Thanks Joanna for the initiative, but i guess i was misleading. My purpose aint to collect debts, but just to highlight the fact that im always a free ATM for others. Anyway, i'll like to thank u for considering to take action. I had already informed David to kindly remind Koen about it, and i passed him my account number. I think he'll transfer the loan as soon as possible.
Another money issue would be the pay. If u dun get it, go back and try to accent on different words. Its a play with the emphasis of words. Back to the topic, recently i played for a gig at JubileeHall. Well, it was fun. But, collecting the pay wasnt. Lets look into it.
U see, Rit, SiHan and i clinched the deal somehow without knowing that we're all going to be performing together. Or to be technically correct, suffer would be more precise. We were not informed that we'll be underpaid. Usually, a gig that pays $100 for a performance would sound good. From now on, i believe that theres always a cache. For me, i had played for so many gigs and performances, paying on time was their virtue which encouraged me to play on. This organiser, MrQiu, also the arranger and performer for the gig arranged 2 rehearsals. On top of that, we spent more than 8 hours for the punie $100. What a waste of time! I would rather pay him to get us off the hook. Well, it was XianYang who approached me. He is a fine man, so i promised to play for the gig. Its not him to blame, but myself for not asking for specific details such as rehearsals and what type of gig. It shocked me that im playing for another of those accompaniment gig, which would usually leave behind an ordeal so huge that i'll vomit wheneva i hear oldies.
According to XianYang, MrQiu complained that we played badly for his gig. According to me, i think we played bloody good, except for SiHan of course. Im joking. SiHan tried his best to read the scores already, though he couldnt figure out numerical notation and has no ability to improvise to ear. On the final rehearsal, he did his best to follow the superstar singers and also to improvise at parts. I think it was great for our maiden, because he dun usually play for such gigs. As for me, im used to it, and i detest it. Its good news to hear that XianYang has recieved the cheque from MrQiu. Good lord!
If u were in my shoes, what would u do if somebody refuses to pay up after the performance? U have to expect the unexpected. At times, when people get nasty, u have to be nastier. I really do hope that it will never happen to me.
Wanna know something funny? When i opened the programme booklet for the gig, i noticed that the gig stretches for 4 days. Im thrilled that we're only playing for one! But u know what caught my eye? YanYu played for one of the days! I laughed...
During our lesson, she asked me if i played for the gig... and we both laughed. Its kinda awkward and embarrassing, but im glad that we dun have that barrier between us to feel ashamed of. Its funny! I love her! Anyway, i need to get her a gift for Teacher'sDay. In fact, im already late! What a goof right? So, being a full time mother now, what do u suppose i get for her?
Guess what? I finished reading my book! Im heading on the new books i bought at Kinokuniya. Im not sure about the usual prices of books. For CDs, they should cost around $14 to $16 for originals. As for my usual CD hunting, i'll be able to get CDs from $6 to $12. Originals, and not those China imports! Where? I told u guys before, but if u wanna know, its at ShawTower. However, when it comes to books, im still kinda fresh. I spent around $100 plus on my books already. The 2 i bought from Kinokuniya were cheaper, they cost about $40 in total. I dun like second hand books, they're different from CDs. And moreover, as i mentioned before, i prefer to collect them and own them. It makes the reading different too. U'll know when u start reading.
I cant wait to start reading my new book.
Today, i was in a rush. I had to print and hand in my arrangement of a folk song. I think im going to fail, because it is too complicated. Theres nothing i can do about it, and nothing i wanna do about it. Why? Because im tired. Moreover, i have other things to be busy with. I cooked up a few thousand words for my critical reflection, which is due tomorrow for submission. Anybody would be so kind to help me print my assignment? I dare not ask to trouble... because they might be unwilling but yet uncomfortable to reject, because they'll need to create a lie or an excuse. Why? Just tell it in the face, honesty is the best policy isnt it?
No. Being too honest at times will bring to us a whole lot of trouble. U wouldnt want to go around criticising everybody would u? In ur mind, ur constantly judging people, things and words. Therefore, lying at times create a comfort zone between u and ur friends. What kinda lies? There is the white lie, beneficial lie, malicious lie and the deceptive lie.
Imagine going around saying things like...
Hello Maria! U look awful! Why dun u wear a bra to support those saggy breasts? Hello Adam! Why dun u see a dermatologist about all those ugly pimples on ur face? Ur a lousy dresser, and why dun u trim ur nose hair?
U'll be dead. Well, some of u might be laughing now. But, we do lie at times to either gain from it, or to prevent a loss. Im not going to lecture u guys about the lies, though i think some might be very interested about it. Well, if u are, u can approach me personally to talk about it. But what im driving at today is about the deceptive lie.
In fact, within this genre of lying, it has a few categories. Herein the deceptive lie, lies 2 more columns. One is which falsifies and the other, conceal. In other words, falsification and concealment. In falsification, one twists and turns facts for a purpose. They may not want to lose something, so they falsify and lie. Or, they may want to gain something, so they create a story full of deceit. However, some are white lies which are a form of social fabric. Whereas one lies for an advantage of themselves, on top of that, it is deceitful or harmful, it would be considered a deceptive lie. In concealment, one hides the truth. By hiding and not being honest enough to reveal the truth, its a concealment, thus a form of a deceptive lie.
There are people who are out there, who are so trained to lie blatantly. Ive heard enough of their excuses or their original stories. All i wanna say is, relax. Just tell it to my face, i can handle it if ur dun feel in any way, guilty.
