Predators And The Hunted

I forgot to blog again ...

I went to register for NAFA on the 18th ... then the lady told me my audition will be on the 19th ! Shocking right ? Then i told her to defer it ... so now , it'll be on the 26th . I think im gonna fail the theory paper . It wont look good on me ... What songs am i going to use ... not sure yet ... i have got a few in mind though ... need some people to help me decide ...

No wonder i didnt blog ... i was too tired ! After listening to 19 ' XinKong 's and 19 other songs ... u think u still can survive and stand on ur feet ? It was a marathon ... think listening to these kinda songs ... and such horrible music ... i think it burns up quite an amount of calorie ... Some schools were just totally horrible ... but i think the best kinda feeling that i felt for ' XinKong ' was played by ChristChurch . ACS was really shocking ... not bad i thought ... but if they were to play on the last day , think its impossible for them to get a gold afterall ...

I really got my way in ... i got the instructor pass ... too bad ChaiXia , Kenny , Clarice and the VS boys didnt . But i was nice , i stayed outside with them . I didnt abuse my pass ... instead ... i was somehow like any normal audience , queuing for tickets for admission ... so sad right ? Victoria is one school which doesnt show any intense excitement ... or maybe they weren't even nervous at all ...

People teared with joy , and some cried with sadness ... people arent always satisfied , they wanna get higher and higher . Everything is advancing in this stage of the world . People are seeking higher grounds , exploring new terrains ... but they do not know what they really want . Having the present is the most fortunate thing now ... So ... enjoy the present , before trees are kept in the museum , dogs and cats in repositories , when u have to go to an exhibition to see rare plants that might be abundant now ... or even to pay $100 for a soup ... Things change , things changed , and some will never change , that will be the characteristics of human , the most destructive creature ever known .

Some may be just living around us . Preying on us , watching our every moves ... these people are the fittest around in this kinda society , they are the kind that thrives and survives in this world . But yet , its death that they deserves more ...

Stupid Blogger

What !?

Without a mouse cursor , thats really stupid .

Usually i copy everything just in case if loading fails ... But nowadays , when i copy , then paste , the paragraphing will be screwed up ... so ... today i didnt copy , because it got published quite well recently ...

Today it was different . Today ...

It screwed up !!

Stupid Blogger !

Fuck this shit ... im not gonna retype this kinda nonsense ! I tried so hard to type that much , so i could publish it at least ... But ... but how ? But ... Blogger is just that petty ...

Nothing happened today ... so it was kinda tough for me to squeeze anything out of my mind ... now im soo angry . I hate u , Blogger !

U , As In Me ?

Went for practice today . There was a new Pipa girl , from WenShu i think ... yes ... Not bad . I was late as usual , last week was my best record . Too bad there wasnt any combine practice ...

What happens if i should fail the NAFA audition ? That i dun think i should say it here ...

ChaiXia accompanied me to LAN at Raiders ... Sylvester and Stanley was there too ... i watched them play ... then after they were about to leave , i took a computer beside Stanley . ChaiXia had nothing to do but to watch me play ... guess it was really boring ... for her that is ... Then Mom come to fetch me , so i gave ChaiXia a lift to the interchange . Guess it wasnt that fun without the joke i played on her while waiting ... ask her ...

The SYF competition is near . I am going to watch it ... no matter what . Conductor said he'll get tickets for me and he'll call YangXiuMao for me ... funny ... I must watch the competition ! I also asked Matthew to ask Mdm Xiao for me ...

Actually was supposingly going to Orchard , or a movie ... but , i didnt wanna leave AngMoKio ... so selfish ? Yes ... that stingy .

There was nothing to do ... Other than playing Dota ... there was nothing else on my mind ...

Im watching a reality TV show ... its kinda nice ... watching how people get to bitch about one another ... Before that , it was a damn romantic movie ... i missed it ! I caught the ending , and i cried . Stupid ... I feel that im pretty sensitive towards this kinda movies ... its kinda nice , Another one was " Ever After " ... it is a Cinderella based story . I like this kinda stories ... touching ... romantic ... The movie that i mentioned is none other than " Kate and Leopold " ... did i spell it correctly ? ... nevermind ... Theres somethings i shouldnt say here too ...

