i'll just play one round . Goodnight !

The Eve Of Academic Torture

Cries of a demonic fiend , sent from the burning inferno , to fulfill its purpose of destroying mankind . The cries , such agony to my ears , and such pain and misery it inflicts . When can an angel come ? Angel of faith , of courage , we plead for . In need of help , and the aura of command to fight this battle of faith . I doubt my faith , and i cannot resist to temptation . May a light of blessing pierce through this demonic creature . And in his name , i shall reveal his name ! One , two , three , four , five and six . One two three four five six ! He is the one who dwells within ! The demon of the flesh ! Dickshen !

Well , enough of the drama . We went for dinner just now . It was great , thats the dinner part . The other parts were all horrible . He was running around ... taking things , touching others and worst of all , not listening to Mom . So , i carried him , and i beat him into silence . But well , the hands aint going to keep quiet . He touched this and that ... grabbed this and that . That was it , i put him down and chased him out of the shop . Then , i saw him running towards some other children . Thats danger to me , because he'll play till dunno when . So , i got him back into my arms and i locked him up . We just got home , and i couldnt take it anymore . While he was removing his shoe , i attacked from behind . With a mighty cane in hand , i gave him 2 generous whacking . That shocked him , and he cried and couldnt stand . I whacked his legs . But trust me , it didnt last long . Next , after crying for 2 minutes or so , he sat on the sofa and watched TV . That agitated me , and so ... i took a blanket and tied his legs up , to forbid him from running around . Then , i carried him to bed . He cried , and he tried getting himself free . No chance at all ! Mom said that he'll sure run free sooner or later . True . But , well ... i made it really tight . Without the help of anybody , he wouldnt be able to set his shackle off his feet . He cried . And the cry didnt stop for almost 5 minutes . So , uncle couldnt take it anymore ... and he released him , the sinful prisoner . Unforgivable . Im still angry , and Mom didnt stop me because she knows that nobody can stop me when im mad . And trust me , its quite a bad thing , my anger . Bad deadly sin of wrath . Im not somebody who gets angry often , so ... when i do , thats it . Thunders come rolling down ...

I stayed home , and i didnt go for CSCO . Well , nobody went . So , i stayed home and took a rest ... because its the last day of my holidays . I slept around 7 am , because Mom and i went for breakfast . Where ?

She came into my room around 4 am , and found me playing games . Then , she scolded me . Actually , i was planning to stop after that game ... but well , she found me . No excuses . So , she asked if i wanna go for breakfast . So , i said , i dun mind .

We boarded the car ... and we drove to Malaysia . Having breakfast over at Malaysia ... All the way there for the sake of breakfast ... ? Well , u might think so . But no , its actually for the petrol and the cigars . Its early morning , and im tired . I have not slept yet , remember ? We listened to this classical old Chinese pop song . It was fantastic , with the atmosphere in the car ... and the beautiful sound of bells and stuff . Its a Chinese song that brought me up since 1998 , around there ...

We settled ourselves at this shop . Its selling noodles and stuff . So , the boss was having some problems with one of his friends . So called ... friends ... Because , he made the boss very unhappy and stuff . U know , those coffeeshop uncles , causing trouble and stuff . Well , im sure lucky that i dun have friends like that . Well , grandma has . And i usually treat them really bad . I dun even talk to them , and when they make fun of me , thats it , i shoot back a canon ball ten times the size .

Dickshen didnt go along , and that was the reason why the trip there and back was so peaceful . I slept well .

Cyril was awfully disgusted about the breast pictures . I downloaded the picture , and i set it as my display picture last night . Audrey saw that , and she thought that im interested in these kinda stuffs . No , i dun . In fact , i myself , find it really disgusting . That explains the horrible title of that day . All thanks to Samuel for sending me that picture . Thanks ! Anyway , im trying to send the video clip of it around ... but nobody fell for it . Damn .

U know what ? I think the blog shall just go on . Because , i dun think i will be get used to the new blogging style and stuff . Its too sudden . So , i'll continue my everyday's essay on life .

Tomorrow is a fresh new day already . That'll mean that ... ive to pay my school fees and my other fees . And worst of all , i dun feel like having Pipa lesson tomorrow ... But , since YanYu suggested that , i thought maybe i should just go over . Ive to settle her money problems again . Good thing that she recieved her money already . NAFA has to really work fast . U know what i think of NAFA ? They collect money faster than anything , and to extract that tiny bit of money from them for my teacher would take forever .

Dun u think so ? Come on , have a mind of ur own . Make up ur mind ! Familiar ... ?