For everyone out there, if u feel that the whole world is lying to u, u need to examine ur own behaviour and attitude first. The other person is only half of the equation. Why do they lie to u? Its probably that ur a habitual liar, thats why u might think that everybody is like that. Secondly, its probably that they are compelled to lie because they can see how emotionally or aggressive u react to the truth. If ur easily offended, its wise for u to be reflective and calm. Imagine this, if u demand the children to tell u the truth then u punish them, u teach them to lie to u for their own protection. I believe we've all gone through this stage before. In fact, its the parents that taught their child how to lie, by first lying. Therefore, if u want to hear the truth, u must learn to accept it calmly. Be reflective, but not emotionally aggressive about it. And remember, dun affect others with ur emotional downpours, because this will force them to distort the truth to pander to ur negative reaction.
I hope ive answered some of ur questions deep inside. Before u sleep tonight, reflect about it. Have u felt hurt from things people say? Its probably they're speaking the truth. To be honest, sometimes the truth cuts deep. However, if ur always hearing sweet and honey, its time to consider what ive said earlier.
Rest well and continue to enjoy good things.
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
Be Liable
Im sure many of u felt this way before.
Its like moving ur household goods, getting into a new apartment and u just dunno where to begin! So, u unpack ur furniture, without the knowledge of the measurements, u move them and try to place them accordingly as before. Despite the effort, it'll never work this way ever again. U breakdown, because u feel frustrated for not having work done and u just dunno who to turn to. Dun u just wanna move back home?
Well, thats the chagrin im feeling now. Theres not much choice, i have to swallow that bitter pill sooner or later, why not lets just make it now. Im so grateful for LuHeng's help with my new Finale07. He made me a copy, and i felt kinda worried because im afraid i was adding errands into his bursting list of work to do. He seems so busy, u know what im saying? Anyway, i installed the programme an hour ago.
An hour ago, i tried creating a score. A few minutes ago, i was still trying to create a score. Now, i have not created a score, but i closed the programme. A very productive hour, i know.
Sometimes, u lay perfect plan mentally, but in reality there are just so many unexpected blockades. Whispering to myself a comfort, i just cannot believe how technology has replaced most of chore. Moreover, it has raised the demands and check marks of society. I look at my new pet, i cannot bring myself to smile at it. I think it is less cute than anything ive seen. Well, i think time will fill the gap between us.
Theres nothing that interests me now except for books. I love reading enriching studies. Its the creative writing, and way of approach which creates the spark in me. When i flip the pages, i'll usually look out for diagrams, columns, headings and subpoints. I like writings which differ from the boring essays, which the style of writing and categorising is so overused. I want something more tasty, which builds the hunger in me to eat the words up. Ive read bland writings, and it barely triggered any of my senses. I'll apply oneself usually only if the book has an addictive smell to it. Or else, it'll never bring to me hit the books. Im not being literal here, but the style and format which the author cleverly uses makes a huge difference in my preferences, as it depends much on how the writing articulates to the readers. The format is like an additive to writing styles. Its the overall punctuation in reading i guess.
Im so eager to start reading my new books. Ive placed them beside my bed, along with the other books ive read. Many people do wish to borrow my books, but there are reasons why i dun wish to lend it out. Firstly, it applies not only to my books, it stretches from my CDs to money. Why? If u were asked to lend something most precious to u, would u? Should i be asked, i'll be happy to lend, trusting that it'll be returned. Entrusting somebody with something is a huge placement of faith. I would hope that they, those who borrowed, to treat whateva it is with respect and great care, thus returning it back to me, on a promised date, in one piece. U see, i do appreciate those who'll promise a date. Back in Australia, Koen, from NanyangPoly, borrowed $34 from me. He did promise me that he'll return me in cash when we're back in Singapore. Well, ive been back for a few months. Im not claiming that hes not planning to return. But with that trust, i think its a priviledge, and not an entitlement, that im willing to loan. Therefore, please be initiative and return me my money. Jonathan, who borrowed money from me back then, lost totally all trust or even worthiness. Some may already have been told about the incident. Well, i did ask him back for my money, but look, theres a difference. I told him, if he wants to pay me back, he'll pay me exactly on a specified date, without his abundant excuses. On that day, he failed to bring my money, so i told him, its either he pays up by borrowing from someone else, or he can just forget about paying me back. Spot that? Im fine with him not returning! The gist about loaning aint about the material, its about the trust. But, it has been abused over and over again. Terms of friendship or relationship does not apply. Jonathan and i used to be friends. Ive overestimated his character. Now, he is a schoolmate of mine in NAFA.
That is the first case study. So what if ur my best friend? If uve earned enough of my trust through tough times, im sure to consider about lending things. But, ive promised myself, an oath, to be strict with my own principles. No more bending of rules here. I should stick closely with what ive preached, therefore, it leads to my second reason.
Secondly, im a goldfish. Im forgetful, people who remembers took good use of the chance to plunder from me. Theif, if ur one of them, dun feel guilty, because i dun even know who u are. If u were to admit to me, i wont say that i'll not be angry. But at least, theres a higher chance of forgiveness. Come on, i'll be honest, those who say that they wont flare up would usually ablaze after realising the truth. Uve heard enough of those lies when u were young, havent u? I did.
Thirdly, i spend because i pamper myself with things that i love. Previously, i was a CD addict. Now, books. My love for recordings and buying them makes me proud of owning a huge collection of CDs. U see, thats why i dun borrow those books from the library. Well, i could! Why not? However, the feel of owning them is different. Borrowing makes one feel indebted. Its either to be obligated to repay a monetary loan, or tied down with terms and conditions which would have to be fulfilled eventually. I never liked having something which is not totally mine. In fact, ask urself, what is totally urs? Well, we're children of our parents, therefore, many things were bought with their money. But, consider it this way, something which u bought with ur own money which u earned through ur own very effort. Dun be such a pain in the ass to find loopholes here.
