Pouches Of Boredom

Im home, and Mom just fetched JunRu home, and alighted Dedric nearby to catch a cab. I just had my supper, and im thinking... when isit going to stop? The temptation is something that i'll never overcome.

I woke up late, and got Mom to fetch me down to school. When i reached, i called Mark, and he told me that he couldnt make it for the rehearsal. By the way, ZhengYi was having his lesson with JonathanFox. So, i kept my Pipa and thought of something else to do. I headed for harmony lecture, and i was late because i was having breakfast with Richard.

The lecture started already, and when i got in, its LianWei's presentation. I tried making him laugh, but it didnt work out well. Very soon, its Christoven's presentation, which turned out to be quite shocking. I cant believe how they did the video. It was pretty good, and more fun and exciting. I wanted to try playing, but i spared a thought for my own image, and i held on to myself. Audrey played, and she was so funny... laughing, screaming and talking hysterically. I told Evan to use her head to hit the blocks. Yes, by the way, its a game called Jenga, heard of it? It has a different name, but its roughly the same... only that uve to pick out blocks which have the notes pasted on them, according to the card u pick. The card will read the name of the chords, and we've to pick the blocks to form the chord, which will be placed at the top of the towering Jenga blocks. Get it? LianWei and i were laughing like mad, because Christoven was rushing with the slides, while ShuHan, being blur, looked so helpless with the rapid slides. And not forgetting Marie's set of balls and Eudora's bimbo acting...

Marie's group did the most interesting video. Its so good that its spoiling the common market. So free right? Do until so nice for what! But well, its really very nice. I loved the video, though im not as interested to the game as compared to the video. So... kinda balanced. I hate those questioning games, because they've done something similar with asking questions during the previous presentation last year. This time, its slightly different, but still... kinda similar. Its so stressing, what happens if i cannot answer the simple question? They asked about composers, periods, pieces and about harmony. As easy as it sounds, the answers are hardly found anywhere in my head.

I was later in the Percussion studio, with Fhairil, SiHan and Richard. We rehearsed through Fhairil's piece, and we were all laughing away and stuff. Fhairil was talking, but nobody listened... and next, we found him giggling away till he dropped. Its kinda nice, and i was making fun of SiHan's intonation and his awkward rhythm counting technique. He'll move his head like an Indian when he counts off beats. I sat there, and couldnt bear to keep quiet. I burst out loud.

ZhengYi and LuHeng came in, and he told us that the composition exam's performing section has been cancelled. I was delighted, though disappointed that ive spent so much energy and time into it. Actually, ive rehearsed only once, but i treated my musicians to an expensive lunch. But well, its alright... nevermind. Im so happy, i started shouting with joy. Fhairil was sad because he wanted people to listen to his piece. So, we ran through once for ZhengYi and gang to listen. But, they were hastily chasing us off because they wanted to practice their piece.

I took Jonathan's thumbdrive and copied his work into the computer, for my own reference. Then, i kept asking him for help with my music technology homework. Ive completed one for now, and still left with one set of worksheets. Im so screwed? There are more things to worry about. One of which would be my history assignments, which was due like last year! And one which was due yesterday. Im so dead right? I know, thanks for rubbing in.

I had lunch with SiHan before heading for the rehearsal. We skipped tutorial just to practice Fhairil's piece, and im so busy with the performance too. I think im so dead, because i still have some slots to complete. The history lectures are divided into many different time slots, and ive to complete at least 12 or 15 slots. Each will be a presentation on a certain paper, regarding different issues. My question was answered in an essay a few weeks ago, and we've to complete the essay one month after. So, Fairul, we've to finish it up before 13 March.

I think ive still 4 more to attend. Im dead, screwed. However, i saw Fairul's once, and i think he is in deeper shit. Anyway, lunch with SiHan was fine. I ate the same old thing i had earlier with Richard. I think the Indian man gave me the wrong change. Good for me anyway, i ordered extra noodle, but it came with the same amount... and he even told that its more expensive because it has more noodle. What the hell? In the end, he gave me the wrong change and so... he charge me at a normal rate. I kept quiet, because he shouldnt charge me extra at all... there wasnt a single bit of extra noodle!

The rehearsal was fine, and during the performance, it was better. We were all so tired, and bored of the 18 similar pieces. The singer sung beautifully, and it sounded so much better during the performance. MrYeo's cue was slightly better too. The singer did drag the tempo, but it wasnt quite serious because we played slowly. While waiting backstage during the interval, as well as the Zheng and Piano accompaniment part, i sat around backstage, playing a fool.

I played the Pipa with Michelle, and realised that her ShiMianMaiFu isnt the full version. Anyway, the LiuDeHai version is the shortest already. HaiJie asked about some Pipa techniques. I think he has changed since entering into NAFA. He is very polite, friendly and humble nowadays. Thats a good change. For real or not, im not sure. Probably its the power of love.

After the performance, i was very tired. QingLun asked me to go soya stall for a drink. So, i told Rit to go home himself. Who knows? While waiting for ShuMin and gang, QingLun suddenly said that he has to go home early. I stood up almost immediately and left. Im not angry, because i dun have the rights to, but im just disappointed. I followed Rit, and walked with him halfway, then i realised that Mom is fetching me, so i walked back to school. I sat there, and the security guard was smiling at me, with his ugly cheeky smile, and staring at me while i sat on his chair. I rolled about and ignored his presence.

I sat there, and people came and went. JunRu and Dedric asked if i can give them a lift, and so i did. I hope they enjoyed the company of my Mom. She was really auntie, and told Dedric and JunRu stupid stuff. I think its funny...

Before leaving for home, i sat with Christoven. He was very dull. He told me that he's sad about his pieces. Its hard for the Piano part, and the Pianist doesnt practice. I can understand. Its not their piece, u see... so, its obvious that they dun practice the accompaniment piece more than their own solo pieces.

Evan scolded me just now, and told me that she wont give me chocolates anymore. Please! I told her that i'll treat them to lunch one day. Well, its worth more than those expected frog chocolates! I dunno, but i think Evan hates me... because she keeps picking on me. Whateva i do, she'll dislike. Its so hard being me.

Jamaludin, the lecturer for the dance department just sent me the schedule. And moreover, its not a fixed schedule. Im not sure whether it clashes with my exams or not. I hope not! But, there'll be a rehearsal this coming Thursday. Im so nervous...

I gave my gig performance to QingLun. How nice of me right? Well, what are friends for. For what i know, they are not punchbags. Get it right!

Right, i better rush off to finish up my composition. So, see u guys. Anyway, WeiLing, who will be graduating soon from ShangHai, just told me that she wanna interview me. Its regarding her thesis, and she'll need information from Pipa players in Singapore. Thanks to her for even choosing me! Im flattered. No reason to be actually.

Sycophant

Im home, and Mom just gave me a present. Its a soft toy, and its a blue pig. Great, a pig year ahead...

I woke up late today, and managed to rush down to NAFA in time. Within 20 minutes, i got to school. I took the MRT to Novena, and as usual... took bus 166 to school. It was really cramp in there, and this girl infront of me accidentally stepped on my foot with her high heels! My hair turned purple, and my eyes became dark and i turned into a banshee. Well, but i didnt scream it out... though its really painful. I got down the bus, and since i left my Pipa at the theatre, it was more convenient for me. Almost everybody was there already, and the singers were there really early. QingLun was later than me, and thanks so much to his late morning call. Its totally useless... save it.

Last night, i was feeling really blue. I hugged my TweetieBird soft toy to sleep, while wetting my pillow with my honest tears. Then, i realised that its a starry night. I seldom see stars in Singapore, its usually Malaysia where i get to see many shining diamonds in the sky. Whereas in Singapore, its usually pitch black. I walked towards my window and winded down the curtain. It turned my world into darkness... where i slept well.

The rehearsal was fine, but the singer kept dragging. She was so free, as in her tempo, she came in with her own tempo even though we played the first 2 bars of introduction for her. The accompanying figure was there already, but yet she can just come in with her own timing! She is indeed professional! Im going to write that into my review...

Then, we were curious where was Andy and Rit... and well, MrYeo was kinda pissed with Rit, because he didnt turn up for any rehearsals. Well, i just dun understand... After practicing, we headed for lunch. On my way for lunch, i met Rit and i talked to him. After that, i called QingLun and he told me that he needed to go to the library. So, i insisted that he go library with ShuMin and gang, instead of having lunch with me. But, he insisted on having lunch with me. I think he was really hungry anyway. We ordered pasta! The meatballs... and the chicken cutlet tasted good! I loved it. And moreover, its not really expensive anyway.

I headed to the Percussion studio and Mark wasnt there yet. Being always accentuating about punctuality, there wasnt any single person there. So, i entered the room with the help of MrYeo. Before that, i kept my Pipa and bag in the studio with Sebestian's card. Its so irritating, because only Percussionists can enter the Percussion studio, which makes sense, but it causes quite an inconvenience for others to use the studio. So troublesome...

MrYeo gave 2 students a test, while i stood behind and watched them play. It was horrible! The sightread test was kinda difficult, but would be much easier if they were to count in quavers, which obviously they didnt. Or if they did, then their sightreading really sucked.

Soon, Mark came, and i got my new score. I checked on the notes, and some were wrong, and as for the rest... he edited some notes. Im wondering if theres any purpose in it, if the edition of notes are so random, then... nevermind. I felt really uncomfortable playing the piece, because its not in the Pipa's language. Anyway the rehearsal was alright, but kinda tough to play it together. I made the most mistakes, because i have counting problems as well as reading Western notation problems. I suck, i know. Mark didnt conduct at first, but i thought that he should. Sharon's Piccolo was fine, but her cue wasnt really acute. ZhengYi was the only one who played through without much of a sweat.

After the rehearsal for Mark's piece, i headed upstairs. The computer lab was filled with so many people. I was kinda shocked, but ive expected many last minute workers, so... no surprise. I havent completed my composition yet, because it aint in Sibelius! I seriously need help! I need to complete it now. Like now! Im going to rush for it later, because i'll be so damn busy tomorrow, with performance and rehearsals. And on Wednesday, there aint much time to complete it. Moreover, the school's computers will all be burning. I wanna complete it before i sleep, but my eyes are shutting down again...