Vague

Stressed about that breast , ChaiXia ? No need to worry . Well , i found a cure . A cure to overcome that evil within my head , that kept me thinking about that horrible disgusting image all night long . Well , its a DVD ! A family DVD , just like ... 'Ice Age' . I cried when they finally returned the baby to the humans ... and i cried when the sabertooth died . Well , what a show . After i tried closing my eyes ... they wont leave me alone . They came back . They , the demons . It haunted me again ... those pictures were inflicted into my mind like some horrible posters of some Chinese singers , especially the female ones .

Well , i slept well .

I woke up around noon , with the sound of my ringing phone . Christoven called , and he told me to meet him later at Orchard , to do some shopping . He is going to buy a shoe or something . Well , i got mine already . But well , i'll definitely be willing to go down to shop , however , i've to visit Dad today . So , i stayed home . Sorry .

I played some games ... and i surfed the net for some pictures . Of ... ? Of course , not that ! That , whateva ur thinking of . I found some images of CelineDion , and i posted it as my computer's new background image . And i found some other really ugly ones ... and i played the DVD of her performances again ... and it felt good .

Mom brought back lunch . It tasted fine , like some delicious noodle left on the table for long . Dickshen then came in , which gave me a premonition of me beating him up . And just at the right time , things happened ... really quickly . I was watching the DVD , then suddenly CelineDion's voice stopped ... while her body continued doing the silly dances . Then the computer lagged ... and it was then , shutting off . I was so pissed ! I couldnt control my inner self . I grabbed him by his arm , and i whacked the hell out of him . It was violent , and i rated it R21 . Then , he , by instincts , cried . So , he left the room ... with his right hand holding his left arm ... because its in pain , of course . Mom asked what happened ... and i told her .

Im just like my Mom , the more i think of it , the more agitated i get . I got out of my room again and gave him one more slap . And he cried . I know , i might sound satanic for now ... and almost a child abuser . Trust me , im an angel , i love children . Im here for the kids , because my passion and love for them , is ... unimaginable . Its all good .

Dickshen is a boy who doesnt learn . The only way to make him learn something , is to seriously shock him for a moment . So , he played with fire . How many times does it take for him to remember that fire burns ? Just once . Uncle accidentally burnt him with a lighter ... and from then on , no more fire . So , this time ... hopefully he'll remember ... no more harassing of computers ! U know , when i was young , i was never like that . Mom told me everything ... She said that im a very good boy . Once or twice , i'll get some slapping . Other than that , no more . I will never cry for toys or anything that i want . I would usually just sleep and keep quiet . I dun jump around and make noise ... So , im a very quiet little angel , like she've said . And she said , she was very lucky to have me . Still is ?

After bathing , i took my bag and we went for dinner , before i took bus 86 towards SengKang . In the bus , i sat half a seat ... because this lady was ... so much bigger than i am . And i was thinking about the things Mom said to me in the coffeeshop . She said that she humiliated a small girl , maybe around 8 , a few days ago . This is how it goes ...

Dickshen was playing in the playground , and he whacked this girl , that girl . And so , she whacked him back . Nothing went wrong ... So , this girl went towards all the ladies sitting there . Not ladies , aunties . And she complained ... She asked that who is the parent of that child , pointing to Dickshen . She said that he is very rude and he is very naughty . Ive to agree . But Mom told her that she saw her whacking Dickshen back already ... so whats the big deal ? Moreover , she said , Dickshen is only 2 , and u , referring to her , are 8 ... arent u even a bit embarrassed ... ?

Thats very mean ! But ... i loved that ! Stupid small girls . U know , small immature girls can be so very irritating . U know that ? Im serious . They can ruin ur day with their questions and their experiences . They are all shit . I meant the things they say . One thing to be grateful about ... lucky that our mothers aint like that ! Imagine all the nagging plus the irritating gibberish crap . U'll be in hell before u know it .

Yong was reading the bible to Dad . Im wondering ... is Dad possessed ? I guess not . Too much TV , i know . So , i stayed outside and watched MrBean on TV . Its funny ... because it brings back this very old memory that already turned yellow behind somewhere in that brain of mine . After that , they left . I forced Amanda to watch CelineDion , and after that ... i watched some movie with her .

I saw Dad . And he was weak ... I wondered if he knew that i was there . Maybe not ... ? Well , sad .

Mom fetched me home . She told me that the police told her not to park the car at the side of the road . She was waiting for me , and Dickshen wanted to pee . No choice , she brought him down to pee ... then , the police came . Bad luck . Anyway , there wasnt any open confrontation . Nobody was injured , because neither party were armed . Mom surrendered the kid and they held him down , pinned to the ground ... with hands behind his back . Dickshen was then brought back to the station for further questioning ...