I know i shouldnt say that ... its making ur heart itch ... u want to know ? Ask me .

I dun recall asking about that guy , so please dun mention that name , Kenny . Stupid . And that question was totally dumb !

There's something that im thinking about . Wonder if that little remark was meant for me ... Day dreaming again ...

Sypnosis

Life is so boring ...

I just feel like writing poetry again ... but i dun see a need to ... its just a feeling that surfaced recently . Since im so filled with boredom , why not put into some thinking space , for some better use ... I cant just keep blogging whenever im bored ... if so , i'll have multiple entries per day ... Think i shall go compose some poetries ... But i cant create another blog now at home ... the condition of my computer would make it simply impossible ...

Im still listening to Micheal Buble ...

Think later i'll go LAN at Raiders ... meanwhile ... let me think of what im gonna do tomorrow . I wanna watch the SYF performances coming next week ... but ... this year it'll be different , entry would only be permitted if u have a ticket . These tickets are given to the various participating schools , the only way i can get one is to ask from ACS ? No way ... not in a million years . Unless ive no choice ... I must find a way ... It makes me think of the previous SYF ... I managed to enter , thanks to LiBaoShun . He brought me in . There was the SARS crisis going on ... LiBaoShun was angry with the lady for stopping him from entering the hall . The reason was simple ... the competition started , the orchestra on stage had already started . But , he insisted ... and forced his way in , scolding the lady " ShenJingBing " It was clear that he was in the wrong ... but ... well ... ive no say to this . Another one was with JiHuiMing . I got stuck in the lift with him in SCH . He wanted to bring me to the 5th level , so we can sneak in from the back , but who knows ... they locked the 5th level . Eventually ... we got stuck for about 15 minutes ... till somebody opened the door . There was a crowd outside the lift ... think it was due to JiHuiMing's shouting and violently pressing the emergency bell ... So awkward ...

LiangWeiChen ... wonder how he is ... poor man . I shall not talk about this here ...

ZhangNianBing , my favourite teacher ... She still owes me my photo with WangFanDi , the Pipa Master . I must find a day to meet up with her ... maybe during the SYF ... I'll see here then ... i think ... most likely ... ZhangNianBing was the judge for the SYF competition , till she gave it up and came out to teach . But i think she is another poor lady who got cheated to ACS . Its not only that its her first school , its the worst . Other than hearing her complain about the boys to me whenever we take the MRT together , it'll be her telling me how much better the other schools she taught are . Attitude wise i mean ... Its true ... Singapore kids really dun know how fortunate they are . Kids in China treats their teachers like gods . Its the respect , the fear . Fear is good , not as in fear that might threatens life , but fear as in respect .

LiuYan ... that is the kinda fear i have for her . Wonder how she is ... She taught me Ruan when i was Sec 1 . Long time ago ... before the trip over to Japan , i learnt the Ruan . One lesson before going , i was playing the Ruan happily in the classroom . Its then that i noticed that there was only one newbie for Pipa . I always thought that Pipa is something like the GaoHu , only those who can manage the ErHu properly would be allowed to play the Pipa . Well , i was curious . It looked great , magnificient and totally godly . I was tired of Ruan ... it was somehow too easy , as i thought ... I played " LongTengHuYue " with the seniors only after a few weeks of learning the Ruan ... It was kinda stupid to think of the past . I remembered telling LiuYan i wanted the LiuQin , because i wasnt sure so i followed whatever Hanson picked . LiuYan looked at me with this weird look ... then she held my hand ... and ... and ... started to dance ! Joking ... she said that my hand is alittle too plum for LiuQin . Back then , i didnt know what LiuQin looked like anyway . Then i knew what she meant , it'll look weird with someone my size playing the poor little LiuQin . So ... she told me to follow her ... she took out this disgusting round instrument ... its called the Ruan . I didnt like it much ... other than playing all the base notes and all the weird thing that i dun really hear much in the music ... i really felt disgusted , i wanted something more challenging ... That day , before the Japan trip , i asked my Pipa senior whether i can learn the Pipa ... he is Jonathan , now he's in Canada . He went to tell LiuYan , at first i was afraid that she might scold me ... something like ... " Ur not very good at Ruan what ! Why play the Pipa ! Why change when u cant play the Ruan properly ! " I was very scared . Then she came to me ... she told me , " U wanna learn Pipa ? Ok , good ! I get u nails ... " I was shocked . I must admit that i fell in love with her , she was so motherly . Her eyes and her voice , somehow reflected how a mother would be like . I took her nails without paying . Jonathan got a Pipa for me ... and taught me G major . After the Japan trip , i didnt get a chance to see her anymore ... ZhangYuMing got fired , so he brought all the teachers with him ... leaving LiangWeiChen behind ... he soon became our conductor . He is the nicest guy ive ever known .