I headed to the chicken rice stall with ShuMin, Anthea, Jason and JunRu. After that, i headed to soya stall alone. ShuMin kept scolding Anthea, and making fun of Anthea. I could tell that Anthea was kinda pissed off, but of course ShuMin was joking. JunRu then told us that Michelle and him will be flying to China during May, or June. Well, im going there too, but i aint going to play. Its more of work this time round, im so much of myself that i have no sense of competition at all, though many are surfacing as threats around me. But well, im a healthy person, i dun look at them as fleas or pests. I see them as people with a common interest, that simple. Im a simple person who tries to live in a sophisticated realistic society. Its hard for a dreamer like me to survive... But there is something which nobody can steal away from me. Thats my music, my family, my passion and my friends. For all that, im thankful enough.

After drinking, i managed to catch up with them. They were so slow... I practiced the Pipa, and ran through the compositions. Fhairil brought me down to the studio, and we rehearsed with the MIDI. It was fun, because it sounded more musical and alot more related to Pipa's language. It sounded Malay, with Chinese melodies. I loved it! MrYeo was there, and he sat beside me and adviced me to add some flavours to it. I think his concepts are still kinda traditional inclined, but could tell that its still strong as foundation. There were a few parts which i would have to repeat playing the same old thing for dunno how long. So, MrYeo asked me to play it like Japanese instruments, or i can even use harmonics and stuff. So, i tried everything i can, and found some slightly better ones. MrYeo said that he liked Fhairil's composition. Fhairil couldnt even play the Marimba part which he wrote for Richard. It was funny... he said that its kinda tough.

The 3 of us headed down for a drink, while MrYeo had his dinner. MrYeo treated us to a drink, and we were like making it as such a big deal. We talked about school's rules, and about the replacement Cellist. MrYeo asked if MuHe has the rights to do that, and isit approved even by Adams. Im not sure, but its ridiculous for me. I think its not right...

Soon, the concert ended, and it was SiHan's brother's recital with this dunno who Pianist. I went for the attendance only, and after that... i headed back to my dear Pipa. Met up with YongRui and YiKai in the pink room, where we crapped and ran through LuHeng's piece.

LuHeng came and we told him to conduct us. The slow introduction was kinda tricky. I couldnt help it but to come in wrongly at times. The notes were slightly easier to catch, because there is a structure there to follow, and there aint any chords. The fast section has this killer running notes, which is playable... but kinda tough. I practiced running a few times, and managed to catch the feel of it. I think i love LuHeng's piece the most, its modern but with a taste. There is a melody there, though its kinda atonal in sense of the tonal structure. I dunno... there isnt quite a key, if there is... i dunno what it is.

After running through, i headed back to my own practice area, with LianWei and Fairul's instruments there. LianWei and i practiced there at the same area, while the other went off. LianWei was disturbed by me, i guess. He didnt play much, because i was talking to him... and asking him questions. He told me that he was tired, but well... thats the thing about music, we cant practice much with a worn out spirit. Sometimes, ive to force myself to play even though im feeling really weak and tired. I didnt run through my exam piece at all, though i did jump from sections to sections, but thats a bad thing... because i realised that its really tiring to play the whole piece with one breath from head to toe. I dun literally mean one breath.

I told Jonathan to send his work to my email, but i havent recieved anything yet. I just sent a message to remind him to. Had supper with SiHan. We were talking about stupid things... and i tried his food, which made me so thirsty. Then, i persuaded him with much strength to go to the soya stall with me. Since its so occupied, i tried the other stall, without letting the auntie noticing. Well, bought our drinks, and we left discreetly.

I walked to Bugis with him. At the bus-stop, i noticed this girl who doesnt look quite bad, though kinda boyish. The more i stare, the more i realise that its actually a guy! My goodness, its a freaking guy! He has this girl hair, and girl's features. What else? He was revealing his butt like girls do. But well, im not pervertic, but seriously... he looked like a girl! SiHan and i were shocked. But well, SiHan wasnt surprised. SiHan is kinda experienced with such things... and he has a fetish for nipples. I dunno why! He likes to pinch them. I saw him pinching his own during history lecture. He'll just sit there and start pinching himself for no reasons... Its wierd, i think im going to stay away from him.

Anyway he made a bet with me. He asked me to ask the Indian waiter whether they have pork chop. I didnt, because he chickened out. Or else, i could have gotten an extra treat from him.

I took bus 851 home, which arrived with SiHan's bus 80. I overslept, and found myself reaching Yishun! I quickly pressed the bell and alighted in the middle of nowhere. The bus-stop was kinda secluded. I stood there while waiting for Mom to come fetch me.

Im tired, but ive to go on. Burn some oil! Its time to go on...

Before i go, i wanna dedicate this last paragraph to QingLun, my dear donkey friend. He called me just now, and was scolding me about blogging that he is like a donkey. Its yesterday's entry, and he was so bothered about it, in a funny way. So, he dared me to blog it again. Well, donkey QingLun! Thats it, i know, thats it right?

Im only joking...

By the way, im not a toady person who seeks favor by flattering people of wealth, fame or influence. Im not a parasite, not a sycophant.

I Am Enjoining It

WeiFeng is online, and he is now talking to me. His computer broke down a few months, or weeks ago... and now its finally repaired. I miss talking to him, because is such a good friend. He supports me of what i do, and encourages me for what i want, and he helps me in what i need. I think that is what a friend is all about, another person would be ChaiXia and Jasmine, but ChaiXia aint in good terms with WeiFeng, but i try to balance them both. I think both of them are really nice people, and they should get along better some day. I just wanna thank some people here today. There are people who've changed my life, for the better or not, thats just another issue. But of course, to thank would be those who've helped or brought me a certain advantage that would be good for me, and not people who has changed my life due to their bad influences. SiHan, Christoven and QingLun saved me out of my other realm. I am somebody who helplessly fall into my darker side often. Back then, i would just sit alone, eat alone, take the bus alone, watch the stars alone and to even walk by the beach alone. I talked to myself, literally. There were times when i cannot control my tears, they flow like a river. There were times when my heart would shatter and i'll be picking them up alone. However, i cannot point my finger on anybody for my predicament, because... i wished for myself to be alone. I was so used to being alone that i hate company. I have a different view towards stranger, i hate them before i know them. Well, believe it or not, ive hated people like SiHan, QingLun, Jwen and even ShuMin. There are reasons why, and one of which would be an act of defence for my own safety. I do not wish to be cheated over and over again. Im always on the loss, its not that i wish to gain advantage of others, but i just hope that i do get cheated all the time. Sometimes, i'll just close one eye and get myself cheated on, because i felt like it, or i would prefer so. Mostly, ive to treat others how i'll treat them with hatred. Its not healthy, but my perspective grows out of the dark box with just a slight ray of light. Other than that, people who ive came to contact straight away were people who i'd never hated before. Those were like YouGuo, WeiFeng, Christoven, YongRui and YanYa. Well, i knew them straight away... and i was fine with them. Do u get what i mean? I dun think u do, but if u share the same heart, im sure u'll think deeper into my thoughts from this little words.

Sometimes, i just hope that i'll never grow out of my mother's arms. I dun wish to face the harshness or reality. I dream of a life, a life away from politics and criticism. I just wanna live away in a farm, from a far away land. With animals, which will love me in any way i am. U understand what i mean? Its unfeeling in the cold society, where people are just out there leeching anybody that provides them with the blood to. I watch in disgust as i see my own friends true colours. So, everybody has their masks on... The realisation has forced myself to put on a mask. I sadly stood among my masked friends, and gently forced the mask on my face. My tears, like a river. My face, like a loser.

Im not sure, but i can define myself as being moody. Its been kinda long since u guys have last read something this personal, or emotional. Recently, its been so preoccupied with events that i have little time for my own thoughts. Im back, im back. Its time for another onslaught of personal thoughts. The ratio aint right, ive been blogging so much about the events of my life that ive forgotten about my own thoughts. So, who cares about what i do? I think people would really wanna know what i think instead. Sometimes, i even wonder if its alright to blog it out. I should reside to my secret garden, where i pour my secrets like seeds, water them everyday with tears and to finally watch it grow and bear fruits. Probably a fruitless tree. Fruitless as other thing. Thats life, my life.

I woke up late this morning. I woke up at rehearsal time. I rushed down to school, only to find that QingLun was later than me. MrYeo wasnt really furious, but i knew that im in deep shit if this happens again. I took my seat beside Michelle, as i turned and saw ShuMin struggling with pain at the audience seat. I tuned my Pipa, and got myself a good view of the scores, and started joining into the piece. I was turning around talking to MinHui, and the donkey really thinks we're in good terms, he was talking to me like we're friends. Well, im not sure, but for me, i wont talk to strangers that often. After the rehearsal with the singers, they were great, i left with Dedric to the BotanicalGarden. Before taking the cab there, i ate with YongRui, SiHan and Clarence. Some asked ive finished my composition, and i dunno what to say. The composition was completed a few weeks ago, and it has been rehearsed once. As for the score itself, its not done on Sibelius. So, technically? Have i completed? Sometimes, technology is just another issue which destroys the result. Even during presentations, the computers will screw them up.

We walked a very long way, and we talked about certain people in the Chinese music circle. There are just those people who are utterly disgusting. They bring their status to such a high level, but reality just smash them down on the floor and shatter their bones. Some people are just lousy, but with a humble character, its totally fine. But, with a character thats just too hungry for attention and fame, im sorry, i think its wholly despicable. As for others, i think they are just brainwashed with higher thinking which rules over their own personal opinions. I know that im easily influenced, but i must say that im speaking with my own words most of the time. This thoughts might be under the influence of somebody else's thoughts, therefore, its difficult for u or anybody to really listen to somebody's thoughts. U just dun understand whether its their own opinions or really somebody else's. Its a prevailing sentiment, its so common that it runs in ur blood too, i believe.

We found ourselves a seat under the tree. The tree roots were cleaner than the grass patch, so... we sat there, and enjoyed the concert. LuJie, ZhangNianBing's student, played the SanXian with a band, comprising of ethnical Percussion, a Guitar and a BassGuitar. I think its kinda cool, and its something which YanYu's has encouraged me to try on. As for me, though ive burning passion for something like that, i dun think it'll recieved very good remarks from critical bad breath of many people. I just hope for myself to enjoy my own dreams, to wallow in shame.