Alright, lets cut the chase, i havent touched out the main reason yet. I had people coming up to me to borrow my CDs, and some even wanted the whole collection to burn or rip. Its because im a friend, i'll feel bad rejecting, therefore i procrastinate. By deferring, im hoping for forgetfulness to settle in. People are apt to forget, after a period of time, certain things that does not matter much to them. Though they may claim that its important to them in any way, its actually not. Im betraying myself when i lend out these precious things. When people ask for my DVDs, im more than willing to display them on a table and sell them illegally. But when it comes to other things, lets be honest here, im really not willing.
I know, u may think that im selfish. Look at it this way, its very hard for u to ask for ur teacher to lend u their own personal instrument. Its possible, because YanYu lent me her's during my competition. The key point is, even though how close we may be, my trust for everybody has been abused over and over. Its useless to convince me, because im fixed in my mind. Nobody will ever take care of anything that doesnt belong to them. They dun even take care of their own belongings! When its damaged, they have nobody else to blame, therefore its alright. But, when it comes to somebody else's property, how are u going to pay for the damages? Some damages are just minor, but its the trust thats mostly bruised, not the ego. And if u were to compensate in terms of cash, as a friend, who would accept that? Its not nice.
Therefore, to avoid all sort of scenarios, its best not to borrow anything from ur friends, unless ur very certain that u'll be able to return it immediately or on a given date. Be responsible, not untrustworthy.
LimChooLi wants my Finale07. Im impressed that shes rather updated. She told me about this tabletPC. Alright! I might be a cave turtle when it comes to IT, i think its good to know such things, but not a necessity. It'll be a workload off the shoulder if i were to know such technology, its no wonder people like Rit and Moses attends IT fairs. Well, we chatted, and exchanged stories. I'll get someone, not LuHeng, because i'll feel heavy with guilt, to help me create another copy so that LimChooLi can have one copy too. In the end, everybody is happy.
Im not! Im still stuck with Finale07, its like so depressing, because all of skills with Noteworthy has been wasted, and i studied Sibelius3 at school. Now, they're using Sibelius4 already. How sad! Its impossible to catch up with the ever going technology. The advances in fashion and such industries are just progressing too rapidly. Everyday, theres a difference from the day before. We wake up to find ourselves in a new world.
Its a sad tomorrow. As i delay, im lagging behind day by day. So, if i dun sleep, i'll be behind time for 2 days, because i'll require a day rest, plus another 6 to 8 hours which i skipped. No wonder Beethoven went deaf.
Its like moving ur household goods, getting into a new apartment and u just dunno where to begin! So, u unpack ur furniture, without the knowledge of the measurements, u move them and try to place them accordingly as before. Despite the effort, it'll never work this way ever again. U breakdown, because u feel frustrated for not having work done and u just dunno who to turn to. Dun u just wanna move back home?
Well, thats the chagrin im feeling now. Theres not much choice, i have to swallow that bitter pill sooner or later, why not lets just make it now. Im so grateful for LuHeng's help with my new Finale07. He made me a copy, and i felt kinda worried because im afraid i was adding errands into his bursting list of work to do. He seems so busy, u know what im saying? Anyway, i installed the programme an hour ago.
An hour ago, i tried creating a score. A few minutes ago, i was still trying to create a score. Now, i have not created a score, but i closed the programme. A very productive hour, i know.
Sometimes, u lay perfect plan mentally, but in reality there are just so many unexpected blockades. Whispering to myself a comfort, i just cannot believe how technology has replaced most of chore. Moreover, it has raised the demands and check marks of society. I look at my new pet, i cannot bring myself to smile at it. I think it is less cute than anything ive seen. Well, i think time will fill the gap between us.
Theres nothing that interests me now except for books. I love reading enriching studies. Its the creative writing, and way of approach which creates the spark in me. When i flip the pages, i'll usually look out for diagrams, columns, headings and subpoints. I like writings which differ from the boring essays, which the style of writing and categorising is so overused. I want something more tasty, which builds the hunger in me to eat the words up. Ive read bland writings, and it barely triggered any of my senses. I'll apply oneself usually only if the book has an addictive smell to it. Or else, it'll never bring to me hit the books. Im not being literal here, but the style and format which the author cleverly uses makes a huge difference in my preferences, as it depends much on how the writing articulates to the readers. The format is like an additive to writing styles. Its the overall punctuation in reading i guess.
Im so eager to start reading my new books. Ive placed them beside my bed, along with the other books ive read. Many people do wish to borrow my books, but there are reasons why i dun wish to lend it out. Firstly, it applies not only to my books, it stretches from my CDs to money. Why? If u were asked to lend something most precious to u, would u? Should i be asked, i'll be happy to lend, trusting that it'll be returned. Entrusting somebody with something is a huge placement of faith. I would hope that they, those who borrowed, to treat whateva it is with respect and great care, thus returning it back to me, on a promised date, in one piece. U see, i do appreciate those who'll promise a date. Back in Australia, Koen, from NanyangPoly, borrowed $34 from me. He did promise me that he'll return me in cash when we're back in Singapore. Well, ive been back for a few months. Im not claiming that hes not planning to return. But with that trust, i think its a priviledge, and not an entitlement, that im willing to loan. Therefore, please be initiative and return me my money. Jonathan, who borrowed money from me back then, lost totally all trust or even worthiness. Some may already have been told about the incident. Well, i did ask him back for my money, but look, theres a difference. I told him, if he wants to pay me back, he'll pay me exactly on a specified date, without his abundant excuses. On that day, he failed to bring my money, so i told him, its either he pays up by borrowing from someone else, or he can just forget about paying me back. Spot that? Im fine with him not returning! The gist about loaning aint about the material, its about the trust. But, it has been abused over and over again. Terms of friendship or relationship does not apply. Jonathan and i used to be friends. Ive overestimated his character. Now, he is a schoolmate of mine in NAFA.