Im joking ... how i wish it came true just now . Well , he is currently ... sleeping , hopefully .

No ! I just heard him laughing . Evil ...

Tell u something , im feeling this laziness to blog . I dun think i'll be blogging anymore after Sunday . The start of year 2 shall be a new start . Maybe ... a new private blog ? Or a new style of blogging ... But , i'll need a camera to post pictures . Actually , dun need . But , i'll need one ... or else how i take pictures of my everyday life ... ? Well , it'll depend .

I asked Mom if we can go LasVegas . Then she told me , ive been there before ! And better , to many , many , states ! Bad news for me , because ... i dun remember a thing ! Well , i was only 3 . To think of it , u know what , i only can remember something . A typical scene ... when i was crossing the road with Mom and Dad holding my hands , my in the middle . It was foggy ... and white ... and i was wearing some thick clothings . Other than that , no more memories of USA . Anyway , i want to go see CelineDion ! Thats why ! If not , damn it , i wont wanna go visit that country . The country that killed millions of people with just a single command , while they cannot save their own people from danger .

Did i say anything wrong ? I'd better shut up and close my eyes . Goodnight .

Wait ! Let me add this . Cyril just got conned for $450 . Well , for a relationship , anything would be worth it , right ? Well , fuck ! I told u ! Well , see ... now u regret it . Too late already . Remember what ive said ... With that bad character , i could tell straight without the need of my eyes . I dun use my ass to think that often , but for this case , i used it .

Fucking Disgusted

Im very sad now . Well , i'll tell u later . Anyway , i just got home from a lonely trip to Orchard . And other than that , i just ate my dinner .

Woke up really early today , to blog about yesterday's entry . So , after that ... uncle came , and Mom cooked some noodles . Its not bad . So , after lunch , he fetched me down to NAFA . The main reason of going down there was actually to find the book that i lost . Well , so ... i alighted over at SunShine , and i went into the printing shop . The lady was nice , and she returned me the book .

After getting the book , i felt kinda lost . What am i going to do ? So , of course ... while thinking , my feet were bringing me back to NAFA . Saw Andy , and well again ... had an hour or so of lesson . He improved alot . Well , he really practiced everyday . Its just a dumb song that i composed quite early this year . And well , ive the MIDI in my computer , but i havent sent it to anybody yet ... other than YongRui , today morning . So , anyway ... there're many parts that i myself cannot play ... because im not a Pianist ... ?

School is starting next Monday . Excited ... ? To think of it ... not really ... though , its the best method to kill this boredom now . But still , its not the best solution ... because , once it starts , it'll never stop . And moreover , i wouldnt wanna see some people next year . I think , they make me sick .

So , are u a politician ? Or a musician ? This question should really slap these people in their faces , and hope that it'll swell and bleed till they wake up .

Anyway , so ... im bored . I played games with Andy ... and HuiQi . I felt so bad , because i won so many times ... and i think HuiQi must be feeling kinda sick already . But , i tried so many ways to try to lose , but ... it didnt work at all . For 16 rounds , i didnt stop winning . And after QingLun came , i was so happy ... so , i passed the computer to him . I asked her whether she wanted to change to another game , but she didnt want to ... Well , nice playing with u , HuiQi !

Suddenly , i became moody . I was bored , and it cooked my brain . I looked into the computer , and i slammed the keyboard . SiHan came in later , and he played with QingLun . Well , HuiQi was supposingly going for her rehearsal with the other musicians ... for her StringQuartet . She was lazy ... and she didnt go . I needed some source of entertainment , so badly . I couldnt take it ... and Jwen told me that she'll be going to Orchard or something ... Well , so ... i went to play the Piano in the studio while waiting for her and Eudora . But well , after a while ... i called her , and she's already on the bus heading towards home . Again .

I was alone , and i felt ... really bored . So , i bid farewell to Jeremy and gang in the computer lab . SiHan was going for some buffet with his brother ... and so , im all alone tonight . I saw Samuel carrying his Trumpet and walking away ... so , maybe he's going for his lesson . To think of it , i havent touched the Pipa ever since my exams ... How am i going to go for the competition ? Im dead meat . Rotten meat .

Well so , i walked around ... and found myself getting kinda uncomfortable . So , i went into this shop ... and i bought another shoe . I didnt think twice ... i saw its weird colour and i found my right size ... and i took out my wallet and paid $30 for it . I got a bag and i stuffed my old shoe inside ... and i wore my new shoe out to Orchard for tonight .