It started drizzling, but it ended with hopes of the people there. If it rains, almost everybody will leave, because there aint much shelter, though there are towering trees around. Dedric and i were talking about LuJie, and then... slowly, to other musicians. LuHeng messaged me, and i had to leave for school. On our way walking out, we talked about another musician. Some people are really irresponsible. They are just shady and really undependable. So much for dolling themselves up with their honest speakings. Im naive enough to once believe that such honest and perfect people do exist. But, only to disappoint myself when i see the truth for myself. These are people who causes others to hate, to be prejudice against such acts. There is no integrity and initiative for what they do, they just hope to buy their way out of everything. People like that may climb to the top, but... isit worth the respect of others? Though being respected or not doesnt matter at all, but is ur conscience clear? I think it doesnt even matter at all if they dun even wanna earn any respect. In the end, its always ignorance that feign its way around anything, or even everything.

Got to school, and LuHeng showed YiKai, YongRui and i his compostion, for Piano, DoubleBass and the Pipa. Well, i edited some things with him, and unlike Mark's which was a chaos, LuHeng's piece was surprisingly fine. There wasnt any clashes, and the chords were playable. I think he has done research, and he knows what he really wants, thats the important part. I told him to edit the score for Pipa into Piano's score, meaning with both the treble and bass clefs. I prefer reading that way, as compared to the single line.

They all left after they've recieved their scores, as for me, i had to stay to help LuHeng with the scoring for Pipa. He editted the score rather quickly, and surprised with people how they can manage Sibelius that quickly. I have to learn! I have to!

After that, there was nothing to do... so, Dedric, TingTing, YouYi and i went to Swensen's, at Bugis. We ordered ice-cream, as for Dedric, he ordered baked rice. Its been quite some time since i ate ice-cream like that. But to think of it, i'll need to spend some time too to sweat them out. Most probably i wont, but i hope i do. My body doesnt listen to my heart, they recieve lazy signals from my aging brain.

Dedric then talked about his love life. He shared with us his troubles, and i sat there quietly listening... and referring it to my very own love life. Love, something that one must not get addicted with. For people out there, if u havent been in a relationship before, i advice that u dun till ur prepared. The word is to be prepared, and not curious. He told us the pain that he has to go through alone after having a company for so many years. Well, there are ways to handle such pain. Numb it, like i did. Its simple, but it takes time. As for me, ive managed to numb one, and transformed another intro hatred. And of course, hidden another. Im fine now. This is the main reason which got my thinking just now. During the MRT ride home with Dedric, i was thinking and bothered by my own thoughts.

Then, he had to go somewhere, so he got me out of the MRT station at Cityhall. He wanted to treat me to a cab ride home, but i refused, because i wont be sharing it with him. So, whats the purpose? Im not a free loader, i wanna just take the bus home myself if thats the case. So, i headed towards my bus-stop, while him feeling guilty about dragging me out. I told Dedric, he is stabbing himself in the heart. He has nobody else to blame. As for me, ive nobody else to blame either. Im too naive, thats all i have to say. But now, im changing, and im a different person. Still the old self within me, but adapting differently. Im accepting my old self as a lesson. Ive learned. And its time to show what ive learnt.

Today, i was disgusted with QingLun. The more i look at him, the more i see him as a donkey. But well, he is a good friend. I have to go help him now... so, its time to say goodbye.

I have demonstrated a steady stream of decisions enjoining myself from getting hurt. U should too.

Shutting Down

Im home, and im very tired. Im so sorry, QingLun. But well, it turned out all fine. Its no wonder that people say that im always talking, but never doing. I promised him that i'll help him write a few pieces. In the end, i fell asleep because i was too tired. Anyway, JunRu couldnt make it suddenly, so... there was one missing ErHu part which ive written already. Then, theres an additional YangQin. So, composing would be tough since its not even settled. But still, i fell asleep because i was really too tired. If i wasnt, i will finish at least one piece, trust me.

I couldnt make it, i headed to bed. This morning, i woke up late, and rushed down to catch a cab to teach. So, i was late... and they had this huge dog. Her name is Veltrice, and she is only a beginner. I took out the Pipa, and talked to her about Pipa. I even lent her some CDs as well as a LiuDeHai DVD. I told her to listen more to Pipa music, to expose her ears to the different types of Pipa music. Well, passion must grow first, before theres space for more learning. Im not going to talk much about my lesson here. After teaching, i told her father, MrTan, to get a Pipa for her. And immediately, we went over to the warehouse, and chose a Pipa for her to practice. They bought it straight away, how cool. MrTan was talking to me about his plans, and his ideas... as well as his encouragement and admirable statements for me. He asked me a few questions, and with his business mind, he countered them with his own ideas. I noticed that my students are kinda rich, and thats a good thing, because there aint a financial obstacle to prevent them from learning. Well, i shall stop here.

MrTan dropped me at Bedok, as ive requested. There, i ate and slept at the market, waiting for QingLun. After waking up, to find myself so embarrassed to sleep in such a place, i headed to the interchange, and i slept there! I was really too tired. QingLun told me that he'll arrive in a few minutes, which turned out to be almost an hour. How nice?

When he arrived, the only thing that came from his mouth were words of disappointment. Well, he was scolding me for not finishing the composition. I kept quiet and gave him my reasons... and he kept going on. Typical of him! Always there to pinch people's wound.

We took the MRT together, instead of going his house intentionally, we headed to PasirRis and back to Bugis. I alighted there at Bugis, and he headed on for his SYCO aural class. Before alighting, saw Laurence and Midori.

I walked back, with pain... and then found myself a resting place in the computer lab. I thought of writing something out quickly, but since QingLun told me that its fine, i didnt. I headed to rest in the studio, but found no where comfortable enough. Then, Jonathan came and asked if im playing for QingLun. And he also said that MinHui and him will be taking a cab over, so asking whether i wanna go with them. I asked him to help move the YangQin too, and he was fine with it. Thanks, or else i wont be able to do it alone, thanks to my good old ankle.

Jasmine came with my persuasion. Well, she was studying for her coming exams, and i kept asking her... because QingLun needed a YangQin player, and i couldnt find anybody else! So, my suddenly thought of Jasmine, because she can play... though not as improvisatorially as others like ZhiNeng and Stanley, but she can play! So, she promised after a long persuasion. She was very nice to accept the money that QingLun wanted to give her. I told QingLun to give her $30, but she refused. Well, thats good. How nice right? Well, its so last minute and it aint fair for others like us, so... she refused. How generous, or how fake? Evil bear, dun think i dunno what ur up to... Im joking, and thanks for helping him out. He should thank u, not me. But, im so nice right? I thank u on his behalf. Im like so helpful?

In the end, we walked over to SMU from NAFA. Jonathan dragged the YangQin all the way there, while MinHui carried 2 Ruans. I was trying to catch up, and soon... we were there, with QingLun complaining about me again. Then, he told me that i'll be surprised on what kind of ocassion we'll be performing in. I thought that there'll be many people, but its another form of surprise... Its a teenager's party. U know, those funky type. So, we're totally like fishes out of water.

The soundcheck was horrible! It was so embarrassing! Thanks to MinHui and Jonathan who came up with their solo pieces and duets, which occupied almost half of the programme. As for me, i was finding it hard to hear myself, and to play accompanying figures. Well, the Ruans must really go learn how to improvise accompaniment. I cant really do it on the Pipa, in fact... it doesnt really sound that good on the Pipa, because the chords will sound clashing like QingLun have said.

After playing for some time, people started entering. Veltrice was still messaging me... and she told me that she was impressed by the old man's playing, LiuDeHai. Thats good to hear, she should be impressed anyway. I took my Pipa and got myself a place to rest. The party started with the MCs talking and the first programme, food! Jonathan was kinda normal, eagerly queueing up for his food. He wanted to take my curry! I allowed him to share it with me, but not to steal my drumstick. The food was good, and i sat with them on this high table. BeeKwee was sitting opposite me, and i hope that i didnt kinda freeze her with my lameness. But, im not the lamest, its QingLun! He and his not funny lame jokes. Soon, after eating and finding nothing for myself to drink, we headed to our playing area, and got ourselves prepared.

I insisted that we start our programme with the Ruans to chill off our hotter pieces later. We'll be playing some really hot pieces! We needed something to chill it down, so... the Ruans played first. MinHui played a solo, followed by Jonathan... then we started our first piece. After a few more, and we returned to the duet. We even wanted to get Alvin to solo, but he wasnt feeling quite used to my nails, so he didnt play. He almost did! Alvin was there at the party too. If ur wondering, its QingLun's sister's birthday party. Nothing to do with me, im just there for fun and for the performance. Jonathan rushed off after performing, and so we stayed on and played more games.

We were sitting in a circle, playing lame games and cracking lame jokes. As for me, suffering under the violence of MinHui and Jasmine, and QingLun's unpredictable BDSM mood. What is BDSM? I think its like some sex thing, meaning bondage, slave and master. I think its like that, and QingLun has this kinky fetish for it, thats why he likes to be mean at times suddenly.

After the cutting of the cake, we stayed on and continued talking and packing up. The cake was good, its the first few times of me eating a birthday cake. Well, i guess its the mood. Usually i wont be in such a good mood during birthdays. So, i ate the cake and left. QingLun's father drove us to school. We, 5 of us, were all cramping in the tiny car... and i was infront, because im the biggest of size. What an advantage, i didnt need to squeeze with them at the back. How nice right?

Kept the instruments, and we headed for a drink at the soya stall. There, we were all terrified by the cockroaches. They were huge, and the China uncle would help us kill them, and MinHui was the one who started the cockroach thingi because she was shouting. Jasmine was really nervous, she stood up from that time onwards till we left. The uncle then talked to us... telling us about cockroaches and the rats there. Of course, the cats too... and the pigeons and about Singapore... and stuff. Funny.

We left our own ways and now im home. I missed my stop, and managed to wake up in time to alight at the next one, or else i'll be so dead. I hate it overshoot, because im tired enough already...

Thats it, my eyes are shutting down. I havent been sleeping properly... and i have to rehearse tomorrow for 4 hours, and probably morning for CSCO. I need sleep seriously. Goodnight...

Lapidary

Welcome to my blog.

Its not an official start, but almost an official end. Im going to end my blog tonight! Believe or not, up to u.

