Wont U Miss Those Days?

We've walked down the yellow brick road and along the way we've found company. These friends will stay with u till the end of days. But we're crossing the borders of this county which was once so familiar. And we question if we can survive out of these walls. This ghetto has served us as home and shelter for years. It might feel uncomfortable at first if we were to step out of its gates. And moreover, remember those times when we used to sit by the stone walls, staring out into the starry horizon and boundless grassland wondering what life would be outside the confinements of he ghetto. Even though, time will never erase this feeling we habor now.

My days in NAFA are over, hopefully. And ive made friends as much as turning my back against somebody in school. I wish to have to hard feelings with any of my schoolmates. Friends may come and go in ur life, but enemies only accumulate. Or even better if u have no enemies in the world, but all ur friends hate u. I can imagine ourselves sitting down for some coffee cock talking in a few years time. After graduation, everybody will miss everybody. We'll gather and see each other again, we will have a hard time recognising one another, and laughing our asses off by recollecting all the wonderful memories of school days. Even now as we speak, some reunion gatherings are happening in some corner of the world. I believe that we'll see each other again no matter how. If u were to feel nothing about stepping out into the open, then its time to wonder if its either ur missing something, or nothing is happening at all.

Some may move on with education, others shackled by obligations. During this course in life, we'll meet new friends and some will eventually be forgotten out of the friend list. This happens. And when it does, meeting them on the streets again will be such a dramatic event.

Finally we're free of all portfolios and presentations. We need not have to worry about submitting assignments and getting our work marked in order to compile them into the portfolio at the end of the academic semester. And we need not struggle out of bed to rush down to school for practices and rehearsals. And now we need not play music anymore!

School life is just a junction in the big picture. Its just the start of life actually! Everybody says that its the beginning of things. Like youth, it'll be an ideal state if it came a little later in life. Only when we start working will we ever miss what it is like studying. What about attending DrKan's lectures? Im sure thats already like facing a confrontation with ur boss daily about pay raise and poor attendance issues.

Here is a gigantic gargantuan colossal list of things that u will miss about. Wont u?

Wont u miss those days when we all sit together in class getting our brains wrecked by MrLim? Wont u miss those days when we all borrow aural books so that we can copy or go around composing ur our own aural practices? Wont u miss those days when the security guard, AhCheng, has to come knocking on ur studio door and speaking to u in that rude nasal voice? Wont u miss those days when u step out of the lift only to see the cleaner staring at u with that wierd "Did u kill my cat?" stare? Wont u miss those days when u get to chase somebody out of the practice studio because for once u took the initiative to book ur name under a pathetic slot on the big piece of paper? Wont u miss those days when u have to sneak into class when ur late only to notice that the whole class is turning their head to meet ur guilty look? Wont u miss those days when u take a slow stroll down to Cheers during History or MOA lectures? Wont u miss those days when all go out to the museum together in a funny SBS bus? Wont u miss those days when everybody is in the computer lab attempting to print their last minute submissions? Wont u miss those days when u sit around at the prata stall eating nothing but listening to gossips more juicy and oily than prata? Wont u miss those days when people say "Bo Jio!" for the sake of it when they dun even wish to go whereva u went? Wont u miss those days when u roll about in the computer lab doing nothing and disturbing others? Wont u miss those days when u're trying to do work but Audrey is singing and strumming her guitar away to the tabs on the net? Wont u miss those days when u're trying to watch YouTube while others around u are shouting and playing a competitive match of DOTA? Wont u miss those days when everybody just criticise their own playing and telling u about the horrible detail about their PS lesson? Wont u miss those days when u have a few hours to spend and u go around collecting people to go drink soya with u? Wont u miss those days when u can go down to Cathay to flash ur student card for a $6 ticket? Wont u miss those days when u have to drag ur feet to the NAFA library to find some CDs that DrTan has especially reserved for u? Wont u miss those days when we sit in class forgetting immediately what MrYap said about this specific chord resolution and remembering only the ultimately lame jokes that he used to describe it and in the end we can only apply the jokes to our exams? Wont u miss those days when Yohanna was still in school? Wont u miss those days when TerenceWong, who has retired i think, come to our class to call our some students name when he look so fierce but is actually so damn kind? Wont u miss those days when u have the chance to cheer and clap super loudly for Charles who is performing ToruTakemitsu's "Raintree Sketch" during music platform on Wednesnday? Wont u miss those days when we all plan to go for some chalet or something but in the end nobody does it and everybody just forgets about it and never mention about it again? Wont u miss those days when its planned to go out together but in the end some will have sudden chorse or errands to run? Wont u miss those days when we go the zoo only to regret and promise ourselves never to go again but only to find ourselves there again a year later? Wont u miss those days when XueMin faints in the public into the arms of willing hot men such as SiHan himself? Wont u miss those days when we wish to turn off those noisy keyboards in the com lab? Wont u miss those days when we see Jose's dramatic expressions as his face, eyes and mouth moves like a million times? Wont u miss those days when u only hear Willianna singing in sightsinging classes? Wont u miss those days when u have to suffer Charle's successfully cold jokes and hear ZhengYi's comment about it immediately during all lectures? Wont u miss those days when choir has to slap their own faces and only their own faces or has to pinch their cheeks with their noses? Wont u miss those days when DrTan will tell u that a piece is long short short? Wont u miss those days when DrTan will tell u that those are called Pastorale? Wont u miss those days when DrTan will tell u that a certain recording is beautiful and we should go listen when it is coming out in the listening exam? Wont u miss those days when lecturers fail to persuade the students to do their work such as telling us that the recording is beautiful? Wont u miss those days when DrTan will tilt her head while talking to u or DrKan blinking and nodding her head incessantly while listening to ur horrible lie? Wont u miss those days when we all smell like shit after lunch at FortuneCentre or SunShinePlaza? Wont u miss those days when we go around checking hows everybody's progression with that stupid long essay? Wont u miss those days when u have a super hard time flagging for cabs at BencoolenStreet? Wont u miss those days when u have to walk to Bugis and while doing so is constantly thinking about stupid stuffs related to school? Wont u miss those days when we sit at the cafe staring at each other? Wont u miss those days when u have to walk pass somebody and literally smell her hair? Wont u miss those days when we sit together to complain about that smell? Wont u miss those days when u just cant remember who that is but yet nobody is willing to tell it to u directly? Wont u miss those days when we drink soya for the sake of killing time? Wont u miss those days when a bunch of guys will travel down to PeaceCentre to play DOTA and somebody ends up giving a black face because he lost? Wont u miss those days when we gather together to share a big plate of chicken rice? Wont u miss those days when there was still the pasta stall at SunShinePlaza where we can add noodle for free and free lodging off their cheese and tobasco sauce? Wont u miss those days when we sit at McDonalds after rehearsal to bitch and share huge fries? Wont u miss those days when u have a stomachache and was glad that NAFA toilet is so clean all the time and not forgetting the air-con too? Wont u miss those days when u walk around the corridors peeping from window to window to spy who is there that u know even though u dun even know what to do or say when u actually find one? Wont u miss those days when u have to persuade somebody like hell to go eat or drink and eventually they'll somehow usually come along? Wont u miss those days when u feel like going out but all ur friends are either practicing or rehearsing thinking that they'll definitely improve? Wont u miss those days when everybody is crowding to take pictures with the lecturers during our graduation day at SingaporeConferenceHall which is about to come?