I didnt know what bus to take , so ... i took bus 133 , and i stopped at Esplanade . Dedric told me that he'll be performing at Esplanade . True enough , its the festival thingi . And i saw WanYin and her friends there ... and they were going in for the concert already . I dun have any tickets , and i dunno where to get one within such a short period . So well , i left for Orchard after purchasing a drink to bury that thirst .

I took another bus from Esplanade and headed down to Orchard . Bus 162 stopped just outside ThatCDShop , and thats the place i wanna go . I couldnt find the lady that served me the other time . This time , nobody came to my assistance . After quite a long time , then this lady came forward . But still , not as good as the other one . She didnt know what i want ... and she didnt even help with my CDs . So , i bought 2 CelineDion's DVD performances . It cost me $90 . And i searched around for other CDs ... maybe by ClaudeChalle , or some other Arabic nice music . So , they asked if i want to buy their own compilations ... and i said , no .

I told her in the face , its not very good .

So , anyway ... i took the bus home , bus 162 , and i was so tired ... i slept . Saw some familiar faces in the bus ... and just now while im at Bugis , i saw Ivan , this old friend . Not friend , just a schoolmate or so ... back then in ACS , both primary and secondary . Well , he used to be a very bad bully in school . Im not sure about him now . He used to be in my class , bullying all the other boys . Well , good thing , im never a target for anybody , other than Darius . Sweet Darius , i wonder how is he in Australia .

Came home , finding my result slip on my table . I told Mom to get it for me after Mark got his . His sister typed his results out to him in the computer lab . Well , so funny ... Laurence and i were staring at his results ... and he felt weird . Anyway , lets see ...

Music technology is this dumb class that i'll have to take again , thanks to my attendance . I know my work , and i shouldnt repeat . I mean , at least there should be room for negotiation . But , Adams left it all out , and he made things tight . No room for escape at all . So , i'll be doing that again with the new people next week . I hate it . Thanks alot , seriously , i think NAFA is helping me along really well .

I failed my analysis . No wonder im doing another work for DrKan ... ? Nevermind . I think this study is rather unique ... and i think i kinda like it too . But sure enough , its tough .

Study skills is a module thats almost totally useless . Anyway i scored a 'C' . Another module , thats at least ... interesting ... for a bit , is SAS , and i scored a 'B' .

For concert attendance , i think its totally redundant . I scored 'D' for both semesters . So , im still not very happy with this useless module . Well , im going to have to do it again for at least 2 more times ...

Performance projects were kinda scary . I typed all out , and DrGoh didnt believe that its me typing that crap . I know , maybe i might sound too Chinese at times with my language ... but thats the way i type . There's also another way to recognise my typing ... i usually leave a spacing between letters and my punctuations . But sometimes , i might not ... for the sake of stupid softwares which will irritate me with the green underlinings ... Anyway , i scored 'B' for both semesters .

Harmony is a subject that is important in a way or another . But , its the one that i'll never be good at . Why ? Because im bad with maths . So , i scored 'D' for both semesters . See , im maintaining myself at a very constant level .

Aural is easy . But , i deproved . I scored 'A' for the first semester , and now , i got a 'B' . I know why ... because i really deproved ! Firstly , i came late for the exam ... and i missed out on a question . And secondly , i really cannot hear anymore !

History is a subject that i came into NAFA , with no knowledge of . DrKan taught me everything that i should know . But well , i scored well with a 'B' during the first semester . And well , i didnt keep that up like she told me to . This time round , i scored a 'D' . Disappointing ... i know .

Chinese instrumental studies ... is fine with me , i scored 'B' with both .

Principal study improved slightly . From a 'B' to a rising 'A' . Im happy for that .

So , this is all my results . Kinda bad , i know . Whats urs ... ? Tag it .

I went to shit just now , and while blogging , im listening to CelineDion , and watching her videos . Im surprised ... and stunned by her amazing vocals . So , thats why i took around an hour for this blog entry . Actually , i always take an hour or so typing ... So , anyway ... i saw this video just now ... and its CelineDion singing with TerryBradford . U know who he is ... ? He is actually the backup vocalist for CelineDion ! I saw him singing at the back ... and then for this duet , he came forward . Amazing ... anyway he was weird . He is like , so gay . And CelineDion gave some weird look too ... Funny shit .

Enough of her already . Im going to watch some movies before heading to play some games ... then im going to sleep . I think i better go visit Dad ... or else somebody will start blaming me for not seeing him . Bad people , bad eggs .