MuHe just asked me about our upcoming concert next week. Well, it'll be featuring 2 vocalists, and of course... us, the best ensemble in the world. NAFA has chosen 2 Cellists to help us out, and other than Sarah, it'll be MuHe and SiHan! How fun right? Good, i think its going to be so happening, because we'll be playing 18 versions of 'XiuHeBao'. How exciting? Im playing the Pipa, i think u might have heard already. And, there'll be 4 Pipa players, how balanced right? 2 Ruans, and only a few ErHus, and 3 Dizis. We'll be having Percussionists coming over too. They'll hear our standard, and our professional practicing environment. I think its like going to be the best concert this year! Not too early to say, trust me... its the best! How i love it!

Believe me or not, up to u, i advice u not.

Today i woke up kinda early. In fact, too early. I fell asleep last night after talking to QingLun on the phone. So, i woke up at 6 in the morning, and i finished up with the scores. I copied them down, and then its about time to leave home. I bathed and got dressed. While walking out, i walked back to get my scores, because i didnt bring them out! If i would have forgotten, i'll kill myself. Whats the purpose of the day without bringing out the scores? Well, anyway... i carried the Pipa, because i thought that i'll be performing the Pipa in the evening with DongXiao and gang. But who knows? I played the Ruan, and the Pipa was carried around for the whole day for nothing!

I felt so comfortable today. Time was flowing on my side, as i took the MRT down to YanYu's house. After alighting, i took my time and walked over. I wasnt late, and she opened the door for me. Angela is growing! And now she can smile, and she looks so adorable. YanYu was carrying her, and then she left her on the bed, where she started smiling and giggling. How cute!

I took out the Pipa, and i showed her my programme booklet for the performance yesterday. I told her about the mistakes in the resume, and she was laughing about it. Well, i told u guys yesterday already, so i aint gonna talk about it again. Every lesson felt like a war to me. I had to fight and play really hard. She took out her Pipa, and started strumming away with me. I started off the piece with a weak blow, which left her laughing away, jeering at me.

I was kinda disappointed, but somehow... i got to understand the link between our body and our mind. We can know what we want, but not get them as how we want them to be. Its just a mentality thingi. We must coordinate our fingers with our mind, and one more... would be our spirit. Sometimes, they playing might be there, but without the spirit, there wont be any life. Well, this kinda describes my blog, a death of a mortal soul. Its just a dead body, without a living soul inside, thus... everything here are just words that are dead, not alive. I played the Pipa, and was beaten out. I raised my white flag and surrendered to YanYu.

We went through the piece based on our memories. I memorised the piece already, but there are a few parts which she didnt remember properly, so she adviced me to check with the score. I found the score in one of her files, and looked for the missing part. It turned out that im right, and shes right too about another part which was supposedly played with the second string, instead of the first. Well, im not sure... but somehow i remembered that its the first instead of the second. Anyway, with the second string, its so much easier!

After beating the drums and stressing the warcry, im done. The lesson ended with some chatting, and slowly... i kept my nails. So, she kept her's too... and we started talking. She had 3 drums at home today, and she played one to show me the effect of the requirements in the piece. Its kinda funny...

She gave me a red packet, though i didnt bring any oranges, and soon... left her house for Bugis. I walked to the MRT station, with the heavy load weighing me down. In the train, i was sitting beside this really fat woman. She took up so much space! She was sleeping, and she has beard! Anyway, kinda hairy above the lips too. I was kinda grossed out. She looked brutishly coarse, as in behaviour, because she was moving about while she was sleeping, but luckily, she didnt drool. The Malay dude beside me didnt wanna move, and with an empty seat beside him, he still sat there, giving me really no space at all to move. I sat there, with my Pipa, thinking of how initiative Singaporeans are.

I alighted at Bugis, and went shopping! MinHui, YiLeng and JiaJin would be late, and QingLun was kinda hard to contact. So, with the time to shop, i quickly went looking around for something to wear. I found this really Dedric's type of shirt, and i went to try it on. I tried twice, and decided on the 'M' size one. I dunno why, but it fits me just well, i think. People say that sometimes i wear tight clothings, but well... i hate tight clothings! I dun have tight ones, i usually wear comfortable sizes, and usually ranging from 'M' to 'XL'. So, today, i bought the 'M', because it fits me just nicely. I wore it, and went outside to meet with YiLeng, then JiaJin.

We took some suggestions, and finally got ourselves settled at Fish&Co. When we're about to enter, JiaJin saw QiaoFang, and we stopped and talked.

After that, i had to invite QingLun over myself. I had to call him and stuff. Treat him to a meal also so difficult! MinHui came, but she looked kinda annoyed. Dunno why. We ordered and soon, the last order came first. QingLun's fish came, and YiLeng's salad, then my soup. JiaJin and QingLun started eating first, then YiLeng. MinHui started second last, as for mine... i was the last to eat and last to finish! Mine is a huge plate with some rice, vegetable and with chunky and juicy flesh from the collar of the swordfish. Actually, there were 2 pieces of fried crap, and its the collar, with the hard bone, and chunky flesh that ive to dig out myself. How difficult! I should have ordered something else...

So, everybody was just chatting and waiting for me. I passed them the score, and they started counting mathematically, except for MinHui. I was really curious how it'll sound. I paid the bill and we headed to school. It wasnt expensive, but enough for me to finish the money i got from yesterday's performance. How much? U should know if u read my blog everyday.

On our way back, it started drizzling, then raining little droplets. YiLeng lent me her umbrella, but it served no purpose for me, because i couldnt open it, and its kinda weak. The metals were bending when the wind came... and it was almost inverted. I ran back within the second traffic... and saw this 2 girls crossing the road. They are really experts.

Got back, and found them all tuning and warming up. I printed the piece, and i wrote it in many different parts, thus it allows them to see what other players are playing as well. I got my conductor stand, and rehearsed the piece with them. It started kinda badly, and i was really thrown all the way to the back of the hall. It sounded so much different from what ive expected!

Anyway, they highlighted their parts, and we ran through the score, changing notes, chords and some other notations. They gave me suggestions for notes, tremolos and even technical changes. I loved it, and i allowed them to change, because i think they know the instruments better than me. I dun wish to restrict them from my own very basic kinda playing. However, no matter how, there are challenging things in my piece. As for the LiuQin, its just some running notes, but other than that... its all kinda simple. The Ruan has some hard parts, but mainly just simple counting and entrances, and it plays the role of providing the bass and a thicker texture. As for the YangQin, the hardest part in the entire piece throughout. It plays as the continuo as well as the melodic part in the faster section. Its extremely hard because of the hand crossing. There were hard chords, which stressed her out. I could tell that she was kinda giving up already... because she was spending alot of time finding the notes. Its hard, i can understand, because i wrote it with some context from my own Pipa fingerings. So, it doesnt match exactly, and in fact... its very far apart. She had to cross her hands and run in wierd positions and directions in order to just play a chord, or some running notes which doesnt have a tonal center. I was kinda stressed out too... because there was this part which required some counting. YiLeng said that im influenced by JoshuaChan, a HongKong composer. But well, not really... but somehow to a certain extent probably. However, mine aint as complicated as his, because mine is kinda simple, without much of countering melodies and polyphonic textures.

YiLeng had problems with the notes, and the fast running notes. Honestly, its hard, and it requires some practicing. MinHui had problems counting, and the fast melodic part. As for JiaJin, he was totally fine, sitting there and even volunteered to play the YangQin part!

QingLun came for awhile, but he left after that. Mark too. After going through and eating into Mark's rehearsal time, i went over to the studio to look for him. I rehearsed the piece with him, clarifying some parts and editing some unplayable chords. Mark's piece is written for Sharon, ZhengYi and i. Sharon would be playing the Piccolo and ZhengYi, the Vibraphone. It was fine, its an atonal piece. There wasnt much of a tonal material, and mostly atonal ways of approaching it, but its written with less restrictions. Its kinda in tempo too.

I was sightreading, and i must say that my sightreading skills suck. I read in the clef, always forgetting the key signature. I edited almost all his chords, and i told him to write with the bass clef too. The Pipa is notated in both clefs, and not with just the treble. I hate it when i see a single clef line, because im not used to it. People, remember! Its the Piano type of score that Pipa reads... not the single ones.

DongXiao was rushing me, because i have to perform with them at RafflesHotel. I hurried through the chords, and they left the Ruan outside the studio for me. Sebestian was the one who informed me. They all took the cab and left first. I wanted to leave, but Mark didnt look quite happy. Well, i told him that i will help him, so i stayed. I delayed the rehearsal, and soon... after helping and running through again, i left in a hurry and headed down to school to find a cab.

With the Ruan in hand, i was feeling kinda uncomfortable. Its heavy, and i hate to carry it with my hands. I tried calling for a cab, but none of their lines were working. The line was engaged all the time, so... i just kept flagging... and counting on my luck that one will stop. Eventually, one did. I was kinda happy... and the driver drove me to the hotel.

I passed him my card, and he told me that he dun accept cards. I was like so dead. The Indian man opened my door and asked if theres any problem... and i told him that i dun have enough to pay for the fare. So, the Indian man said that he'll pay for me first. I was so touched, and so happy. I alighted the cab and headed to the hotel. Then, i told him, and i think his name is Rajnan, to wait for me to perform first. I called DongXiao but she didnt pick up my call.

Soon, with the help of my own intuition, i found the place. She told me that its some StamfordRoom. I couldnt find any room! Its StamfordBallroom. The ballroom looked so terrible, its so ugly. I found them at a corner, looking really small, with some really ugly music going on. I took out the Ruan, and wore my Chinese costume and joined in the performance. We performed for the first set, and we headed for dinner. I only played a few chords... im so late.

DongXiao paid me first, so i went to pay Rajnan. Anyway, its only $6.20, but i paid him $7. For the service and kindness, i really appreciated his help, but i cant tip much. They headed to eat, and we bought burgers. Then, we headed back to the ballroom, where we had our free drinks.

After eating, we headed back and continued with our bad music. The performance was accepted by NAFA, and we had to play for merely $85! Its some pathetic money! Come on, the other musicians in school performs for $120 and stuff, and we only have $80 or even $20 that time. My goodness, how fair? How fair? Where is the justice?