It was untill ... when i joined MOE camp . I met this teacher . I didnt know him ... only remembered seeing him sitting behind playing the Pipa on stage with SCO . He was guest for the concert which Maestro LiuDeHai and LiuShun came to conduct . He was not only shy when LumYanSeng introduced him . He was funny . Very nice and patient with the students , he did not flare and was very very friendly . Everytime theres a rehearsal , this stupid looking Mayflower girl would come by and talk to him ... He was having this recital at July , so we helped to give posters , which he gave to us , to friends and stuff ... We always called him to demo this and that ... i remembered chatting with him in the hall when we were watching the rehearsals of the ensembles ... So funny ... He was ' tortured ' by the girls ... coz he's just too nice . He sat beside me during the concert . I had this solo , i was so nervous ... I was the principal back then . Think nobody noticed , others said that they thought that the soloist was someone slimmer ... Shit u ! Joking ... Anyway , the nice Pipa teacher was none other than Alastair , or YouGuo back then . And ... not forgetting the stupid looking Mayflower girl ... shes none other than XiuHua ...

Memories ... all flushing back in words ... really dunno how am i to type everything thing here ... i think i shall not talk about some other things which i thought of saying ... well ... all this is already summarised .

A synosis u might call it .

Muddy

Other than 'Tab' , 'Ctrl' and 'Alt' ... theres noting more that ive been pressing lately ... of course ... and the direction arrows ... I know i should pressing on myself more on my actions .

Ive nobody else on my mind currently ... except for one person ... i dun think that he know that its him im thinking of ...

In case if u dunno who im talking about ... dun let ur imagination run wild . Its Micheal im talking about . Micheal ... ? Micheal Buble ! Dun think crooked . Ive been thinking of his songs ! Its his songs ... " Song For You " . I love it . Though i dun understand what has the starting music got to do with the rest of the music ... its not matching at all ... funny ...

Today ... i was quite surprised by the number of people that added me in MSN . Luckily i deleted quite a few which i dun really talk to ... if ur reading this ... dun worry its not u .

Ive been so detached from life ever since graduation . I think im really lagging in my teens ... i should be somewhere else , vandalising some walls or something ... getting myself drunk and my hair dyed ... or something that some normal teenagers would do in the US ... What am gonna talk about when i get older ... what do i have to say to the younger generation ? Talk about my failures ? Thats it ... talk about my encounters and how i ran away from it . Besides all these ... i can actually talk about my friends . Friends that truly deserved the title as " My Friend " ... i dunno whether its right to mention them here ... its kinda awkward ... feeling this awe now ... Well ... think maybe not ... feels like some girlish stuff ...

School life ... i missed it ? Somehow ... i cant deny ... but not totally too . Im enjoying this freedom , but its getting me nowhere , aimless ... Like some romantic snowing paradise ... But im too lost in the snow . I cant look beyond the boundless white snow ... Im lost , i admit it . I need a light to guide my way ... bring me safely back to my track ... There are people that i can never repay ... they are the lamps , that shines upon my path . Thank you . Anyway ... if u think u are one ... maybe ur not !

Im so mean ...

I think im getting the habit back ... flooding my entries like always ...It goes on ...

I just chatted with WeiLin . A lost friend ... 2 years ago ... She plays the percussion . Shes now in Nanyang Poly . When people ask me where im at now ... i really dunno how to reply . Shes another nice girl . Hope she joins CSCO ... Dun worry i think u can make it .