Jeremy consulted me about some problems again . Well , same thing .

Something horrible haunted me the whole entire day . And its disturbing me . Ask Samuel . He showed me this picture of this breast , infested with some worms . I tell u , its the worst thing to imagine . Its not totally disgusting and gruesome ... but to think of it and imagine , its super disturbing ! Its like some maggots or worms feeding on the flesh of the breast of a woman . It looks like some lotus seed . Its horrible ! Im feeling the unfeeling sensation now . Its bad ... its really disgusting ! I tell u , its like ... the worst thing ive ever felt ! I dun have that on me , but ... i kept thinking of it ... and its haunting me ! Fuck ! Fuck ! Fuck ! Its that horrible . Im getting a headache ...

Anyway , SiHan said in his nick that his own trusted friends backstabbed him ... around 6 times ... ? So , i asked if i backstabbed him . And , he said yes . Did i ... ?

Im going crazy ! Im going to cry ... how come i dunno ... ?

Dun be foolish . I know , its fake . He is lying . How can i backstab people ... ? Im like such an angel ... right ? Enough .

Goodnight .

Indemnification

After getting back in the city , life felt better . Firstly , no more cycling under the hot sun just to travel around ... and secondly , no need to eat overcooked food . But well , sure enough , the outback was fun enough for a year or so . I guess we wont be having fun till the next holiday . So , prepare to get soaked up by the music scores ...

I just woke up , i know its the earliest ever since the holidays . Its now around 7 am . Last night , i wanted to turn on my computer and blog . But , i took a nap while waiting for the computer . And soon ... u know , my eyes went down , and brain went off . So , i fell asleep ...

What happened yesterday ... ?

I woke up , finding my uncle calling me up , and he opened my door , without closing it back . U know , i hate that the most ! I hate people leaving my door open , unless i open it myself . But if not , dun leave it open ! The air-con will run away from the room ...

So , uncle brought lunch . Its one of my favourite , curry rice . After eating , uncle fetched me down to NAFA . As u know , a driver should know his way and a cook should know his ingredients . But for him , he doesnt know his way , and i tell u , after driving for over 10 years , he can still ask the way to the highway . Dumb right ? So , he missed the exit , because i was talking on the phone . And he blamed me , and told me that i should tell him where to exit because he dunno . Come on ! U dunno the way to Bugis ? U urself told me that u would exit by BukitTimah Road . Nevermind ...

There wasnt anybody at NAFA . I went into the room , and i filed up my work , before handing it in to DrKan . I did it only on Wednesday , before the date of submission . I looked at my work , and i thought ... maybe i'll fail again . It'll all depend on how DrKan would accept my work . Before that , i was printing my work at the shop . And i think ... i left my book there !

DrKan recognised my voice , and i told her that i'll drop my work in her pigeon hole .

Finally , its done . So , i went to the computer lab , and i saw HuiQi , QingLun , Andy , Dorothy , Alan and some other people . Then , i saw somebody familiar ... and its ... Tommy ! And well , i went to sit beside Tommy and played with him . After playing and stuff ... Andy came to learn that song that i always play . So , i taught him the song . Trust me , its not hard ... just complicating because i dun have the scores printed .

Went for a drink with Jason , Jeremy , HuiQi and Tommy . So , we're all talking and laughing around ... drinking our chocolates , and eating our sandwiches . Life is good then .

SiHan , Samuel and Mark took flight from the lounge , and went to watch some movie . Well , i dun wanna watch ... mainly because im not in the mood , and i dun wanna waste the money yet . And secondly , because i dun wanna watch an action movie . So , nevermind ... they went , and i stayed in school ... and listened to Jeremy sing . He played the Guitar and he sang a few songs ... Very fun time in the studio , while Andy practiced my piece ... Jason stayed around and listened to both . Well , good time pass quickly .

Mom came to fetch me . And so , i brought them to the Gamelan room , to check for my scores . Well , it wasnt there . YouGuo will bring it today and meet me up during the evening to pass me the scores . Thanks YouGuo . But ive another score missing ... its the book . And we searched high and low ... then maybe its left at the shop . For sure , im quite certain .

At Chinatown , we met Nana ... and we went over to Pearls Centre . Nana told us that there's a very cheap CD shop there . Well , sure ... its in a mess . The shop is small , and the CDs are almost everywhere . So , for the first time , i felt kinda surprise that Mom told me to buy CDs . So , i bought one . But to her surprise , its a Chinese one ! Its the best hits of LeeHom from 1995 to 2002 . Well , as u guys know ... i dun listen to Chinese pop songs . But for him , i felt kinda different . He speaks good English , though with some of those very fake accent . But im sure , its their accent ... just like those people from HongKong . So , anyway ... his songs brought me up in my childhood . I heard his songs over and over again over the radio , and i sang with it when i was younger . His melodies lingered in my ears for over 8 years . And now , im buying it .