That is the first case study. So what if ur my best friend? If uve earned enough of my trust through tough times, im sure to consider about lending things. But, ive promised myself, an oath, to be strict with my own principles. No more bending of rules here. I should stick closely with what ive preached, therefore, it leads to my second reason.
Secondly, im a goldfish. Im forgetful, people who remembers took good use of the chance to plunder from me. Theif, if ur one of them, dun feel guilty, because i dun even know who u are. If u were to admit to me, i wont say that i'll not be angry. But at least, theres a higher chance of forgiveness. Come on, i'll be honest, those who say that they wont flare up would usually ablaze after realising the truth. Uve heard enough of those lies when u were young, havent u? I did.
Thirdly, i spend because i pamper myself with things that i love. Previously, i was a CD addict. Now, books. My love for recordings and buying them makes me proud of owning a huge collection of CDs. U see, thats why i dun borrow those books from the library. Well, i could! Why not? However, the feel of owning them is different. Borrowing makes one feel indebted. Its either to be obligated to repay a monetary loan, or tied down with terms and conditions which would have to be fulfilled eventually. I never liked having something which is not totally mine. In fact, ask urself, what is totally urs? Well, we're children of our parents, therefore, many things were bought with their money. But, consider it this way, something which u bought with ur own money which u earned through ur own very effort. Dun be such a pain in the ass to find loopholes here.
Alright, lets cut the chase, i havent touched out the main reason yet. I had people coming up to me to borrow my CDs, and some even wanted the whole collection to burn or rip. Its because im a friend, i'll feel bad rejecting, therefore i procrastinate. By deferring, im hoping for forgetfulness to settle in. People are apt to forget, after a period of time, certain things that does not matter much to them. Though they may claim that its important to them in any way, its actually not. Im betraying myself when i lend out these precious things. When people ask for my DVDs, im more than willing to display them on a table and sell them illegally. But when it comes to other things, lets be honest here, im really not willing.
I know, u may think that im selfish. Look at it this way, its very hard for u to ask for ur teacher to lend u their own personal instrument. Its possible, because YanYu lent me her's during my competition. The key point is, even though how close we may be, my trust for everybody has been abused over and over. Its useless to convince me, because im fixed in my mind. Nobody will ever take care of anything that doesnt belong to them. They dun even take care of their own belongings! When its damaged, they have nobody else to blame, therefore its alright. But, when it comes to somebody else's property, how are u going to pay for the damages? Some damages are just minor, but its the trust thats mostly bruised, not the ego. And if u were to compensate in terms of cash, as a friend, who would accept that? Its not nice.
Therefore, to avoid all sort of scenarios, its best not to borrow anything from ur friends, unless ur very certain that u'll be able to return it immediately or on a given date. Be responsible, not untrustworthy.
LimChooLi wants my Finale07. Im impressed that shes rather updated. She told me about this tabletPC. Alright! I might be a cave turtle when it comes to IT, i think its good to know such things, but not a necessity. It'll be a workload off the shoulder if i were to know such technology, its no wonder people like Rit and Moses attends IT fairs. Well, we chatted, and exchanged stories. I'll get someone, not LuHeng, because i'll feel heavy with guilt, to help me create another copy so that LimChooLi can have one copy too. In the end, everybody is happy.
Im not! Im still stuck with Finale07, its like so depressing, because all of skills with Noteworthy has been wasted, and i studied Sibelius3 at school. Now, they're using Sibelius4 already. How sad! Its impossible to catch up with the ever going technology. The advances in fashion and such industries are just progressing too rapidly. Everyday, theres a difference from the day before. We wake up to find ourselves in a new world.
Its a sad tomorrow. As i delay, im lagging behind day by day. So, if i dun sleep, i'll be behind time for 2 days, because i'll require a day rest, plus another 6 to 8 hours which i skipped. No wonder Beethoven went deaf.
Monday, September 03, 2007
Houg It
I'd goofed.
I had procrastinated, until an opportunity was lost, or till i fail a module. Purely fiction here. Reality bites hard, and ive flaunt my scars, vulnerable, to my enemies. Thus, once bitten, twice shy. However, i have openly whipped a wounded body, hoping that by sacrificing one, many will learn his valuable lesson as their own. Unfortunately, we're all still human.
Its sad, dun u think so? We learn to dodge, but yet, nobody teaches anybody not to catapult.
Lets drop it. I wanna share with u some crazy moments i had yesterday, with a clique of loons. I met SiHan and YongRui at school. I managed to persuade them to follow me to SimLim. There, i bought a blank rewrittable DVD, so that LuHeng will send me Finale07. I'll like to take the chance to thank LuHeng for being always so generous, putting others before himself. Christoven and Mark came to meet us later, while SiHan was hunting around for his earpiece.
We took a bus over to Audrey's place. Somebody claimed that he would bring us there. Im still wondering, who? We overshot a stop, thus we walked all the way over. It was Martin's farewell party. I heard his parents threw in big effort to prepare for this occasion. U see, he'll be having the priviledge to leave the balding field for a fallow farmland. He'll by flying over to America for his further studies in Violin. Lucky boy, he had a bunch of jealous cattles over to celebrate for his liberty. We, being the cattles, went over to wish him luck, enjoy the BBQ and have fun with Audrey and his family. It was crowded! If u were there, well if not, then use some imagination, u'll probably think its a class gathering.