Yes i do.

Free Man

In your eyes, i am over-sensitive, biased and petty. In my eyes, u are a good friend.

Ive changed in every way that u would have wished when we're close. I do not ask u what you're doing and what you're planning to do. I do not disturb u when u are practicing. I do not expect my messages replied instantly and moreover, i do not even call or message you that often anymore. I do not force you to have lunch with me. I do not give comments anyhow infront of you. I do not criticise or make fun of your 'weakness', which ever you think that i often do. And from that day on, i do not want to have any relation revolving around money with you. And what does all this lead to? It leads to our situation now. This predicament is all the result of your requests and demands. As for me, we might be closer than before if i were to stay as i am. But then again, its not you've wished for. Well, i hope you're alright with it as it is with me. Im glad that we managed to solve our previous problem before landing into such a state today. Why? Because i would prefer to start all these anew. Like now, fresh.

We have one more date to complete. That day would be the 28th of August, if my memory serves me well. I hope you'll keep your end of the bargain. Anyway it doesnt cost you much to just clear one day out of your extremely busy schedule. You have almost 3 months to do whateva you wish without having me in a part of anything.

As for me, holiday is the equivalent to ennui and boredom. I have to plan what to do for a few months. Though i do have 2 concertos bugging me, nagging at the back of my mind, i have to focus also on my vague future. I have some plans, though they arent properly laid out like others, which cause me to worry for they are subjective to large changes. Time cant solve everything, because procrastination will stroll along everytime.

Finally, ive graduated from NAFA. Wait, still kinda early to announce it so because i might have failed my other modules. Im very worried for my History and Counterpoint. I cant remember from whom, but somebody did mention that the results for History are rather negative. As for Counterpoint, im rather sure that with a zero for my Invention im going to score a very low pass or either a high fail. Imagine, a high fail? Still a fail.

Now, im already missing school. My friends tell me that i'll miss school next time when i step out into the society. True enough, its already working its way into my heart. It aches for firstly our dear lecturers, who have been so kind to us for the 3 beautiful years in NAFA. Secondly, for my friends who will be missed surely. However, time left its scars and wounds. Some are fresh and leaves quite an impact in my life. This wounds however hurt most at parts which cannot be seen. This scar will follow me throughout my life. Mistakes or bad relations, i cant be sure. But either way, all the good memories will assuage the negative ones. This memory will do me no good if i were to keep dwelling in the past. Stop digging for useless thoughts. For those who has done me wrong, ive already forgiven them the day after. However, it is up to them to make the first approach if they've opened up themselves for a new friendship. Things can start again. Not as good as before definitely, but on the other hand at least its still there. Ive forgiven and, fortunately or unfortunately, ive forgotten too.

Life is great and filled with promises. I have to look further for the grass is indeed greener on the other side. Its time to jump over the fences and out of my comfort zone. Its time to serve the nation and over the hills lie a stretch of meadow with grass undulating in the gentle breeze.

Where Should I Start?

I have so much to say. I feel like blogging... but for the first time, i dunno where to start.