I played the Ruan till my fingers were burning. I even had to force myself to solo with the Ruan. ShuMin didnt wanna solo, and i had to keep pushing her to. I accompanied her with the Ruan, and we just played the melody over and over again. I told her to go on... but she continued the melody again and again. Nevermind... anyway, i was scolding DongXiao, telling her to listen and to give cues clearly. Its so horrible! ShuMin didnt wanna play loudly, and QiaoFang and DongXiao were pulling me down. Im the accompaniment, and its actually kinda hard to follow them... because their speed was kinda wavering. As for me, i think im rushing actually. I tried all the chords possible for my fingers to play on the Ruan, and i think it was good. My fingers were almost bleeding... so we ended the performance and we stayed for the buffet. QiaoFang went off first.

We stayed and ate quite alot. I ate chawamushis, dumplings, egg and oysters, some noodles and 2 sticks of barbequed prawns. Well, the food aint as nice as those from PanPacificHotel. Im kinda disappointed with the hotel actually... i meant the one i just performed in. The food was kinda terrible, but being such a hungry ghost, i ate and ate and ate.

Soon, i was so full... i sat there, drinking and waiting for them to change and return. We headed to the taxi stand, which was so filled with foreigners. We went over to another taxi stand instead. After waiting for centuries, there came a cab, and the Indian man wanted to offer it to the Westerners. DongXiao, ShuMin and i couldnt take it anymore, because its so unfair, we ran for the cab and boarded it.

Screw off, Indian man.

We headed to school, and left our instruments there. I went to collect my Pipa, and met them downstairs. ShuMin and DongXiao were laughing like mad, because ShuMin thought that DongXiao was hanging her wrist in the air, and so ShuMin wanted to pat on it. Instead, its actually DongXiao's breast! So, ShuMin accidentally played with DongXiao's breast. Its so funny...

They were laughing like crazy, and ShuMin was about to break down. I left for the bus-stop, and was thinking about what ShuMin told me. Come on, still the same old donkey. Naivety still ruling over the personality of the animal. Its long flushed away already, it has dominated over me for too long. Far too long, and now im elated that it has disappeared from my life. Though some might still run in my blood, im sure enough that it'll not surface to bring me problems with some animal. So, we've patched up? No way. Not even close, just merely talking like hibye friends. Wait! Maybe thats how u term it as friends. But well, not for me. A friend would be people somebody like Christoven or QingLun, even ShuMin and gang. Well, ur far away, even from the dusty old road. I will survive, yes i will. Move it, and move out of my life... ur stepping on my style. By the way, i hope that i dun get the wrong idea. If u do, its fine, i dun bother. But well, im speaking from a very clear tone, not harsh and mean. Im just talking calmly, peacefully... and not implying anything bad, nor having any faults to blame anyone.

I need to compose now for QingLun's sister's birthday party now. Im not paid, but why do i wanna stress myself out? I'll be teaching Pipa tomorrow, and i must make my lessons more worth the time as compared to others. Im not just a Pipa teacher, i wanna preach music! Music is my main motive, not just the Pipa. Moreover, its music that we learn, and expressed only through our instruments. Music is in us! Not our instruments! So, music first, Pipa next. Thats how i view myself too. Music always first.

Alright, i better stop crapping and start cracking my nuts on the compositions. I think im going to do something Western, since she doesnt like Chinese stuff. But then, why call us to play? Stupid... For QingLun. For QingLun.

Everything here was evoked with superb, lapidary precision of life. I shall carve them out in stones... instead of blogging. Well, about the second paragraph, im merely joking! Just checking if u read till the end. Well, the blog will never end, it'll go on till i die. Or... when Blogger does.

A New Start

My stomach is growling. Im home finally, and the performance with LimChooLi is over! Well, there'll be more to come, if she dun mind my horrible playing. I'll touch on that in abit...

Well, after blogging, i headed out to the library with QingLun. He was practicing, and i had to persuade him to go over with me, so that he can do his SAS portfolio. Anyway, when i was there, i took a stack of magazines, which will help him. And he had to buy a cashcard in order to print. Poor him, he dug out $7 from his wallet, and $6 of notes, and many many 5 cents of coins to make up a miserable dollar. The auntie was like... nevermind. So, i took the magazines and got him to start finding some articles. Its so unfair! They only need to do 25 of them. I remembered back then, i was rushing myself like crazy, and spending so much on 50 of those articles! Then, the best thing is highlighting every single one of them. I had to read them all... how pathetic right? I knew it, its never that simple. After i left, and after he had finished printing 20 articles, he realised that its online reviews, and not those from the magazines, that he had to do. So, wasted those money and time. Poor him...

I headed out to help LimChooLi with her Zheng. I was expecting something purple, because that time when i went over to her house, she showed me the attire. But, i was shocked! Today, its a bright red dress, very big, and very Chinese. Well, she looked like she had difficulty walking, well... thats the price of making oneself pretty. There was this guy helping with her Zheng too. After settling down, we got out our instruments and started tuning.

LimChooLi's Zheng has this special designed bag for her legs, i mean the Zheng's legs. Its very nice, and its made by her mother! How interesting! Anyway, we assembled the leg and got the Zheng up. We ran through the piece outside the male changing room. I got myself changed into the white costume that Mom bought for me. Probably the better one that i brought out. I brought the black one, the red one, and the white one. She chose the white one for me, and i think its obviously better than the others... because the others wont match with her Chinese costume.

The rehearsal was fine. We sat around and waited really long for our turn to rehearse on stage. So, we headed for dinner! It was a buffet, and it was good! We ate, then someone told LimChooLi that those people are waiting for us to run through. Just in time, isnt it? They should have allowed us to do it earlier. So, we ran through on stage, which looked kinda small for me. And it felt more comfortable performing on a smaller stage. Im not carved out for big stages. Im not a big person, though relatively so in size. I prefer small chamber like performances, and chamber like ambience for performing. I hate huge crowds and really huge and spacious stage. On stage, it felt different. We ran through, and i forgot some parts. Its inevitable that i'll forget during the real performance, and it did happen!

We sat outside, rehearsing, tuning, talking and laughing. Well, its a farrago of different art troupes, and some different types of Chinese arts. So, there was only one programme which is a traditional Chinese instrumental piece, and thats our piece, 'ChunJiangHuaYueYe'. Some people asked about me and my Pipa. Well, i read the programme booklet, and the resume i sent them was translated into Chinese. Its terribly wrong! I gave them in English, and they did their own translation... and it mentioned that ive learnt Pipa under SamuelWong, YouGuo, LiuYan and ZhangNianBing. Well, the rest are fine, but what about YanYu? They only mentioned about her at the back. I felt so sinful... and moreover, the picture was ugly. LimChooLi told me to go for those professional ones. Well, im just afraid of the charges and stuff. There are so many different charges and stuff. Actually im kinda fine, but after looking and Dedric's one... im kinda confused.

I just spammed QingLun with many online concert reviews, and he asked where i got it from. Well, he is just lazy to search!

Im so stressed now, i need to finish writing out the parts so that i can rehearse with them tomorrow. We'll be meeting at lunch time, at Bugis, and im treating all of them to lunch! Well, good thing that im only writing for 3 instruments. So, its fixed, i'll meet them there. Before that, i'll be having lesson with YanYu, and ive to rush down afterwards. I hope it'll be good tomorrow! Im going to force myself to finish up with the scores later, and i still need to compose for QingLun's sister's birthday. Well, i dun think im sleeping tonight. How nice right? Priorities first... Anyway, im not getting paid for QingLun's performance. So... i shall screw it up!

Im joking, im never evil with my good friend. Im only evil with people like... joking! Im always nice. Smile.

Soon, its our turn. We were talking and talking... then she mentioned about a tribute concert to QiuDaCheng, her Zheng teacher in China, and he was the one who arranged the duet piece for Pipa and Zheng. Well, its the version that everybody's playing. And she asked if i can play for the concert, playing the same piece but with her junior. Well, im not sure... im afraid that i'll screw things up. Im a cursed performer!

On stage, the applause wasnt kinda mad, and i followed LimChooLi's instruction on the bowing. And we started, the starting was kinda nice. I felt very comfortable on stage this time, and more relaxed than usual. U know, ive this stage fright crap, which handicaps my performance on stage. So, with LimChooLi, she guided me and brought me throughout the piece with a calm mind. My heart wasnt beating wildly like my competition last year. Im fine, and the piece was fine. There was one part which i screwed up because i couldnt remember the score. So sorry, and in the middle, they started clapping, i think its because of my wrong signal. I lifted my hands too high, and i think that they thought that its the end.

Anyway, we played through and im kinda happy. Im not sure how she must have felt, being a professional and almost a perfectionist, i think she must have kinda regretted performing with me. We headed out together, and we flagged for a cab for really long. Before leaving, we took a photo together. So, she called a cab, because we cannot manage to flag for one.

In the cab, we were talking about private family stuff, and she was telling me alot about her schools, the things that she do in school... and the children of course. Well, i kinda admire her. Smooth sailer, sail on. So, she just dropped me at my house, and she left home.

While i was bathing, somebody called... and its XiaoHong, WeiFeng's friend! She has a performance for me, and i was told to play the Pipa again. Its for DrKuan, but he's not paying? Its very wierd. So, i insisted that she go ask DrKuan for money. So rich, yet so stingy? Its impossible, or even if its true, its not right! Anyway, i think she called me just now... and i told her that if she pays me, i'll get another friend to play for the gig, and i'll charge lower. Well, who else? My poor friend who doesnt have any gigs, and crying at home, wishing for one. I didnt say that its QingLun, so dun ask me.

LianWei is telling that there is music technology class tomorrow! I told him to pretend that he has never told me anything. He kept typing it... so ive no choice. But well, its so last minute! Im having lesson with YanYu anyway, its not that i wanna skip. What happens if im visiting relatives? So, i think its alright. Its so unorganised and so unofficial anyway. Its strange how the system in NAFA works, LimChooLi is right that the system is kinda screwed up.

Well, ive something to say. From my own view, i think that NAFA isnt helping students, or raising talents. They are using our interest, passion and love for music to earn money. Im not sure, but this is how i feel, honestly. Please do not expel me from school because of this paragraph. Well, i wanna just be honest with my feelings for NAFA. Just think about it... NAFA is always failing students, making them pay and pay and pay. Why pay more? Somehow, instead of failing students, they should do better things... and not sending them back for another year, because it'll be a waste of time. Age is our weapon, and graduating at an older age isnt a good thing at all. The gist is that... is NAFA really helping us? Or using our passion for music to earn more money. Its our loss if we leave anyway, do they even care? Look, they can even kick Daniel out of school. Its just... too strict with rules, but yet their system aint keeping themselves in the rules at all. Come on, we are alive, sometimes they should just close an eye. The rules are dead, and they are for breaking!