It was noisy, the food was great and her family never fails to tickle me. Its really funny there. If i were to take my family photo, it'll all be grey, dull and most probably many would be frowning. Well, the contrast is huge. We played games, and what other games would i suggest? I bet, if uve played my games before, u'll most probably had played it all already.
We stayed till late. I took a cab with SiHan and Christoven. I alighted on the way to Christoven's place, and took a bus home. Recently, ive been spending my time wisely. They say, when a person lies, his nose will swell. Its scientific, and probably thats why CarloCollodi's Pinocchio had so much fun lying. For ur information, Jonathan has a big nose, thus its undoubtly proven that he is a born liar! Im so logical!
Im joking. Or maybe im not. But, that doesnt interest u. So therefore, lets get on. As u may be aware, from my previous post, im currently addicted to the smell of books. Somehow, they smell of dung. DrTan once shared with us her liking for books, its partly due to its smell. She called it aesthetic. For others, its merely recycled dung. As for others with fetish for books, i shant touch on that. By the way, ive washed myself clean from the urge of CDs like quitting cigars. However, the price is heavy. Why? Because books are somehow more expensive. It doesnt matter, it'll take me a longer time to finish reading them too anyway.
For frequent readers, probably this wont mean a thing. But, for me, i managed to complete an entire book within a day! No, its not a cooking recipe, and it takes more than a day to scan through all those pretty pictures. Its actually a book on talking language, such as metalanguage and communcation skills. Well, i know them theoratically, but ive not developed those skills into practical use. No conclusions. Period.
A few hours ago, i went shopping with SiHan and Christoven. I was telling them about what ive read, and sharing with them what ive learnt. It'll be awkward if SiHan has no arguments or disagreements over anything. Im not thrilled to counter every irritating possibility he has. He bought his brother a birthday gift, while i pampered myself with 2 more new books. These books are in line, till im done with my write language. Therein, lies the secrets to the power of persuasion. It reminded me of Saruman's magic, which lies deep in his voice. He has the power with words and he sounded most convincing to any ears. As the incarnate of the lost soul of Saruman, i shall inherit his mastery over the power of persuasion!
Slap me, if im too carried away. The other book has much similarity with AllanPease's books on communication. Its by RobertBolton, and im so sorry... the book of persuasion has not been bought yet. I remembered, because i had promised myself to get it only after ive finished with both of my new books. So, by correcting my error, the other book would be by HenryRussel, its about etiquette.
It was raining heavily after choir this afternoon. Its irritating, because i wore slippers. I had lunch with QingLun, and he was patient to follow me to the bank. I went to deposit my cash, which i failed to do so yesterday, due to the condition of my money. The queue was long, but we waited together. During my turn, the lady looked rather sad to serve me. I gave her stacks of money, unorganised and they were in bad shape. I think i should have ironed it before leaving for school. Too late.
We had lunch together, and we were late for the Dizi masterclass. I was so sorry, because he had to play, and being involved in the masterclass, i shouldnt had asked him to the bank with me. Anyway, he left his keys behind. I tried contacting him, but he didnt answer my calls. How careless of him to leave the recital hall after the class without taking his keys. Fortunately, he has a friend like me.
Right!
I attended a masterclass yesterday by CharlesHoug, DrGoh's composition teacher for his doctorate degree. It was great, but i was late. Today, i attended another masterclass by CharlesHoug, touching on the uses of scales and modes. Well, u might figure that its the major, minor scales or probably one of those church modes. Ur wrong! I shant talk about something which im not really clear about here. Wait, please let me go figure what he said first. Actually, ive some doubts to clear, which would make perfect sense then. Its my fault for not questioning! But nevermind, somethings are beyond my understanding. One thing im sure of, he is funny in his own ways.
Alright, after such a wonderful night, Cinderella has to return home. Im afraid that i might turn into a beautiful princess at the struck on twelve! Alright, u might recall this joke if u were with me last night. Nevermind, im sure many of us had fun during the weekends. What did u do for ur weekend? Was it memorable? If it was, please call us at our hotline and tell all about it! We care for our customers unlike how others do, u deserve our service. Please call us, goodnight.
I had procrastinated, until an opportunity was lost, or till i fail a module. Purely fiction here. Reality bites hard, and ive flaunt my scars, vulnerable, to my enemies. Thus, once bitten, twice shy. However, i have openly whipped a wounded body, hoping that by sacrificing one, many will learn his valuable lesson as their own. Unfortunately, we're all still human.
Its sad, dun u think so? We learn to dodge, but yet, nobody teaches anybody not to catapult.
Lets drop it. I wanna share with u some crazy moments i had yesterday, with a clique of loons. I met SiHan and YongRui at school. I managed to persuade them to follow me to SimLim. There, i bought a blank rewrittable DVD, so that LuHeng will send me Finale07. I'll like to take the chance to thank LuHeng for being always so generous, putting others before himself. Christoven and Mark came to meet us later, while SiHan was hunting around for his earpiece.
We took a bus over to Audrey's place. Somebody claimed that he would bring us there. Im still wondering, who? We overshot a stop, thus we walked all the way over. It was Martin's farewell party. I heard his parents threw in big effort to prepare for this occasion. U see, he'll be having the priviledge to leave the balding field for a fallow farmland. He'll by flying over to America for his further studies in Violin. Lucky boy, he had a bunch of jealous cattles over to celebrate for his liberty. We, being the cattles, went over to wish him luck, enjoy the BBQ and have fun with Audrey and his family. It was crowded! If u were there, well if not, then use some imagination, u'll probably think its a class gathering.