Something that i fear ... I might look ' Dao ' , meaning somehow arrogant ... But honestly , i dun think i am . Im someone that is struck with deadly sins . Among them , one would definitely be ' Sloth ' . Im unimaginably lazy ... even when it comes to talking ... sometimes when u see me pointing and communicating with my hands ... u know im either tired , or can be bothered ... My sealed lips might portray me as some who is ' Dao ' ... so ... to anyone who thinks that i am ... please bear in mind that im not !

Im really tired ... getting myself dirty with mudslaps . This CO circle is so dirty that anyone who enters would only disintegrate and putrefy . One living proof would have to be that guy ... and this girl i know ... I shall not point fingers ... but ive been noticing ... it gets worse and worse . I think it has to do with the teachers . This dirty mud that i wanna talk about is someone i hate . In my eyes , he is just something like mud . Mud thinks that he's like a purified water , but in fact it havent seen his own guise . No matter how mud is purified , it wont be completely pure ... Not knowing how disgusting he is , he goes around and telling his fellow friends , flora and fauna , how wonderful or how great he is . Mudslaps ... heard of it ? Well ... it shows how dangerous he might be . Its just a metaphor anyway ... But theres another term called ' Mudslide ' . One day it'll fulfill its purpose in the dictionary . To u , mud , nobody likes u and one day u'll fall like ur fellow muddy friends !

I hate u !

Im going crazy ... i think i better stop here ...

Before i go ... and give ur soring eyes a break ...

I just wanna say that ...Im useless and i think im turning into someone ... i dun want ... no ... no ...

Hibernation

The audition for NAFA is coming ...

Think nobody will notice this blog . My blog was somehow been frozen for quite a while ... roughly a few months ... Now , its kinda hard to pick up the old habit of blogging . Life without my blog really kinda saturate my brain with train of thoughts .

Actually though my computer is down , i can actually still use it . Its just that , sometimes the explorer might be a little screwed up , the colours too and the mouse cursor is missing ... so , i had to use the keyboard to do almost everything . Well , i wasnt quite use to it before , now i kinda got the hang of it ... So , from now on ... i'll use the computer to blog my entries ... but i dun think there will be any colours ... It just depicts my state of life now , without colours ... anyone would be nice enough to drop by to repaint my world with the colours of the rainbow .

Please approach me when u see me online in MSN , because i cant talk to anyone if they dun talk to me , or else it'll be really troublesome ... But if my reply should be any slower , it might be due to the reason that im talking to a number of people , u cant blame me for being too popular can u ? Dun envy me please ...

Im joking ...

I just bought an album ! Its by Micheal Buble ... its lovely ... sweet ... tender ... juicy ... delicious ... I love his voice , sweet and soft ... and his songs , they are perfect for the night . Another singer that i love would be Sarah McLachlan . Her songs are perfect for any quiet moment . Anyway ... back to the album ... I bought the CD mostly because of 2 songs ... one of them is 'Home' and the other is "Feeling Good" . Totally jazzy and sentimental , a farrago of both . I like songs that have a welter of both elements , not neccessarily be jazz , maybe a little of Country would be fine . Micheal Buble , a must buy !

Ive been feeling this bore for this few weeks ... I havent revised my music theory ... i bet i'll fail the audition like what Kenny thought . It defintely wont be on the practical section . Maybe on oral and written paper .

Im dead ... dead ... dead ...

Shit ... shit ... shit ...

Im really stressed now ... now ... now ... Shit u ! Dun think u can help ! If ur reading ... u better not talk or mention to me about this ...

Stress ... stress ... stress ...

Anyway ... weird . There wont be any electricity in my area from 3 to 4pm ... but strange ... im still using my computer and listening to Micheal Buble ... Its already 3.15pm ... Hope they wont cut it any moment now ... I dun wanna retype this peice of shit ...

Anyway ... i think its because of my room . Usually when there is a shocked circuit at home , my room wont be affected ... dunno why ... its just weird . So it might be that only my room has electricity supplied .

I think i better go now ... anyway ... my blog shall revive after hibernating for this few weeks ... or in fact , months !

Bye . Come back for more .