Somehow, i feel that its a new beginning for something. Somehow, a new start for me. Ive joined LimChooLi's dunno what organisation, and i was told about their facilities and stuff. Somehow, im sure it'll help. So, we'll be performing together more often i guess?

Hoi Polloi

Believe it or not, im in the computer lab blogging away with stupid QingLun staring into my computer. Well, im with my Pipa nails on, so dun blame me for any typo err.

Last night, i didnt have the time to blog, because i was busy on the phone with QingLun. What were we talking about? Nothing! We were just crapping away... talking about certain politics and also about his relationship problems. And of course, mine too... but, what do i have? Actually, kinda nothning to talk about. We talked till dawn, and its really super tiring... We were on bed, with the phone, talking away till his parents scolded him. Stupid QingLun, really stupid... still staring into my computer. Goodness, he was trying to delete off my entry! We didnt fight, just a few kitty scratches. He is currently trying to book slots for his driving lessons, and trust me... its expensive! Judging from the amount appearing on his screen, its as expensive as normal lessons with ur teachers. I think its more expensive, because it summed up to $600 plus for him.

Well, back to yesterday's events. I woke up kinda late, because im so free! Its the only day that im free, and it felt like heaven. But well, with unfeeling aches all over my body, i was kinda reluctant to go out. However, i promised to go over to DrGoh's house to celebrate CNY, as well as to surprise Alan, Clarence and DrGoh with a birthday party.

I was at home, notating my composition in numerical notations for YiLeng, JiaJin and MinHui. Finally, its confirmed that we'll be practicing on Friday, which is tomorrow, around noon. How exciting? I just cant wait to hear how it'll sound... because the MIDI sounds really different. The real instruments are going to add on with more emotions, and defintely less restricted with the rhythm and time. But, how clean will it sound? Thats another problem...

I bathed, changed and wore something really casual. Then, i found my blue shirt! Remember? The one that resembled something similar to Marie's shirt. Last time, when i wear it, they'll say that Marie and i are a couple. Please! For the sake of humanity, good thing that it stopped. Why? Because i thought that i lost it! Let me tell u where it was. Remember our trip last year to Sentosa? Its our class outing, and we invited several other people as well. Remember? Mark and SiHan got dunked into the pool several times. Now u remember! Well, i kept my wet and dirty boxers and shirts inside this plastic bag. And when i got home, i forgot to wash it! I left it there in a corner for 6 months! 6 freaking months! Can u imagine? The dampness... and all the dirty thing decomposing inside that bag? For 6 months!

So, now Mom washed it, and it doesnt smell. Im glad. I wore it to DrGoh's house! I took bus 22, and it took me an hour plus to get there. Its a direct bus, so im more or less quite safe. My memory was failing me, i thought that im lost. But well, im still kinda good, i remembered where it was. Ive been there a few times, and going there alone aint a problem. Somebody was supposed to go with me, but... nevermind, im used to it. Who? QingLun! He went kite flying...

EeWei opened the door for me, and hell... almost everybody was there already! I sat down, and got myself a few pieces of pizzas. It was good, i loved the food there. Mark came after me, and more people came afterwards. I watched the TV with SiHan, and saw this TV show, that promotes bad taste for dancing. Its like a competition, just that the contestants were all really bad. The better ones were like... barely compatible with those in America. Its kinda sad... and moreover, the judges were exaggerating and disgusting. We saw this really ugly dancers with their uglier dance steps, and the judges shouted and cheered on. Is there an justice in the world?

So, DrGoh came, and he gave many nasty comments which sounded so super funny. Well, after that, we watched the singing of the 'American Idol', which really threw Singapore's idol back to his mud hut. Come on, we really cannot compare to America in every ways, other than being really good with our Singlish and our cannot lose character. Well, we suck, we have to admit. Moreover, there are no talents in Singapore, its a known fact! Creativity? Still trying. Virtuosity? Far from it, dream on Singapore.

I was eating non-stop, because there are so many things to eat. Good food! Then, Jeremiah and gang came. We were playing a really stupid game which started accidentally. DrGoh was getting everybody to try blow out a candle. The candle was on the table, and we're supposed to blow it out. Mark did it 4 times, and Ruth did it twice. Adams was kinda eager to blow it out, but he failed for every try. It was really funny... We sat there watching everybody try it. Then, suddenly... DrGoh said that the Pipa player has to try too. So, i had no choice. I tried... and i... failed. Of course, loser. SiHan was really funny, he was blowing very hard, and he kept on going. It was hilarious. Alan said that he is an ugly wind player, because he looked funny when he blew the candle. Moreover, i think he spat more than he blew. The table was sparkling clean, because everybody spat on it. Its really fun. Then, Clarence said that we've to wash the oranges after playing... because they were on the table, beside the candle.

So, we were all lazing around, giving our souls to the TV. Soon, i left because im afraid that i might not be able to catch the last bus. I got home, and i overslept, the bus was parking already! I woke up, and i hurried to the door, and the Indian bus driver was dropping his jaw.

From there, i walked home, and tried my best to avoid the public. So, i walked home, singing away and thinking about some stapled thoughts. Simply just regurgitating, surging back my thoughts and my anger. I chilled... and released my thoughts down the toiletbowl and flushed it all down.

At night, after trying to blog, and talking to QingLun over the phone, i didnt find enough time for myself. I sent him many of my old compositions, and we discussed it over the phone. It was funny, to hear my old compositions and how i got to learn how to compose. Well, its just a hobby, and of course... nothing to compare with people like my composer schoolmates. But, i think i pursue more of the aesthetic elements in music, rather than bargaining with intellectual materials. So, that led on with other talks... and slowly, from the computer to bed.

I slept late, and i woke up really early today. I hurried to the toilet, and tried waking Rit up. Its horrible! Being some so... responsible from his appearance, he woke up terribly late. I took a cab down to school and got my Pipa. Had breakfast, and i even had to buy Rit his breakfast! I was left with not a single cent. Im poor and really broke. What i did was just trying to bargain with the stall auntie, so that she'll sell me the food at a cheaper price... just 80 cents. Im so pathetic!

Rit overshot, which i cannot understand why. And i had to walk all the way down to the Kopitiam area down the street. Its so far away! I should have just taken a bus down instead of needing to wait for him, and to serve him like a slave. I was furious, and he was still smiling away. So, we took the cab down... and he paid. Well, everybody was there already.

Emmanuel was playing this white Piano, and YanChong and Sarah were standing there... still waiting for the person to set up our seating position and our microphones. I was sitting there, wondering where im going to put my scores. Rit didnt tell me that we've to bring our own! He brought his, and so... YanChong, Rit and i were sharing on music stand, while Sarah sat near to Piano to share her scores with Emmanuel. It was really pathetic. Nothing was organised... and i think that im having second opinions about Rit.

We went to eat, and Emmanuel went to buy a new shirt for us. The lady was saying that we look kinda detached and dun really look good. So, while he went to shop for our clothings, we headed to eat. Rit and i shared a drink, which he paid for, while they ate. Im so broke, and it was arranged that we'll have their buffet after the whole performance. So, i made space for the buffet later... and we headed back for the rehearsal.

It started soon, with the improvised introduction by the Piano, which led to a mess of Chinese instruments and a struggling bass line by the Cello. Well, the whole performance was bad, because its not organised and nothing was planned or played like we've rehearsed. It was bad... really bad. But to them, i bet it sounded good.

Other than the bad entertainment from our poor little instruments, they had this acrobat troupe from HeBei, and they were really cool! From their rehearsals, i thought that they are some kinda cheating acrobats. But well, its real! Its like those on TV! This is the first time, or probably second, i cant remember, watching this kinda acrobatic performances live! I was shocked, and i was dropping my jaw and turning my neck to watch the performance.

By the way, stupid QingLun and i just fought. I was blogging about him staring into my computer, and he wasnt happy... so he tried closing my window! I was so shocked, so i gave him a few slashes. It left a scar there, and i bet he likes it.

Moreover, lets get on, just in case QingLun turns around to see what im typing. Lets get this paragraph up.

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Higher up.

Good, now he wont be able to see a thing. Anyway, lets go on with life. We ended the performance late. I was kinda reluctant, but Emmanuel needed a Pipa player who can improvise to play again next week. Well, after eating the buffet... and i agreed to help him again. But trust me, im really reluctant, in fact... dreadful. I really dun wish to play again, unless its more efficient. The songs that we played were all screwed up, with really abrupt modulation or change of time signatures. I was really... struggling hard to catch my breath and to catch up.

He just turned around, u know who, and im lucky that he didnt see anything. He complained that my typing is irritating. To a certain extent, yes.

I better hurry, because i need to head to National Library for the rehearsal later with LimChooLi. Ive half an hour left. Anyway, i was practicing just now... and found myself kinda more composed, but less emotional than the rehearsals that we had. Intonation wise, im kinda afraid that it might be unstable. It sounded alright that day, but im sure on stage it'll go like crazy. Its fated, im cursed. Im a cursed performer who cannot perform. What else am i of any use?

I took a cab back to school, thanks to Rit who dropped me near NAFA. He headed somewhere else after that. As for me, im thankful that he was willing to fetch me to school, because im really broke, and carrying such a massive instrument. Alright, its not very big. While having buffet before that, we were talking and the ladies were talking about learning Piano, and talking about their experiences with music. Well, its funny to hear them talk... and one of them asked Emmanuel whether he was from ACS. I kept quiet and drank my juice, hoping that she'll not ask any further.

Im now in school, practicing and blogging. QingLun couldnt take my typing skills, and he went outside just a minute ago. Great! A success!

Im heading off now. Hopefully it'll be a good performance tonight! I told LimChooLi that i'll be there to help her carry her things. Anyway, we need to run through again. It has never been once that we've played through without looking at the scores. I hoped that we've memorised well...

Alright, im signing off. I'll be back tonight to blog about the performances and stuff. Have a good evening my friends. I wonder am i performing for musicians, or the general public. I hope its the hoi polloi!

