When Music Meets Love

Im blogging really early today , i know its weird . I just read Noozli's blog , and im like ... so touched can ? This would sound abit gay ... but it made me laugh . Maybe not gay ... just weird ... I suddenly felt the urge to blog , because maybe i know tonight i would sleep really early , hopefully , so i can go to school early tomorrow and finish up on my homework .

Well , the problem between guys are usually misunderstandings and stuff . Unlike America or elsewhere , Singapore has a very different culture . People are generally more self-cautious , egotistical and maybe ... more self-loving ? Definitely so . But thats where the problem lies ... everybody will just look out for themselves , they would seldom help each other . Of course , thats kinda too negative for the general side , im sure ... there are plenty who are also very helpful , thanks to their religion and their background ... and stuff ... These people arent very rare , in fact ... there are quite a few in NAFA already , people like Noozli and SiHan , of course some of the girls ... too ...

Girls have their own girl's talk , and their girl's shopping . U heard of the song titled 'Girls' from Destiny's Child ? Well , now sing it in ur head ... and try to replace the word 'girl' with the word 'boy' . Now ... doesnt it sound very very wrong ? Yes its totally freaky ... Girls are generally more docile creatures ... thus , its fine for them to u know ... hold hands , talk together ... share things ... For guys , it'll be totally weird . Maybe thats the reason why i dun like to say things out . Telling secrets to girls are also ... sometimes not really the best route to choose , because they wont understand somethings . So , the reason why i dun say out my problems are ... partly because of such reasons . But without saying anything , some people already could guess whats in my head , these people are dangerous , they can read minds ... im joking ... but yes , some share the same thinking .

Dear Noozli , im so touched by ur concern over at ur blog . Nice reading ... but dunno why , i cant let the page load for long , it'll close down by itself ... weird ... Anyway , Noozli has been a really good friend too , but it'll be very weird for me to become one of his close friends like Jovan , because our characters are really quite different . But be it how so , the gap aint big . Like other normal friends , they are still called ... friends . And im sure , without a doubt , u shouldnt have at all too , that ur not someone i'll be angry with , because im sure u wont make me mad . On the contrary , im afraid that i might have gotten u angry before , so ... a thousand apologies goes out same to u . Seeing u smile , is the same , always that bright and lightening . Well , im sure u have ur problems too , and ur woes , but ... u know , i know ... its hard to say it out sometimes , thus only can think about it alone , and doing so ... will always result in a big frown or a moody attitude at times . Well , its like that ...

Our circle of friends are big , and its definitely so that somebody within the circle would cross over somebody's line . Its this that created this circular shape that will never end with an edge , it'll just keep rolling and going on . This are the obstacles that create ... this bonding thing . Well , i do believe in giving chances , without needing an answer or an apology . In fact , im always giving chances , its only those who are already given so many , and yet they dunno that they are the one in the wrong , that i'll not forgive . But of course , im sure i might have insulted or offended somebody , and as much as they do , i wish that i'll be forgiven , because i dunno what ive done wrong . Like Noozli said , sometimes u hurt others unconciously , and its evitable that u wont find out till something goes wrong . But forgiving depends on how aware that person is , if nothing seems to be changing ... then im really sorry , there's nothing i can do with my uncontrollable mood , its almost impossible to repress . Anyway , hearing me say the word 'fuck' isnt that weird . Hearing my curse is . Well , i dun have the habit of saying that word , yes , but sometimes its just a way of expressing urself in different levels depending of ur descriptions and stuff ... i hear Noozli say that often , but its still very normal ! If i were to hear it from DrKan , then ... thats a different story .

Dun be just a guy who tries to live in this world . Im the same , but if ive no more friends and family , i will happily kill myself . I live for my friends , and family . What other reasons would a sad boy live for ?

Well , i think thats the end of my little blog entry , everything here today goes out to Noozli , and thanks to him for realising myself some of my own mistakes and thoughts . Well , he definitely cleared some of my doubts . The fog in my head is still there , but ... now there's a lamp behind me , i can see things better .

Im a wacky punk . Now that sounds a little weird ... Firstly , i dun think im fit enought to be a punk , be it fashion wise or whateva . And secondly , ive to agree with the wacky part . Wacky means ... mentally irregular , and disesteeem too . Yes , im in a state which my esteem has been lost . Anyway , i get what u meant , im just joking around ...