It was noisy, the food was great and her family never fails to tickle me. Its really funny there. If i were to take my family photo, it'll all be grey, dull and most probably many would be frowning. Well, the contrast is huge. We played games, and what other games would i suggest? I bet, if uve played my games before, u'll most probably had played it all already.
We stayed till late. I took a cab with SiHan and Christoven. I alighted on the way to Christoven's place, and took a bus home. Recently, ive been spending my time wisely. They say, when a person lies, his nose will swell. Its scientific, and probably thats why CarloCollodi's Pinocchio had so much fun lying. For ur information, Jonathan has a big nose, thus its undoubtly proven that he is a born liar! Im so logical!
Im joking. Or maybe im not. But, that doesnt interest u. So therefore, lets get on. As u may be aware, from my previous post, im currently addicted to the smell of books. Somehow, they smell of dung. DrTan once shared with us her liking for books, its partly due to its smell. She called it aesthetic. For others, its merely recycled dung. As for others with fetish for books, i shant touch on that. By the way, ive washed myself clean from the urge of CDs like quitting cigars. However, the price is heavy. Why? Because books are somehow more expensive. It doesnt matter, it'll take me a longer time to finish reading them too anyway.
For frequent readers, probably this wont mean a thing. But, for me, i managed to complete an entire book within a day! No, its not a cooking recipe, and it takes more than a day to scan through all those pretty pictures. Its actually a book on talking language, such as metalanguage and communcation skills. Well, i know them theoratically, but ive not developed those skills into practical use. No conclusions. Period.
A few hours ago, i went shopping with SiHan and Christoven. I was telling them about what ive read, and sharing with them what ive learnt. It'll be awkward if SiHan has no arguments or disagreements over anything. Im not thrilled to counter every irritating possibility he has. He bought his brother a birthday gift, while i pampered myself with 2 more new books. These books are in line, till im done with my write language. Therein, lies the secrets to the power of persuasion. It reminded me of Saruman's magic, which lies deep in his voice. He has the power with words and he sounded most convincing to any ears. As the incarnate of the lost soul of Saruman, i shall inherit his mastery over the power of persuasion!
Slap me, if im too carried away. The other book has much similarity with AllanPease's books on communication. Its by RobertBolton, and im so sorry... the book of persuasion has not been bought yet. I remembered, because i had promised myself to get it only after ive finished with both of my new books. So, by correcting my error, the other book would be by HenryRussel, its about etiquette.
It was raining heavily after choir this afternoon. Its irritating, because i wore slippers. I had lunch with QingLun, and he was patient to follow me to the bank. I went to deposit my cash, which i failed to do so yesterday, due to the condition of my money. The queue was long, but we waited together. During my turn, the lady looked rather sad to serve me. I gave her stacks of money, unorganised and they were in bad shape. I think i should have ironed it before leaving for school. Too late.
We had lunch together, and we were late for the Dizi masterclass. I was so sorry, because he had to play, and being involved in the masterclass, i shouldnt had asked him to the bank with me. Anyway, he left his keys behind. I tried contacting him, but he didnt answer my calls. How careless of him to leave the recital hall after the class without taking his keys. Fortunately, he has a friend like me.
Right!
I attended a masterclass yesterday by CharlesHoug, DrGoh's composition teacher for his doctorate degree. It was great, but i was late. Today, i attended another masterclass by CharlesHoug, touching on the uses of scales and modes. Well, u might figure that its the major, minor scales or probably one of those church modes. Ur wrong! I shant talk about something which im not really clear about here. Wait, please let me go figure what he said first. Actually, ive some doubts to clear, which would make perfect sense then. Its my fault for not questioning! But nevermind, somethings are beyond my understanding. One thing im sure of, he is funny in his own ways.
Alright, after such a wonderful night, Cinderella has to return home. Im afraid that i might turn into a beautiful princess at the struck on twelve! Alright, u might recall this joke if u were with me last night. Nevermind, im sure many of us had fun during the weekends. What did u do for ur weekend? Was it memorable? If it was, please call us at our hotline and tell all about it! We care for our customers unlike how others do, u deserve our service. Please call us, goodnight.
Ranting
This is it.
It'll be something that u'll find urself filled with nothing but an experience of my predicaments.
It has been a really long time since i rant about something, or in fact, anything in my blog. Updating as been an issue hardwired into my brain, but it has ceased and dwindled into a mere dumping spot for alternative solution to ennui and boredom. As some of u may be aware, ive been indulging into the aesthetic pleasure of book reading, smelling, tasting, hearing and caressing. U will also discover, if u can read beyond the horizons between the lines, that ive planned certain steps to preclude the threats to my endangered habitat.
Yes, my life is in danger! It has been under the fulmination of future belligerence. This combativeness has already drowned me with hints, tints and pints of them. Of which, comes in different hues and density. However, these can be avoided easily. How? As u may usually do, hide away from the embarrassment of a confrontation, brush up a thicker mask or probably, just feign ignorance. But, i think admitting to ur mistakes and facing the music is the most direct way of criticism. It comes from the first party, being urself! Thus, it saves the faux pas or some social blunder which will inevitably fall into place as long as u remain consistently, congruously still driving through ur life with all stubborn stains.
Do not be mistaken! Im not pointing my fingers on anyone here. Who wishes not to thrive? Not to flourish in any sense? Ive successfully grown and developed in size, and some may thirst to boom in height. But, thats not what im talking about exactly. Im being honest to myself, and i do not intend to put myself in a brighter light as to others. However, i do hope that those talents out there will realise what other possibilities that lie ahead of them, other than to blindly follow the first blind mice. Arnold Schoenberg, damn this uniformity right? Though i may not want to sound rude, and i know i am, but i have to really damn this uniformity about following rules, laws and orders. I hate to be told what to do. Though i detest more to admit that i have to.
