Fornication

Had a nice day , i think . Went out early in the morning to Chinatown with Evan . SiHan , YongRui and Samuel went to swim at Jurong . Well ... i dun like water , like Fairul , and im scared of rounded objects . Weird ... ? Maybe ...

Evan was late . Technically , i was late , but she was later . Anyway , went to eat ... brought her to my auntie's stall , the one Samuel tried before , but it was closed . Then we headed for the famous porridge stall ... but , it was closed too . So we ended up eating somewhere ... else .

After eating , i brought her to my haunting spot . The place where i bought almost all my CDs ... and of course , the place where i import CDs over . And then , this special place might sound somehow different from how it actually looks , because Evan looked disgusted . The CDs i ordered hasnt been delivered over yet , and ive been waiting for so long already . Anyway , i bought 4 CDs , which cost me about $60 plus . I spent alot of time at the shop , and Evan was going crazy . She was jumping around and yelling like an African lady ... i used the word 'lady' . Anyway , she was trying with all her might to drag me out of that place . In the end ... i left , obviously .

After shopping around Chinatown , we took a nice cab ride to Orchard , Evan treated . Met Fairul there ... Meanwhile , we bought cheese toufu . Then Evan bought me to this stupid shop , where she worked before . Its some Japanese stall ... then i tried to do my analysis there , but i couldnt . I think im going to die ...

Met Fairul at PlazaSingapura . I wasted his sms by beating around the bush ... Then we went to shop around . I saw a few very nice vests ... and some very nice and goodlooking ... coats . I think im gonna spend my salary of $500 on all these clothings . Afterall , being a performer , i must have at least a set of presentable clothings . Saw this coat at Chinatown previously also , it looked good . Anyway , it was expensive ... some G200 shop . We went to Yamaha ... and we wasted quite alot of time there . Fairul then saw this advertisement outside the shop , it states that they are employing a fixed position for those who has some knowledge of brass and woodwind instruments . Then Fairul wanted to ... try out . He was hesitating ... and he gave up for a few times ... then he suddenly , with our encouragement , decided to go give it a try . He went to the counter , i promised to be with him , so after the lady asked him what he wants , i quickly ran out of the shop . Evan and i wanted to hide away somewhere ... So bad , then Fairul dunno what to do ... so , he waited a while ... And then , the lady came out and she told him that the post has been taken . That was seriously embarrassing , because everyone in the shop was looking at him . He was so embarrassed , he was complaining non-stop . It was really ... killing funny . Evan was evil , she laughed out loud when the lady told him that its taken . I was nice , i was sitting around playing some Piano ...

There was nothing else ... and so we headed back to school . The funny thing was ... Fairul has no money to take bus , but we have concessions . So ... we wanted to take the bus , but he refused so . We spoke in Cantonese , so he couldnt understand ... then we planned a plot , to take the bus without him knowing . We went into ThisFashion and we shopped a while , meanwhile , looking out for the buses . I was looking around aimlessly ... around the skirts ... and blouses . He suspected so ... and in the end , we boarded the bus quickly . And he failed to catch up ... That was seriously evil , and i told Evan off . Well ... i was lazy to walk too . So , when we were there , i waited for him , while Evan wanted to go off to SunShine first . She was so mean ...

In school , we watched some MadTV clips . It was damn funny ... i love it ! How i wish that this programme will be available in Singapore ... I think it'll take years for it to come . Anyway , then Fairul was dunno why ... scared . He went off first ... he didnt wanna let Samuel know that he is in school . Well ... sorry , i said it out . Anyway , its nothing . He went off first ... just like that , he disappeared . Then Evan was going to meet Samuel and dunno who , to take bus 80 . Well , since everyone isnt free , i headed to YanYu's place . I took a long bus ride to YiShun ... then another to her place . Before that ... we were disturbing Jovan's practice . He was playing the SpringOverture , and it was in C Major . So ... i could play it on the Piano . Well ... i think that piece has been hidden under the ruin for quite a while . Ive not heard it for at least ... 2 years already .

YanYu was nice , she asked about Dad . And i told her to sign on the paper ... and thats all . The long journey , just for the signature which took about only 5 min . But im so sorry for that ive delayed this for so long ever since Dad became ill . I think ive troubled her enough ... i feel so sorry , but i dunno how to tell her ... hope she understands . Well ... she does , i think .

Learning to let go , is of course , the hardest . Well , if we can pick things up , we must learn how to let them go . Sharing waht we have is a beautiful way of relating to others ... our friendships are much enhanced by the quality of generosity . Even more significantly , the cultivation of non-greed becomes a strong force for liberation . What keeps us bound is desire and grasping in our own minds ... thus , as we practice giving , we learn to let go .

Today's title doesnt go out to me . Because ... im aware of my status and how fornification will do me harm . Well ... it goes out to a friend of mine . And im sure , ur beliefs will solve every problem that u face . Dun face it alone , because it has never been meant this way . In the sand , u see 2 footprints , because u know he is walking beside u . But during ur doldrums , u'll only see 1 . And u'll wonder why ... ? Why isnt he here with u ... but the fact is ... he is still with u . U are the fallen one , and the single footprint belongs to him , for that he is ... carrying u in his arms . For im a backslider , i do not wish to say much . But faith is the only miracle a person can find ... for that one shouldnt expect much , because the results will disappoint upon ur expectations .

Well ... if a person has only one chance of a miracle in his life . I hope that Dad's isnt for him to live ... for that living , is indeed suffering . I hope that his miracle would be for him to be faithful and believe in Jesus , which only through him , who will lead him to god above . Well ...

Im a sinner , which everyone is . I believe ... but i know , believing is useless . For that ... who doesnt believe that Satan is real . Well ... believing is acknowledging his existence , but it isnt enough . So much for some self-proclaimed Christians . Im not being blasphemous ... just clearing the fog of the fact . Some are really disappointing for that they try their very best to twist the words of the bible to redeem themselves . Well ... its useless , the bible is a powerful book , and no simple human mind can play with its words . But how powerful can a bible be if it lies in the dust at home ... ? Well ... i can strongly quote from the bible that ... god wants his people to walk in an image of him . Meaning ... though nobody is possible of becoming as holy as god himself , they try . The word is ... 'try' . And thus ... we do not sin on purpose . Well ... the most important thing is still intention . Whether somebody's intention is healthy really lies deep in his or her heart .

Well ... i might have made some wrong comments here tonight ... So , please dun call me up or spray paint outside my house . Dun attempt to correct me ... im a mule , lazy to change anyway ...

Thanks for reading .