Scourge

So much for the concern , i think my paternal family is irritating me . My Dad is sick ... and they keep asking me things and telling me things ... and even so , they're hiding some things from me . If u want to talk to me , tell me what u mean and what u wanna say . Im not here to play some silly games . Later i'll meet Mervin , my uncle , for a chat ... and this time i hope nothing will piss me off . If i should be pissed , i'll just fuck this up and turn my back around .

Came home with Marcus , this access-course guy . He plays the FrenchHorn , and he is kinda nice . He stays in YiShun , just like Sebestian , the other access-course guy . Anyway , had dinner with them , because nobody else was in school . Well , so much for the selfish mugger , i think some other people are even worst , they act normal on good days , but when it comes to studies ... they hide away studying themselves . Anyway , so we ate ...

Class was fun , stayed for another tutorial because i couldnt finish my work , not just me ... many others too . Anyway , i think now i know what im doing ... a little bit of improvement , not bad . After class , went to eat with SiHan . Then after that ... thought of buying a webcam , but since SiHan said that Funnan is cheaper , i'll go there someday . After that , we slacked around at the lounge . Before that ... was playing games with SiHan , and then going through Sharon's piece . Her piece is titled , 'Gone' . Trust me , its tough . Not that she doesnt know how to write , but because she composed the piece with not much knowledge of the instruments , thus the writings are different and very unique . I kinda like the piece ... because its rather atonal , and expressive to an extent ... only different individuals will play differently . So LiYang came , she is the Soprano , and she sung through the piece , with much difficulty . The piece is indeed challenging , and not bad . Hope this time i wont screw things up ... i shall look through the scores carefully . The piece is scored for Pipa , Soprano and Vibraphone .

The access-course people was in the lounge . SiHan and i practiced there ... and i tried to teach SiHan some songs ... but its hard . Slacked around ... talked ... laughed ... and got to know a few new people , like Melissa . She is a Pianist , going under MOE ... well , good life . Then , of course the old Jeremy , cracking his brain doing theory . Then i went to disturb ... and helped him and checked his work . So many mistakes ... problems with MinorKeys , and Triads . Well , its the most basic ... but me too , also need time to think . Unlike those with musical backgrounds , good for them ... even better for those with perfect pitch . So lucky ... but those with relative pitch , is kinda good too . Yesterday , we were talking about perfect pitch , and we came up with another term for some others ... called perfect bitch . Well , kinda funny ...

Day was short , and tiring . DrGoh wanted to me join this competition , and its a salute to Singapore , thus the theme is patriotic . And ... im not really sure ... about composing something like that . Well , of course i dun compose much of atonal pieces , usually i prefer to have this little melody in every compositions , and ... thus i think its rather suitable for the competition . The first prize ... is around $5000 , so ... thats good money . Well , still kinda deciding ... because i dunno what to write ... My brain is rusty , its time to dust the old scores ... and bring some uncomplete compositions up ... and complete them . Actually i wrote one patriotic piece last time ... its an orchestral piece ... with Piano as principal , but i think its kinda unplayable . Moreover , they need a recording ... and i dun think i can produce something like that . Too bad ...

Busybodies , i think if nature took its course , everything might be beautiful ... like a romantic lake . Now ... its a waste dump , a swamp or a marsh .

Well , u make me smile .

I think ... there's this weird thing going on with me . And its weird ... like really weird ...

Bought new shoes .

Tomorrow , i shall go down somewhere to get myself a webcam . Some of us are going to try staying overnight in school ... someday . And hope it'll be fun ... instead of trouble . We shall see about that ...

Mervin is going to call me anytime soon , so ... i shall blog about that tomorrow or something . Or maybe later ...

Soon enough ... i shall go on from here . Just had a chat with Douglas and Mervin . And obviously its about Jane . Well , she has been acting again . Well this time , its serious family politics , like those in the movies . But this time , im the only key left ... to help Dad and save him from the life he's having now . Jane is a fucking bitch , and no way im going to allow her continue ruining Dad like that ... and Dad is dumb enough to listen , but i can understand ... there's nothing he can do , but to keep things to himself . Im going to free him from his shackles ...

The plans shall start tomorrow .