Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Smile

Watching 'AmericanPie' now ... and its hell obscene . But , its kinda entertaining ...

Im still holding on to ur hands , still holding on even when im asleep . But ur not by my side , thus its only imaginery . Goodbye my lover , goodbye my friend ... u've been the one , u've been the one for me . Well , goodbye ...

Confused ... and not committed enough . I think i should think through what ive done , and what ive not . Well , i play too much ... and ive not practiced hard enough . I slacked too much ... and now , im doomed . Maybe im a simile , totally the same ... giving other's the wrong idea , and then ... changing my mind suddenly , and causing the follower to fall . Well , bad leader ...

Just came home from a bus ride . Had LAN with YongRui , SiHan , Andy , Noozli and Audrey . Stephanie wasnt in a good mood ... because she lost her pouch . So sorry for her , and i know how that feels . But we cannot help much ... Andy and Audrey followed her back to school ... and i just dunno what to do . Hope that by tomorrow , somebody will find it and return it to her . Please , be kind enough ... dun be those assholes . I hate those who takes other's belongings , and moreover , its in NAFA ... our own ground , our own friends ... YongRui was very nice , he lent his card to Stephanie when they returned back to school ...

Game was just ... normal ... I bullied Audrey , and Andy wasnt happy . Well , i dunno ...

Harmony class was funny , MrYap was lame ... with his expressions . He said that he wanted to release us early , because afterall its Valentine's Day , but ... in the end , he released us later . After class , we went to eat at KFC . A few of us went to main campus and collect the free gifts . I got 2 cards ... and a stress ball . Its cool that NAFA has these free gifts on every special events . Well , thats cool ... Then LianWei , YinXuan , Fairul , Fhairil and i went to eat at KFC . I wouldnt go there myself ... i dun really like that place , but its fine . I ate like 3 pieces of chicken ... and hate it when there's chicken breast . Anyway , then we talked about many things ... Fairul's boyfriends ... girlfriends ... mine ... Fhairil's ... So many . Then after that , Fhairil went home . Fairul and i walked back to school . The other 2 left first anyway ...

On our way back , then we elaborated about some people ... and we found it kinda true . Well , its obvious .

In school , HuiQi and Jeremy watched 'Constantine' with me . Its a bloody good movie ... i love it . The story is based on all the sayings ... and all the tales and myths . And somehow , they managed to link everything together . Like the dead cows on the fields ... ? And many more ... like the fallen angel who will help Satan to release his child unto earth . Well , it's said that he'll need the help from God , and the fallen angel acts has a helping hand from above . Constantine is cool ... and he has this very typical image similar from Neo , from 'The Matrix' . Well ... nevermind . I think Jeremy was very bored and he darent say anything ...

Watched 'White Chicks' , the favourites . Well , everyone in the computer lab , except Ruth , was watching it and enjoying themselves . They told me to on louder ... so no choice , but later Ruth complained that its too loud and she's studying . Well , sorry for that . Everybody who comes into the computer lab will stop behind and look at what we're watching . Then its so noisy because everyone was laughing ... and talking ... so its kinda hard to enjoy a good movie in the computer lab . Even 'Constantine' , its so soft ... or loud , but due to the other sources of noise , we can barely hear it . Jeremy was bored again i think ... he didnt look like he enjoyed it , and i think he wanted to leave ... but he didnt . So ... nevermind .

Ate again with gang . And meanwhile , disturbed Stephanie ... and Angela ... and Audrey ...

Well , saw many people ... holding flowers , mainly girls of course . Couples holding hands ... smiling ... talking ... Im not jealous , just feeling weird .

So much for the day of celebrating love between couples . Well , im alone . And for those who are lonely , today is the day when ur mocked . I dunno ... because im not sure . But if there's a chance at all ... i would definitely give it a try , even though the low confidence ... i know , i wont make it .

That smile . Well , goodbye to that .