So , i bought it . Its good . There are duets with other singers ... even LaraFabian . So , remember something about him ? A few years ago , or not so long ago , i watched the TV , and i saw LeeHom , humiliated at the GoldenMelodyAwards . Well , its one of the most memorable moments of the night , when the announcement for the best male singer award was read by KarenMok . Speaking in Mandarin , with her HongKong accent , her pronunciation for the first 2 characters of StanleyHuang's name sounded indistinguishable from the first 2 characters of Leehom's name , creating a painfully awkward scene in which both singers stood and began congratulating each other and thanking everyone around them . Worst of all , LeeHom even leaned in close to the TV camera , winking and saluting and then rushed onto the stage , where he was later told that it was , in fact , StanleyHuang , walking a few steps behind him , who was the actual recipient . Visibly embarrassed , he skipped off stage , but recieved a conciliation hug from a model , LinChiLing .

Embarrassment . Yes , ive dealt with it before . And even things similar of that ... Well , good and bad memories ... To still think of it , they make me blush .

Outback

Horrible small mud hut , made staying over sweet and cozy . Right ...

Anyway , i told u yesterday that i'll be back , but ... well , not . Because , the computer was so horrible , i couldnt type well . So , i slowly forgot about it . Well , i went back to the pit , and i found them eating and cooking . Samuel was busy with the BBQ , with SiHan . So , after eating a few wings , we'd to marinate the other pack of wings . So , i went to do it ... but , i dunno how ! So , Laurel showed me how , and he marinated the wings with me . So nice of him . Anyway , he was like very quiet throughout the whole trip . He seldom open his mouth , not even to eat , and he helped so much with the cooking . And that just reminded me ... of ... how beautiful i am . Im joking , i mean ... how useless , i am . So , Samuel suggested that we go over to the pool for a picture , before somebody leaves .

So , the 2 friends , a Malay and an Indian , had to leave soon . So , while waiting for the rest at the pool , we talked and planned about throwing Mark into the water . Mark expected it , i think , so ... he was sitting there ... and not moving much . Noozli was told about it , and he was very excited about it . Well , we waited long enough , before i gave YongRui a call ... and told him to get the rest to go over to the pool . After a very long time , i called him again ... and he told me nobody listened to him . Well , at least u , urself , should come over to the pool . Well , that was it . Samuel got really angry , and he went back to the BBQ pit . But before he flared , we actually played with Mark already .

We took a picture , 4 actually , to get ready . Mark was infront , and Samuel , SiHan and i prepared to throw him over . And when the last picture was taken , that was it . Mark fell into the pool after a hard struggle with us , and Noozli helped too . We got his wallet and handphone out of his pockets and ... with a count of 3 , there he went , into the pool , dunked . But , i dunno why ... i think i accidentally swung too hard , and SiHan fell into the pool , together with Mark . The mastermind got into the pool with the victim . Funny .

Well , not just that . It didnt all stop there . SiHan got pushed into the water as soon as he got up , again . Mark and SiHan got pushed into the water for 4 times . It was very funny ! And for me , SiHan was so eager to get me into the water , he found out that i emptied my pockets already . Well , i wanted to go down ... but not pushed down . So SiHan held me , and i broke free ... then i ran into the pool , myself . Suicide .

All the fun lasted short . Shaun was busy pushing people in ... and he was very sporting . So , we got back , and Samuel was already cooking . So , we marinated the wings ... and started eating . Some of them left , and some went to cycle . I collected the money , and sure enough , there's enough for Mark , SiHan and i . For Samuel , its hard , because he paid quite a lot , but ... i think it'll be better if we settle our's first ... then we'll settle Samuel's money again later in school . So , we've calculated to approximately $4 more each from all those who'd came .

I left my clothes on to dry . And soon , those that went to cycle came back , along with a bad news . SiHan's bicycle broke down . One of the poor paddle came off ... and so , we're short of a leg , or actually ... a nut , to hold it back . So , when we're left down to the 5 of us , Laurel , Samuel , Mark , SiHan and i , we waited for one more , Fhairil .

He came later , and we ate , again . He didnt go home for 4 days already , including our chalet . Thats , very bad . But anyway , thats not the point . What can we do with only a 5 working bikes ? We've 6 , but one was down .

