Buzz Off

Dun think ur big , literally meaning fat , means that u can throw ur weight around .

Thought that today would be inviting , but yet ... i felt more depressed then ever . Went to school today ... and i got dressed as normal , but with that coat , yes . Then i didnt know what to wear ... since my ankle needed support , i thought maybe my performance leather shoe would fit best . And , it did ... however , i think it still kinda hurts .

I wasnt in the mood for choir today ... and i was on the doldrums . I didnt know why , but sure it all have to thank to some irritants . YanChong was very sarcastic today , and sure if he doesnt talk for awhile , nobody would complain that he's mute . Well , he kinda pissed me off ... with his irritating sarcasm , but surely i know ... thats his style . I think , he'll only respect people who are better than him , like YouGuo . Other than that , i dun think he has anybody else in his eyes . If one day he doesnt keep quiet , and if he should insult or offend me again , i'll make sure i'll tick him off .

During ensemble , YouGuo was kinda in a sad mood . He was playing his Pipa , which was rather untune , because of reasons like ... fret problems or the peg problems . So , he was so disappointed , he kept apologising for the pitch . In the end , he got very sad , and he put his Pipa down ... and he asked me to play . It was a solo piece , with ensemble accompaniment , and i havent seen the score before ... and i had to sightread ... because YouGuo doesnt wanna play anymore . So , i played , and of course it didnt sound as good as YouGuo , but really dun need for all the comments . Please , understand that my age and YouGuo's age has quite a gap , and surely that cuts off the standards between us . And look at u , ur so old already , older than YouGuo , and still ... i dun wanna say . U know best urself ...

After that , i was so pissed ... i thought maybe going out with QingLun and gang would make me feel better . So , i went to play LAN with them ... again ... at Bugis . So nice for KaiXiang , if im not wrong , to ask about my ankle injury . Got to know a few new people today ... only 2 actually . One would be KaiXiang , a Dizi player , and another would be Joshua , a YangQin player . They both came for audition today . Andy might have felt a little depressed after the audition , but surely , whats done is done , no use thinking about it already . Believe in urself ... and let fate decide everything . Though its hard to let go of the bonds that are created within such a period of time , im sure ... sometimes , it'll be time to let go . Goodluck , Andy .

Came back to school in time to catch the commuter concert . Tonight , its a Trombone recital ... by MaciekWalicki on the Trombone , and ErnestHinLeungSo on the Piano . And also featuring FrediSonderegger , on the Trombone too . Well , it was really good . I was sleeping ... throughout , but i heard some very good parts . Both of them had a different tone , one was smoother than the other . Both was as good ... The Pianist looked really sleepy , guess its time for him to get some sleep , before those eyebags turn darker .

SiHan and i started to make fun of Fairul again , and it has always been a joke , not meant to be taken seriously . But , Fairul went to complain to LiFeng , and she came barking at me , because nobody else was around . Barking up the wrong tree , i guess . But , of course ... if people like u cannot take things easy , and have to be so sensitive , then im sorry for making u guys feel that way . Thats it , no more jokes , i cant be lamer than i already am , can i ?

Listening to Jake's Ukulele now , and trust me , its damn good .

YouGuo just went kinda depress just now , and i was busy replying his messages . Just like the past , still the same old problems . I wouldnt wanna talk about this here ... but ... well , theres nothing much i can do , it'll all lie in ur hands , YouGuo .

Im not going on a diet , but ... ive just no mood to eat . Moody ? Mood-less maybe ...

A fat bumble bee like u can just go , buzz ... off .

Since im in such a bad mood today , must well just let everything out . Now , the person whom i was angry with , was Angela . And why so ? It wasnt anybody else ... Lets just say that , she makes me feel very uncomfortable . Im not gonna say anything about now , since its already over . But back then , there was a period when everybody was making hints and looks about me and Audrey . And Angela was the most obvious ... thus , she made me feel very uncomfortable and awkward towards Audrey , and till now , yes . But then , the thing stopped already ... but still , whats done is done , and i cannot forget that moment . So , i was wondering ... if Angela is helping Audrey or not by making her feel awkward towards Andy . But apparently , they worked out fine . Guess maybe its just me , not anybody else . Im the sensitive crap i was talking about just now ! Anyway , theres still one more , but without the consent of somebody , i shall not say about it . So Angela , sorry for all the bad remarks ive made , but still ... its just a little clash in personalities , there arent anything much to resolve about . Im not pissed or whateva now ... but i just dun wanna get involve in anything , it makes me ultimately uncomfortable .

Now ive said everything out , im feeling alot better . Well , but still ... the bumble bee should just buzz off ...