Apogee

Im here to blog, after playing a game with LianWei and his friends. Im tired, and really tired. The things today were kinda depressing, and kinda pissing me off too if i think of it.

I was really tired, and i slept late, so... i woke up late today. I took a cab down to school for Rit's rehearsal. Emmaneul was on the Piano, YanChong playing the ErHu, Sarah on the Cello and of course me and Rit with our instruments. Well, Rit passed me my scores, and i took a look at them, they looked fine to me. So, we're performing for them, or for fun? Im not sure. They kept changing the keys, modulating till theres no tomorrow. Gracious me, i think i'll rather sit there and watch then to participate in the 'fun'. If the key is going to change that much, im wondering how Rit will play it on the Dizi, because its kinda restricted with key changes. Anyway, i was kinda tired after a few pieces which modulated till the 12 keys, well... theres more. Im really bored. I sat there and watched them play till 1 in the afternoon. Rit told me that we might end earlier, but right... it ended later. Its not that, im actually very unhappy with the price of the performance, and moreover... the rehearsal was kinda useless. Cant we just play everything accordingly? Isnt it simpler? Why must u make things so complicated, its merely a $100. Its not that im not adaptable to changes, or im not professional. Anyway, im not. Thats not the point, its simply just not worth it. If the price is any higher, im sure i wont be able to do it too. So, i dun think im fit for the job. Someone else should play. Im not going to play for the other performance with them next Thursday. Moreover, its school day. Ive class to attend.

After rehearsing, i packed my things and took the Pipa with me. I headed to Bugis with Rit and Emmanuel. Then, i headed to KarlHeng, which was closed. I needed some tape, but i figured that LimChooLi should have them since she plays the Zheng! How stupid right? Its not that nice to ask, but well... ive no choice. So, what else did i do? I walked to Cityhall MRT station, where i took the train down to Yishun.

Took bus 804 at the interchange, and surprisingly, i met some people i know. Its Jeremy and Grace! Surprise, surprise! They were surprised too. I tried hiding behind this auntie, who obviously wouldnt cover half my body. And they were laughing, so i went over to say hello. They were heading to Jane's place for visiting. How nice? As for me, i took the bus all the way till its a few stops after this school. I read the message that LimChooLi sent, and i figured that it should be nearby. In the bus, there were several people who looked extremely... friendly. Too friendly. They are Christians from a nearby church, and its very nice of them to ask about my Pipa, and about me. Then, they gave me this card. I have it in my wallet now, im not throwing it away.

Its a long stretch of road, so exposed to the surrounding. There was nothing, and its so empty. Its like a meadow, with a forest just opposite. Sounds nice right? But well, it isnt that pleasing to the eyes, but i loved it. I would like to stay somewhere so quiet one day. LimChooLi opened the door, and YiFan and her friends were there! DiXia was talking so loudly, i actually heard her before i found the right door. They were doing some homework with LimChooLi guiding them. As for me, i headed to her bedroom, where she had her TV on, and her Zheng placed there. I warmed up, and while they were studying outside, we ran through the piece once. She said that she didnt practice, but she doesnt need to! I think i need more practice. Well, both of us were kinda unstable with the accuracy of the score. But well, she's so much better of course. I tried following most of the time. Anyway, after they left, we ran through the piece properly, section by section. By they way, i hope LimChooLi's mother a quick recovery! She is injured, and i hope that LimChooLi will have the strength to take care of her and stuff.

We talked. She told me about her life. Well, i must say that she is a hardworking person, who deserved her smooth sailing days back in China, and in Singapore too. She can write a book. Im not going to say anything here, but well... there are things i can learn from her, but some which may not apply much for me. I enjoyed my time at her place, and i got 2 red packets! Joy of the day. Im going to open them later...

I left her place, and headed down to the bus-stop, then back to the interchange, where i took bus 851 to NAFA. In the bus, terrible things happened! I shant talk about it. If u can guess, ur right.

I left the Pipa in school, and headed down to Cathay. Dedric and gang will meet me there, but surprisingly, someone like ChaiXia who left ZhangRongHui's house later can reach there faster than the 3 of them. They were at her place too. What for? I dunno. But whateva it is, we met up and i was there waiting for so long already. I was watching the fishes, they looked dumb and stupid. They are barely moving! So, i was really bored and tired. A screwed up morning, a tiring afternoon and a boring evening. What else can fulfill my day? Soon, Jasmine arrived too, with her sister.

We all left for PlazaSing, because there wasnt any seats left for the movie at Cathay. I only wanted to watch 'Norbit', thats why. Anyway, at PlazaSing, we were wasting our time too. Its always a waste of time when people like them cannot decide on what they wanna do. TingTing wanted to have fun, but Dedric and QingLun needed to go off. Then, whats the point of coming out? I dun understand. I hate it when people need to rush off somewhere, in the first place, they should have mentioned it, and surely, i wouldnt want to go out with them. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. So, i was kinda bored already... with such bad events for the day, im really kinda bored of it already. I told them to go off, and i just needed to eat.

ChaiXia went off to get the tickets for a later time at Cathay, alone. Then, Jasmine and her sister headed to TheHeerens to shop. I went to eat, but with QingLun and gang. Thanks to them for waiting for me, while i was ordering Carl'sJunior. Dedric treated us to ice-cream, and ChaiXia got back in time for it.

The movie will start around 10 minutes before 10pm. So, we bought some food and headed to a corner which QingLun recommended. Its dirty, and someone dragged some rubbish on the floor before, because theres this dirty wet trail. We found somewhere to sit, and started partying. I ate my burger, and we played games after clearing up. It was fun. Well, imagine, thats the best part of the day. So, how sad can it be?

We headed to the cinema at Cathay after playing, and meeting up with Jasmine and her sister. Before going upstairs, we were all making fun of each other, naming each other as Norbit. Well, we thought that Norbit was the woman's name. Well, its the guy's name! So, im Norbit, i dun mind. As for Jasmine, she is Rasputia. Anyway, after the movie, they still dunno the woman's name! My goodness, how can that be? EddieMurphy did it again. He was the same actor who covered the role of Norbit, Rasputia and even MrWong. Well, its hilarious, but not impressive. Why? Its the same old material! Come on, its time for something new and refreshing! Do something better dude.

I was laughing like mad for some parts, but mostly... just watching and smiling. After that, i headed home. I was in the bus, and called somebody. Well, i was kinda moody, but... nevermind. My earpiece was single sided, i think the left side is faulty or something, it isnt working. Im sad.

Im home, and feeling the weight on my eyelids. I think i need to sleep soon, but... i dun want to. Theres a difference between wanting and needing. So, im fine with both, i control them for myself. For my sake? Not really.

I tried the webcam, and i think i got the right setting already.

My dreams are at the apogee of my reach. I must try really hard to grab them, and most likely, its impossible. The thing i want most is just right infront of me at times, but so close... yet it feels so far away, like a hundred miles away. Its forbidden. There are things that are mine, but i cannot touch. U know how that feels? Something that is urs, but ur not allowed to touch it? Thats very sad. Its like not having it at all. Whats the difference? But, there are things that i touch everyday, but yet... it doesnt belong to me. Thats not worse, but just not as good.

The stranger left for good, walking alone under the streetlamps, thinking... what isit it like? What isit like if he has never walked down that street to notice that bed of roses? Sometimes, a little thing can change fate, and thus... changing everything in life. However, nothing outruns destiny, not even the apogee of my reach.

Turbid

I just accidentally spilled money all over. It was like a spilled drink, flowing from my keyboard all the way to the floor. So many notes, all different colours, and all over the place. I had a hard time cleaning up. Can someone please help me?

Im joking! But, i calculated and i think ive made quite a few hundreds for my red packet collection this year. Kinda sad that it doesnt exceed the amount i used to get. Im disappointed, but kinda happy too. So, why am i so happy? Its because today's the last day for the Conrad performances! ZhiNeng will be doing another day tomorrow, and he wanted to pay me $80 first, then when i said i dun want, he told me he'll pay me $90. But well, i rejected the offer, so he went to find someone else. Im too tired, i want to rest.

I woke up later today, and found my second auntie with his boyfriend in the living room. I was shocked, because i couldnt recognise her! She is Timothy's mother, the one who went for drugs. She lost my bike once, and she said that she'll pay me back. Right, its like so many years ago already. Im kinda disappointed, because if i have the bike, i'll go cycle every night and play. But well, now that its gone, its fate that ive to stay this way. She lost alot of weight. She looked like some bone demoness, and moreover, her voice cracked! I think it might be drugs or something like that. Her boyfriend looked so old, and they dun look very healthy together. We ate together, and after that... Mom fetched me down to ConradHotel, with her and her boyfriend too. They alighted somewhere else after me.

I was late, and ZhiNeng came after i messaged him. We collected our instruments and headed to the lobby to perform. After the first noon set, i told him that i'll be heading down to Bedok. Too bad, he was heading another direction, so i had to take the cab down.

Its sad that my first visiting wasnt any of my relatives. Its QingLun's house! Im his second guest for the day. He came down to fetch me up. I gave his father the oranges, and took a seat. It was kinda comfortable, but not as comfortable as my own home of course. His sister was playing the computer, and he showed me around his house. His room... was... nevermind. In fact, i wouldnt know that its his room if he didnt tell me. I'll think that its his baby brother's. There was Pikachu everywhere! My goodness, how can a grown up kid sleep with so many Pikachus? Moreover, there are more soft toys around. He has this ET toy too... which laid beside his pillows. I was shocked, but its really funny. I just cant put a picture of him sleeping in that room in my mind. He wore red, because its new year i think, and he had this new haircut! Its super him. U'll get what i mean when u see it. I think he should wear a gold chain, probably better with a golden tooth. So, he got me this food, which his mother prepared. Its nice, but not really my kind of taste. Its my first time in my life eating it. And i had my first BaKua in his house! BaKua is pork, if u dunno, not some Chinese music.

His mother scolded him because he was playing the computer while i stood behind him. Entertain the guest! He is such a good host, really. He got me drinks, food, more food and more food. Then, we ate curry too! Its kinda spicy, and not so much of the curry taste too. I ate alot, and im kinda full already. Thanks to him for the Ribena! So, i tried helping him out with his computer's setting so that he can play games with LianWei and i. But, well... i just dunno what to do. At least i tried reading some troubleshooting forums and stuff. He didnt even bother! He just wanna build his rollercoaster and make money.