SiHan went to swim , and Fhairil swam too . I sat in the pool , and the rest by the side . We talked ... and we felt so comfortable . SiHan said that we should do this again . But , how ? In the end , we decided to go for night cycling . As for the bike , nobody cared .

SiHan tried cycling , and me too ... but it doesnt work . Only Samuel could work it , riding it like some lunatic . It was funny , and also nice of him to ride that broken bike . We headed towards 7-11 , hoping that we might find some form of cure for the injured bike .

The journey was long , or quite . And by the way , we went around the beach for at least 3 or 4 times , aimlessly . Dunno why . But well , the guy in 7-11 was very helpful , he gave us a stack of useless paper , to act as some friction force against the paddle , to keep it intact . But well , we spent half an hour there fixing it . I gave them my Pipa tape , and they finished it , within 3 attempts . Well , there goes my poor tape . But well , the point is ... it didnt work ! So , in the end ... after all the kicking and sweating ... Laurel and SiHan came up with this old idea of using the plastic bags as some form of support , tied to the paddle with the leg , and thus , the leg can pull the paddle up along with it , in a circular motion , thus ... SiHan can paddle with the bike , with just a foot . Anyway , its the left paddle that came out . In the end , it worked well . For a while ...

And well , SiHan was so ... pathetic . I pity him , or we . Well , he burnt his hand while cooking the sotong . And his father doesnt allow him to stay over . And then , the problem with his bike . So sad , right ? Well , another person to pity is Mark . I'll tell u why later ...

So , we cycled around ... with only the aim to seek help . We went to the rangers , and fuck ... that ranger was so ... fucked up . He didnt help at all , and told us in a rather annoyed manner that he doesnt have any tools to help us . Good service , im sure . Im so sure . Power ranger , my Mom pay taxes !

Does she ?

Anyway , since there aint any form of help , we headed back to the hut ... to continue our BBQ . Fhairil said that he saw somebody ... and its freaking me out too . So , we quickly left the bus-stop , and went to buy the drinks . Mark , Fhairil and i . The rest went back to start the fire . Mark should've regretted going ... Why ? Because , after buying the drinks , we've to travel through this thick fog of flies . Scary monsters ! They are disgusting ... and one flew into Mark's ears , and he lost balance . And then ...

He fell ! With a loud thud ! And it was frightening ! We were shocked . I saw the bottles flying out ... and into the bushes . So , i quickly stopped my bike , and ran forward to tell Mark its alright . The only thing i could say was to comfort him . So , i took the bottles , and i held Mark up to his feet . His chin was bleeding , and the deepest cut was on his hands . He landed on his chin and palms . So , imagine . It was horrible . But he was a brave boy , i tell u ! He took his bike after i persuaded him to wash his wounds and we rode back to the hut .

We parked our bikes somewhere , and walked up , instead of cycled up , because its a steep slope . Im tired of all the fucking tiring slopes ... they make me sick , really . My hands were all tensed ... and my thumbs were hurting . We went back , and i helped Mark with his wounds . Plasters , luckily he brought some . So , after that , Fhairil talked about his ordeal ... and his experience with the ... unknown . I was freaked out myself when i tried imaginating such ... images . But well , it all turned out to be cartoons for me . So , nothing much .

Laurel cooked . And well , after which , he went straight to bed . He was the first to sleep . After that , i went into the room to lay down for a while . They came in later , and we settled the money . So , SiHan got back all his money , so did Mark and i . Samuel has a long way more , but like what Shaun said , we should divide the money and ask the people to contribute more . Anyway , after that ... i was dragged out to ... talk .

Mosquitoes . Cats . So many animals ... and so many symphonic sounds of insect's callings . So , we were there , feeding the mosquitoes ... Laurel was in bed . So , Fhairil and SiHan had to go , and we all went out ... and brought them to the bus terminal , to find a cab . Well , trust me , i'll never do that again ! The journey was ... hell ! Its long , and super tiring . Well , a cat followed us . Very cute one . But when we finally found this cab , the cat was left there ... alone . So freaking poor thing ! I dunno what to say ... the poor little cute cat , abandoned there . I wanna cry already ...

So , we took the cab back to the hut , and they proceeded on , out , back home . So , we're down with only the 3 of us . We went back and we talked ... Then , we laid down along the pool , and admired the stars above . Singing , and talking ...

Saw this shiny star . Soon , the sky turned into milky blue . The gold filtered throughout the clouds , and the sky , from pitched darkness into a hopeful beam of light . Mark couldnt take it , he needed to sleep . But Samuel , locked us up and didnt allow us to sleep . But well , we went back to the hut ... and slept peacefully . Samuel slept at the pool .