Anyway , now back to abit of my own life today . Woke up rather late , because i slept late last night . Did nothing today , tried to compose ... but couldnt . I think im not taking part in the composition competition anymore , because i still dunno alot of things . Well , anyway ... help Dickshen with himself today . He couldnt shit ... and same thing , has to use that liquid thing , its not good for him ... but i think he just couldnt do it today . Mom held him , i prod it into his anus . It was ... disgusting and really ... weird ... i was like screaming for him , because i think its painful , or very uncomfortable . Well , in the end , it worked . But the problem is ... he didnt shit in the bowl . Mom was shouting like hell , because she doesnt like all this kinda things . Mom had to wash the toilet , and scrub the floor ... because the shit was all over the floor . Very big ugly lumps ... quite alot , its the most ... unique ... shit ive ever seen .

I almost to add on to this little bit that happened that day when Fairul sang in the studio . Remember that ? Anyway , he was afraid that people might look in remember ? And the lights were off ... so there was once , this person looked in , then he screamed and dived to a corner . The corner was ... a chair , and he just dived there like as if in a pool , and landed himself somewhere around the corner . He knocked against the chair , my Piano stool ... and it made quite alot of noise . It was really funny ... i cried like hell .

The sun hasnt set yet , and ive already finished my post of the day . Not really sure what might happen tonight , i guess maybe im going out myself . Shopping ? Not very sure ... but i wouldnt wanna stay at home for the whole night . Im not going to ask anybody along ... Its back to those days , alone . Buy some clothings ... or some CDs ... or some shoes ... or some sweater ... or some formal clothings ... im not sure , im sure if i were to visit a CD shop , i'll get at least one CD . Lets pray that this doesnt happen .

Havent been going out with Samuel lately . Everybody is busy . I wonder with what ? Or isit some ... self-studying programme going on ? Well ... again , another one .

When music meets love , im not sure what might happen . Noozli will tell us the answer one day . Thanks Noozli , and u too , stay cheerful as always .

Just came home from Chinatown , and ive to add this few paragraphs . Before Nana came , Mom and i went to shop around . I spent about $70 again in Chinatown . Bought a CD , i was right , and its Jason Mraz , i think his music is unique and different from the pop that we hear often . His music has more words ... and i think his music has many different styles , very refreshing . Well , anyway ... i bought some clothes too . Mom and i were like argueing over the colours , she kept telling me that it looks like some old man's clothe , then i insisted that its not . It went on and on , till the saleswomen were all laughing . Well , it was ... funny ... Anyway , we didnt fight , its just some very funny arguments .

Well , after that ... went to ThisFashion with Mom and Nana . They were picking clothings ... which looked really ugly . Firstly , it looks like something which LeeTung wears . Not offending her , but it doesnt suit somebody like Mom , please . And next , the colours arent matching and its contrasting and super dramatic . Bright orange , teal , red and some very weird colours ... I told her its not very nice to look at , plus ... including the person . Then she kept telling me its nice ... So , in the end , she ask me to pick some clothings for her friend . I think her friend , is actually her herself . She told me that she wants something that looks 18 years old , and i was like ... puking . Nana was shouting in the shop , shouting for Mom and stuff ... so embarrassing . Anyway , saw a few very special women . They looked like ... men . In fact , they are . Firstly , there was this guy who had long hair , but looked really like a hag . Then next , this guy with a face that has gone through several plastic surgery , its obvious . Then next , just a normal guy with long hair , but with ... breast . Another one , was kinda normal looking , compared to the bunch . Well , they were shopping for women's clothing , and the workers there were all staring at them . Another stupid thing is the worker's attitude . My Mom asked where can she find the grey shirt that the model was wearing , and this female worker pointed to a certain direction , so we went over . Mom still couldnt find , so she asked again . The worker , pointed and said that it should be around the area . I was so freaking pissed , because of my foul mood this few days , i asked the worker in a very rude manner , i asked if she can help us find . Then Mom knows im pissed , then she said nevermind ... then she quickly said ... she found it ... Right , she didnt . The worker was aware that i was angry , so she smiled and quickly came to help . Another worker , has this stupid face , like as if she's having her menopause forever . Though how angry i am , she still has this fucked up face . When she walked around , her black foul aura was dragged along everywhere . I couldnt stand it , i quickly left that shop .

Went to visit this auntie , this old lady , who is my Mom's friend . My Mom's cousin's friend to be exact . Well , they like to drink everynight at the coffeeshop near their place . This jovial old lady likes to drink there too , she is very funny and she is really kinda old , but yet she lived like as if she's only at her thirties . Well , she has a tumour somewhere in her intestine , and she went for operation . She lost some weight . Well , the fun thing about her is that ... she is so old yet she still talks about sex like its some daily stuff . Her husband is an old man , obviously , but they two are really young at heart . Cute old people , arent they ?

Just came home , and now going to sleep soon . Tomorrow , ive to wake up early , no excuses . Goodnight .