So, after trying for so long, nothing was done. Just then, a guest came. Its Alvin's family! I was very surprised to see him there. So, Alvin's mother is QingLun's mother's good friend. What a small world! And Alvin's uncle is a Dizi professional in SCO. Alvin who? Alvin, the Pipa player in CSCO.

QingLun brought me down, and i passed him my oranges, because his girlfriend needed them. So, i left for Conrad again. I spent $22 in total for cab fares today. How nice...

I took a seat and tried sleeping. ZhiNeng was either smoking or eating the oranges. We were really so bored, and so tired. He told me some politcal stuff, and talked to me about some other things. After that, we performed for the GoldenPeony, and we skipped the Oscar's cafe! Nobody found out! How lucky! We didnt know, or... did we? Anyway, the salons were fine, and Carol told us that it was her family that we entertained last night. Then, there was this family who gave us $50 in the packets, we were so happy. Last night, Carol's family gave that much too. This guy asked if ZhiNeng was Phillipino, and ZhiNeng was kinda pissed off. But true, he has this mixed blood look, we cant deny that...

I met Michelle's boss again. Michelle is the technician in the National Dental Centre, under DrKuan, who is LeeKuanYew's dunno what. So, DrKuan recognises me! He asked me yesterday, and i thought the its the Pipa Michelle, but im wrong! I cant really remember who he is, but he looked so familiar, and his accent kinda ring a bell in my head. So, its him! He booked a private table in GoldenPeony, and he asked if im free on March to perform again for him. Well, im not sure about that. I told him that im free, but im not sure... DrKuan, somebody to remember.

Anyway, after performing, i left with my Pipa. ZhiNeng left his YangQin there because he has to play again. As for me, i went on and headed to the lobby to wait for my uncle. He has a bad sense of direction, and i dun have to repeat that again. He cant find the lobby of the hotel, and its very simple! I was trying to communicate with him on the phone, then i saw him ouside on the main road, still going straight, because he doesnt look! And how can somebody's sense be that bad? How? Tell me! The road was there, which points to the lobby of the hotel, and he doesnt realise. How stupid right? I was really furious.

I just got home, and im tired. Tomorrow, there'll be a rehearsal in the morning for Rit's gig, and then in the afternoon, i might head to LimChooLi's house for rehearsal. Then after that, in the evening, i'll meet up with ChaiXia, and dunno who, or nobody, to watch 'Norbit'. I cant wait! Then, i'll watch the other movies, like 'The Ghostride' or '300' with SiHan and Christoven, who are more into such movies. Im into almost everything! I just hate action movies with guns and bombs. Other than that, im fine.

I dunno what to do now. Last night, LianWei and QingLun called my phone to conference. We were trying to figure how to help QingLun with his computer. Anyway, before that, i was thinking of calling QingLun, but i hesitated, just then... he called and was telling me that he's very bored. Same here! Well, such fate.

Im tired. Really, just like yesterday. I cant see tomorrow, and i think its kinda turbid.

Narcoleptic

Im really full, again. I just finished a huge pot of food. I feel so bloated that i think im floating now.

I woke up kinda late today, and had lunch with Mom and family. After that, i packed my things and headed downstairs. Mom was embarrassing me by telling others about my embarrassing habits. I wanted to scold her, but i gave face and just left the house quickly. I hate it, but why does she always wanna embarrass me? I know, its almost like why i wanna embarrass others. Its fun, isnt it?

At ConradHotel, i sat there and waited for ZhiNeng. I was finding our instruments, because they shifted it to somewhere else. Not very far away, its just another salon. I got myself changed, and ZhiNeng came to move his YangQin down to the lobby. The first performance was at the lobby today, and the whole schedule will be totally similar to tomorrow's. U know what? Im very happy that tomorrow will be the last day. To think of it, this whole week will pass very quickly. There aint time for play and stuff. On Tuesday, i'll be rehearsing with Rit for the performance on Thursday, and i'll need to rehearse with LimChooLi too for the performance at night on the same day! How stressful!

We started off well, and headed to GoldenPeony for the performance, was well as the Oscar's cafe. I was so tired already, and i was sneezing away. I wasnt feeling well, because i didnt wash my hair! I hate it when i dun wash my hair. It feels wierd, and it'll be oily and stuff. I felt really terrible. We ended for the noon set, and will have to wait for 4 hours before the night performance. What did i do? Ive arranged yesterday with Christoven, so i met up with him ar MarinaSquare to watch a movie.

I walked over from the hotel, and somehow, it felt so far. I was tired, and i felt very terrible, thanks to Mom who didnt allow me to bath. Come on, its just some really supersticious crap. I dunno why, but people do believe in such things. As for me, im very flexible with it. I'll give and take on most cases, and if its possible, i'll rather not 'harm' myself than to believe such things.

Christoven was slightly late, so i headed to PanPancificHotel to rest first. I met him at the cinema, and was excited about 'Epic Movie' more than others. Well, ive watched the trailer before, and i think its kinda nice. So, we bought the tickets and headed somewhere for a drink.

There wasnt a single shop opened, other than really normal shops like Giordano and other similar brands. In the end, we ate at KFC. I was quite reluctant, because i wasnt feeling quite well, and KFC would make me sick. So, i didnt eat much, i ordered a huge coleslaw for myself. As for Christoven, i ate a burger and i talked to him about my gig and stuff. Well, the more i think of it, i feel cheated for the gig. The money is not worth my time, but since there is something, i think it'll be fine to just waste my time for money in exchange.

Before heading into the cinema, we bought some food. In the cinema, we were thrilled by other trailers. MrBean is back! Can u believe it? But well, his tricks are just kinda too limited at times. Its the variation that refreshes our mind with how stupid and pitiful MrBean can be.

The movie was fine, though not as funny as ive hoped for. Its a mixed of all the movies, and its really stupid at certain parts. I found it hilarious, and those people in the cinema were laughing like crazy! Christoven and i laughed at parts, but found it kinda boring. Its too simple, and its not as well mixed into a whole movie like 'Scary Movie'. So, what was good was the silliness of the jokes and the acting. Other than that, its just an average stupid movie. We should have watched 'Norbit' instead. Im planning to catch another better movie tomorrow. Its either alone, or with company.

After the movie, we were kinda lost. Christoven was complaining to me about NAFA. He said that he went to school earlier with his Viola, only to find the security guard preventing him from entering. The guard said that nobody is allowed to enter school today. Christoven didnt believe, so he messaged Adams, but to his surprise, Adams doesnt even know about it! Adams said that its fine for students to practice today. But what is the guard doing then? Im not sure whether Christoven headed to school after that, but we sat around in the opens and then i laid there to sleep. He went off to meet his friend, while pursuading me to go with him. I was really tired, i didnt wanna go. I was like a mule, and i laid there without moving.

Soon, droplets fell on my face. I woke up to find that its slightly drizzling. I quickly took my things and headed to the hotel. After getting back, i felt sick and found myself a sofa outside the salons, and took a rest. After sleeping, suddenly ZhiNeng came. He sat beside me, and we talked. It was fun talking to him, not as what ive expected. He is kinda nice afterall. He accidentally tripped the alarm at the staircase, and it was ringing like crazy. In the hotel, it sounded like a crowd cheering in a soccer match. The alarm kept going, but nobody attended to it. It either sounded like white noise, or its not outstanding enough. What happens if something really happens? Lets say fire, or an accident. Who will attend to it? Nobody.

The performance started at the lobby again. We were all tired and kinda bored. After performing at various places, finally... after 2 hours or so, our final performance took place in the salon, with only 1 family today. Its Carol's family! Remember who is Carol? I mentioned her quite a number of times already. So, the family members were late, we had to wait outside for them to gather before performing.

We played, and they kept choosing songs. We tried our best, but they wanted to hear really ugly songs. We were kinda disgusted, but we smiled and played. The uncle gave me $10 and wanted us to continue, but we left. So funny right? He wasted his $10! But well, who will wanna play for $10? I wouldnt! And ZhiNeng wouldnt too.

We packed up, and i waited for Mom, while he headed to the toilet to shit. Then i got him his carpark complimentary tickets and he headed home. Well, had fun with him, and i hope that tomorrow will pass like how time have passed since a long time ago. I stare into the mirror, and realised how i am. What a state im in. I need to get myself out of my predicament. Its not doing my any good, though its actually fine. It wont affect me much, but to a certain extent, i need to depend on it for myself.

Im sad. I called Rit, and checked the timing for the performance this coming Thursday. Im lucky that it doesnt clash with the performance at night. I sat around... and listened to my music.

Yes! How can i forget? Before we performed at GoldenPeony, we met JenniferTham! She was with her husband, and she asked me whether im performing. Well, its kinda embarrassing, but it started off well. She sat on my left, not facing me, but she turned around during our performance. Our eyes crossed, and she smiled and gave me a funny face. I gave it back, and smiled. At the second performance, she was still there! And she was with her family i think. There was this lady, who has her kind of hair, and they all looked kinda alike, so i guessed it should be her family. They celebrated somebody's birthday too, and they started singing after the cake arrives. ZhiNeng and i were deciding whether to play them a birthday song or not, then... with some hesitation, we headed on for the birthday song. They were very happy, and Jennifer turned around and thanked us. ZhiNeng doesnt like JenniferTham, but its for some personal reasons, so i dun wanna talk about it. By the way, he sang Soprano part during his time in NAFA. Can u believe it? Anyway, the whole family was kinda thankful, and they cheered and clapped for us. On their way out, Jennifer walked past me and gave me that look again and thanked me. Her family was very nice. Had a great time there, at least we were appreciated which gives us a purpose to be there to entertain. The workers were glad that we played the piece too, Carol was thanking us too.

Great, i hope that tomorrow will be a better day. Firstly, im sure i wont feel sick tomorrow. Im going bath tomorrow morning before heading out. At night, ive to go home myself. Kinda sad right? Anyway, i'll be teaching Pipa this coming Saturday at Katong area. TonyAng recommended me to his student's sister. Well, she's a beginner, and i might need her to get quite a few things before we start lesson. My charges aint quite high, but its expensive, so i hope that she'll be nice and practice hard! I think i can teach better than i can play. Moreover, the results have shown.

Im tired.