This Malay man knocked on our doors 3 times , at different intervals , and returned 3 items to us . Very kind of this cleaner , and well ... they are firstly , Samuel's wallet , Samuel's charger and Samuel's watch , respectively . Well , Mark woke up to take the first 2 ... and for the last one , Laurel . I was there , calling them to open the door ... because im on the top bunk , and i couldnt get down without creating an earthquake . Well , weird ... they are all Samuel's belongings ! How can he leave all the stuff outside ... ? So careless ! So , Mark and i were like ... laughing , then we snored straight after .

I woke up finding nobody in the room . They all woke up already . Samuel said that i slept like a pig , and Mark , like some ... dunno what , very straight . Maybe , mummies . But well , we got up , and i got up ... and i brushed up with toilet papers . Soon , we took our bikes and we left for breakfast ! My hands were so painful , i couldnt clutch them . So , Mark and i went down to get the 3 bikes . I was so tired and sleepy ... i couldnt open my own lock . Samuel pushed the broken bike down , with Laurel . And for Mark and i , we walked down the steps .

So , this time , its a lady at the counter . Thanks to her , and her politeness ... we managed to free ourselves from the debts of the damaged bikes . We realised that SiHan's bike has its tyres punctured . Poor SiHan . Well , anyway ... poor us , we've to buy ourselves out ... with excuses as proves from Mark's hideous scars ! So , the lady allowed us to return the other 4 bikes later . We're so thankful .

Breakfast ! We headed for the foodcourt ... remember ... ? The one in Sentosa ... and i ate there before when i was young . We cycled all the way there with our might , and we found the foodcourt ! Empty ! So , Sentosa has nothing . So , we went for ... our fated fastfood restaurant , BurgerKing . Laurel saw quite a few of his schoolmates ... and he was topless , so he didnt approach them .

Food , tasted so ... heavenly . And the drinks ... tasted like ... bittergourds ! Thats when we started out bittergourd craze . Have i told u guys about my grandfather's sweet bittergourds ... ? Well , he is diabetic . So think for urself .

After eating , we went to take quite a few pictures . Actually , quite a chunk . And we found another way back to the hut , a faster ... and simpler way . No more steep slopes , and overall , nicer sceneries . We took pictures of the sea ... and of the ruins . We'd lots of fun !

We returned the bikes an hour later . And well , she didnt charge us . So , when we left the hut and stuff ... we thanked her . Before leaving , they went to play at the arcade . Laurel is good with guns . Im good with nothing ... and Mark and Samuel played the baby game that ChaiXia and i played the other time . Well , i was screaming like crazy back then . But well , i didnt play much . I kept losing to Laurel with the guns . So ... forget it ! We went to take some pictures , again .

Waited for the bus , with this horrible long queue . And with all our bags ... I was sweating like a pig , and im sure i smelt like one too .

Well , the journey out was fine . As usual ...

Mark took bus 10 home , while Samuel , Laurel and i took bus 166 . They went to school , and for me , i went back home .

I woke up in time ! The bus was again , turning away to park . And i pressed the bell in time , and i alighted ... Or else , i'll have to do my solo from walking out of the bus in the middle of the parking lots ... and everybody will be staring at me . Embarrassing ...

I took a cab home . Its only 30 cents more to the extra charge ... because its so near ! The cab driver was changing his shift , so ... he earned an extra few more bucks before heading home . Sweet , for him . And for me , dreadful . I pulled my bags up ... and i rushed straight into the showers ... and soaked myself in water .

Remember ive to do a Chinese instrumental piece for DrKan for analysis , again ? Well , i think the group work failed , so ... she's nice enough to give us another chance . U know what i love about DrKan ? She has something for everybody , individually . Thats what i love about her . And i still do . So , i worked on my Chinese piece . Its a Pipa piece ... so i thought maybe i'll approach it in another manner which i hope DrKan wont mind . I just finished it ... after coming back from Chinatown .

Mom brought me there for dinner . And surprisingly , i told her im not going to buy any CDs . She was ... asking why ... ? And well , she doesnt know ... because im going to buy something more expensive this time ! Im evil .

Dickshen was such a pain in the ass , intestines , liver , heart , lungs , brain and neck , i almost wanted to kill him ! He did beat him up .

Well , its suddenly so quiet at home . I think he fell into bed and slept .

Just now , i stepped onto this needle , and it went through the bottom of my right foot . It hurts !

Im going to school tomorrow . So , see u , Andy . And friends , goodnight .