Ive been questioned, probably u might wanna shoot urself in the head too, what isit that u are best with. It doesnt necessarily has be something that u must be the top as with others, but most importantly that what isit that u do best, as compared to ur abilities. Talented or not, that really lies in the eyes of others. As for urself, i think u should work hard on the second top, of course constantly pumping iron on the first.
I reflected for weeks. It was a chance to make new friends at NoiseSingapore. My partner, Edwin, is from SingaporePoly. Its quite a small world that we have many friends in common. Let me introduce him to u guys. He is currently pursuing his final year at SP for the music programme. Pardon me, im still not very sure what it is about. All i do know that it focuses more on music technology, production and not so much on performance. Joyce, my fellow orchestra mate at CSCO is a classmate of Edwin. Alright, probably ive done a bad job introducing him. When i get to know him better, throughout this 8 weeks, i'll talk more about him with u guys.
Anyway, that night, i headed down to the ArtsHouse. It was the hall which i tested with some other musicians before it was officially opened. Some of u might have caught some performances there. I did, and its quite a unique experience. We headed there once with the class to catch the 'Singapore Gaga'. But, its the performance hall which stands out most to other performance stages. Anyway, back then a friend of mine, i cant remember his name, invited me to catch his performance. It was free, and it provided refreshments too. I enjoyed it very much, and i do hope that i will get a chance to perform there. Well, enough of the ArtsHouse. The event was held at the EarshotCafe. Inside, its very cosy. It brings warmth, and the cafe is structure in a way that it makes socialising with people easy and flirting easier. I took a seat, grabbed a bite and breathed the ambience.
Edwin was then introduced to me. Jessica, or LuJie, came and we sat together, it took us some time to break the ice. She briefed us about our projects, and hers, mostly on the approaches that she'll take. Of course, the apprenticeship allows us to interfere into her project to experience the actuality in the music industry. Nothing really exciting, but its big time interesting. Edwin and i will have quite abit to worry about...
I found my shackles loose later in the week. Im freed from the clutches of academic studies. However, that means ive alot more to fulfill after the week, which im suffering now. In a few days time, i have to submit another essay prior to my first critical reflection. I carry a blase attitude towards essay writing, because im usually unorganised, stuck and lost. However, what lifts my spirit to draft my work would be the beautiful DrTan.
How i adore her! O beauty, u see not into my deepest desire. My heart holds much secret. Lo, my love swells with passion and hungers for ur touch. O please my lady, please touch and mark my essays! As clear as the river water, as pure as the morning dew and as innocent as the sleeping child. My heart sings for thee, a song, a melody of love. O beloved, most adored, read me the first paragraph of Sadie or play me a clip from the DVD. I love it! O how much i love it! U cannot deny my love, u cannot! I forbid thee!
See, ive actually some talent in script writing.
I went for some soul searching after Andy's recital last night. I headed to Orchard with Mark and Christoven. Before so, i looked into my bank account. Im astonished. I should just diminish back into the depth of my blanket and hide forever. Im broke, im poor and im worthless. The problem aint the amount inside, its the sum missing! How did it disappear? Im amazed.
In the state of shock, i followed Christoven to Orchard. I managed to hunt down a book at Borders. Ive bought 3 books previously by this author. His books are mainly with psychological behaviours. Not mainly on physical cues, it includes analysis and explanations for the uses of metalanguage as well. Ive finished reading on human relations, and currently, im embarking on another journey into the language of writing. It seems that i need much improvement to bring style into my blogging as well, need i not?
But somehow, im quite positive that my writing has a punch. It raises questions in the head, brings about uncertainty and most of all, it feeds u curiosity. So much that, it makes u wanna read on. There u go, it has this bite. U realised how my simple effective the use of short isolated words are? It is familiar to all. Lets cut to the chase, nobody really enjoys reading something that rebukes, chides and rants non-stop about their daily activities. Such contradictory! Im always talking about me, me and me! But, one thing i did do was to interact with u guys. As u may have already found out, i do use quite a generous number of 'u's to refer to the readers. This brings some purpose for them to think and to show empathy. I hate reading blogs which goes on talking about their activities, without being critical about their thoughts. Though ive failed answering DrTan's questions about critical thinking in class, im actually quite reflective. Im just not confident answering them. Thats not the point, i just hope that people would blog without using jargons and terms which only their body bug would comprehend.
Be more friendly! Thats it, be more friendly.
I apologise for its been too long since i last updated my blog. It wouldnt be too much to ask for, especially since im used to blogging chunks and chunks of junk. Some might find this place a paradise, booty call or even a piece of crap. I do prefer the latter ironically.
I shant tire u out.
Herein, lies the perfect ending for a soft cadence.
It'll be something that u'll find urself filled with nothing but an experience of my predicaments.
It has been a really long time since i rant about something, or in fact, anything in my blog. Updating as been an issue hardwired into my brain, but it has ceased and dwindled into a mere dumping spot for alternative solution to ennui and boredom. As some of u may be aware, ive been indulging into the aesthetic pleasure of book reading, smelling, tasting, hearing and caressing. U will also discover, if u can read beyond the horizons between the lines, that ive planned certain steps to preclude the threats to my endangered habitat.
Yes, my life is in danger! It has been under the fulmination of future belligerence. This combativeness has already drowned me with hints, tints and pints of them. Of which, comes in different hues and density. However, these can be avoided easily. How? As u may usually do, hide away from the embarrassment of a confrontation, brush up a thicker mask or probably, just feign ignorance. But, i think admitting to ur mistakes and facing the music is the most direct way of criticism. It comes from the first party, being urself! Thus, it saves the faux pas or some social blunder which will inevitably fall into place as long as u remain consistently, congruously still driving through ur life with all stubborn stains.
Do not be mistaken! Im not pointing my fingers on anyone here. Who wishes not to thrive? Not to flourish in any sense? Ive successfully grown and developed in size, and some may thirst to boom in height. But, thats not what im talking about exactly. Im being honest to myself, and i do not intend to put myself in a brighter light as to others. However, i do hope that those talents out there will realise what other possibilities that lie ahead of them, other than to blindly follow the first blind mice. Arnold Schoenberg, damn this uniformity right? Though i may not want to sound rude, and i know i am, but i have to really damn this uniformity about following rules, laws and orders. I hate to be told what to do. Though i detest more to admit that i have to.
Ive been questioned, probably u might wanna shoot urself in the head too, what isit that u are best with. It doesnt necessarily has be something that u must be the top as with others, but most importantly that what isit that u do best, as compared to ur abilities. Talented or not, that really lies in the eyes of others. As for urself, i think u should work hard on the second top, of course constantly pumping iron on the first.
I reflected for weeks. It was a chance to make new friends at NoiseSingapore. My partner, Edwin, is from SingaporePoly. Its quite a small world that we have many friends in common. Let me introduce him to u guys. He is currently pursuing his final year at SP for the music programme. Pardon me, im still not very sure what it is about. All i do know that it focuses more on music technology, production and not so much on performance. Joyce, my fellow orchestra mate at CSCO is a classmate of Edwin. Alright, probably ive done a bad job introducing him. When i get to know him better, throughout this 8 weeks, i'll talk more about him with u guys.
Anyway, that night, i headed down to the ArtsHouse. It was the hall which i tested with some other musicians before it was officially opened. Some of u might have caught some performances there. I did, and its quite a unique experience. We headed there once with the class to catch the 'Singapore Gaga'. But, its the performance hall which stands out most to other performance stages. Anyway, back then a friend of mine, i cant remember his name, invited me to catch his performance. It was free, and it provided refreshments too. I enjoyed it very much, and i do hope that i will get a chance to perform there. Well, enough of the ArtsHouse. The event was held at the EarshotCafe. Inside, its very cosy. It brings warmth, and the cafe is structure in a way that it makes socialising with people easy and flirting easier. I took a seat, grabbed a bite and breathed the ambience.
Edwin was then introduced to me. Jessica, or LuJie, came and we sat together, it took us some time to break the ice. She briefed us about our projects, and hers, mostly on the approaches that she'll take. Of course, the apprenticeship allows us to interfere into her project to experience the actuality in the music industry. Nothing really exciting, but its big time interesting. Edwin and i will have quite abit to worry about...
I found my shackles loose later in the week. Im freed from the clutches of academic studies. However, that means ive alot more to fulfill after the week, which im suffering now. In a few days time, i have to submit another essay prior to my first critical reflection. I carry a blase attitude towards essay writing, because im usually unorganised, stuck and lost. However, what lifts my spirit to draft my work would be the beautiful DrTan.
How i adore her! O beauty, u see not into my deepest desire. My heart holds much secret. Lo, my love swells with passion and hungers for ur touch. O please my lady, please touch and mark my essays! As clear as the river water, as pure as the morning dew and as innocent as the sleeping child. My heart sings for thee, a song, a melody of love. O beloved, most adored, read me the first paragraph of Sadie or play me a clip from the DVD. I love it! O how much i love it! U cannot deny my love, u cannot! I forbid thee!
See, ive actually some talent in script writing.
I went for some soul searching after Andy's recital last night. I headed to Orchard with Mark and Christoven. Before so, i looked into my bank account. Im astonished. I should just diminish back into the depth of my blanket and hide forever. Im broke, im poor and im worthless. The problem aint the amount inside, its the sum missing! How did it disappear? Im amazed.
In the state of shock, i followed Christoven to Orchard. I managed to hunt down a book at Borders. Ive bought 3 books previously by this author. His books are mainly with psychological behaviours. Not mainly on physical cues, it includes analysis and explanations for the uses of metalanguage as well. Ive finished reading on human relations, and currently, im embarking on another journey into the language of writing. It seems that i need much improvement to bring style into my blogging as well, need i not?
But somehow, im quite positive that my writing has a punch. It raises questions in the head, brings about uncertainty and most of all, it feeds u curiosity. So much that, it makes u wanna read on. There u go, it has this bite. U realised how my simple effective the use of short isolated words are? It is familiar to all. Lets cut to the chase, nobody really enjoys reading something that rebukes, chides and rants non-stop about their daily activities. Such contradictory! Im always talking about me, me and me! But, one thing i did do was to interact with u guys. As u may have already found out, i do use quite a generous number of 'u's to refer to the readers. This brings some purpose for them to think and to show empathy. I hate reading blogs which goes on talking about their activities, without being critical about their thoughts. Though ive failed answering DrTan's questions about critical thinking in class, im actually quite reflective. Im just not confident answering them. Thats not the point, i just hope that people would blog without using jargons and terms which only their body bug would comprehend.
Be more friendly! Thats it, be more friendly.
I apologise for its been too long since i last updated my blog. It wouldnt be too much to ask for, especially since im used to blogging chunks and chunks of junk. Some might find this place a paradise, booty call or even a piece of crap. I do prefer the latter ironically.
I shant tire u out.
Herein, lies the perfect ending for a soft cadence.
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