Tirade

My ankle still hurts .

Didnt blog last night because i was at Richard's place .

Today there'll be much to blog about . I think im growing rather sensitive to my surrounding and what people say . Mind u , im not talking about how Mark scolded me this morning , because i was 2 hours late for our meeting . But im talking about secrets and motives . I scored 80 for my analysis , and surely it gave me some skills to analyse not just pieces , but maybe bits and bits on ourselves .

Went to school . I didnt sleep ... and i felt so tired . Last night was SiHan's concert , and it turned out well . Well , i understand the kind of disappointment that SiHan went through . Who would understand better ? Anyway , i didnt do my aural homework , again . To think of it , i havent done any aural work at all . Well , i thought i'll change . Like a leopard , who will never change its spots , im like one , who will always preach and not practice over it . So thus , again ... i copied work . Jobyna and YanYa lent me their work , and i copied bits and pieces , then Yohanna came in . Thats the shocking part , she saw me copying . Well , she didnt say anything , like always . So , again during lesson , she gave me the stare ... She knows that im lazy to do work , but she also knows that i can do it , and not that i dunno how to . Well , Evan and gang did their work , amazingly . We went through some rhythmic dictation in complex timings , and as it speaks for itself , its really ... complex . I couldnt catch anything for the first few attempts . But slowly , i got the flow .

Going to work on with Beethoven later , because i didnt complete it . Well , i missed out alot on the lecture on Beethoven , i suppose . Till now , i dunno shit about him ... because i was absent . Gonna seek DrKan during the next few days .

After class , i headed down to Esplanade , to search for the reading that we lost . Ive no idea who lost it , but we cannot blame carelessness , can we ? So , since im the only one in school ... and im the only one who is free ... so , i headed down there , willingly . YongRui gave me the details about the book ... and so , with little knowledge of how the book looks like , i searched the whole area . I went to the catalogue , but there was nothing which links with the details YongRui gave me , 'Sisment' . Well , so ... maybe i should head back and look closely to every single book . Its 2cm thick , as YongRui described , and its brown . He wasnt sure if theres any headings by the side ... It was hell difficult to find that bloody book ! The rack is located beside the CDs ... and yes , i was there ... but there wasnt any book . Bridget was there , and i asked her to help ... but then , she couldnt help much , because she doesnt know what i was looking for . I called YongRui many times , and went through the catalogue with him . Well , he said that he could find it the other time . Well , so i was so fed up with myself ... i thought , why would i be that stupid , and so useless . I couldnt even find a little stupid book . Then , i saw my saviour , who was sitting alone at a corner studying . Dear Noozli showed me to another Haydn book , because i saw him reading a book on Haydn , and it does have Haydn's name on its cover , but its green . So , in the end , i found it , with the help of Noozli . He was so helpful . The rack was over at somewhere else , not as where YongRui described ! Anyway ... the author was Elaine Sisman , not 'Ellane Sisment' ! So freaking pissed off right ? Anyway , then i went to print the pages ... Noozli showed me how . Thanks to him ! Anyway , then i noticed that ... there were more in the book than what YongRui printed . Well , he printed the obvious section , but there were many other important and useful notes too . So disappointed ! During the meeting i told him off ... but of course im not angry , just not really happy ! Our presentation note went out pretty well within an hour . For something like that , i think im pretty happy , and remember , we still had time to joke .

Was rather late for DrTan's class . Well , she was marking attendance anyway , and clearing the attendance problems with some of the students . And for me , i had this one week MC which hasnt been accounted for yet , so ... i think im rather safe . Anyway , she went through this reading article , and its really tough to really analyse it . She was funny today , she was joking about many things , and its funny to hear her jokes ... and to see her laugh . Well , she is very cute , isnt she ? Its hard to picture her as a Pianist ... because she looks more academic than artistic . She went through the reading with so much depth ... who would read like that ? Other than DrKan and DrTan , i dun think anybody would read and understand a simple article like that . Of course , thats the intention of the writer , but for readers of the public , usually such terms wouldnt be carried out much far . SiHan was sleeping in class , and i almost did , but luckily not . She called me to answer this question on why would the writer classify the art piece as 'charged' , and i couldnt answer . Well , i had the answers in mind as full of energy and vigorous , and maybe its his ideas and emotions being suppressed over the years and released at once in his art works . I dunno which is right , and wrong , but i dun really like to answer questions in lecture , i rather do it in tutorials . SiHan couldnt answer because he was sleeping ... and i had to wake him up . So , he didnt quite understand what was going on ... so he said , maybe its price and how he 'charged' them . Poor SiHan ... bad day for him , firstly was his name which DrTan mispronounced , and now this .

Meanwhile in class , we went through the notes on the presentation straight after . We headed into class , and before that ... with the help of XuLian's boyfriend , we managed to print our notes out . Her boyfriend studies in another department , thus he has another computer lab , which is free ... because ours were used by EricWatson . I didnt wanna disturb his class , who knows what might happen , again . Well , i dun wanna get into his way , and i hope he doesnt get into mine .

Friendster is retardedly laggy .

Anyway , DrKan was excited about the presentation , i think . But she was utterly disappointed with some of the groups . Well , anyway its a draft only , but surely we have to do something about it , so while the presentation went on , we discussed abit through some books i borrowed from the library . Its been so long ever since i last borrowed something from a library . Anyway , some presentation was very boring and Christoven's was the most interesting . Why ? Because there was more than class involvement , DrKan participated alot . Again , u see the 2 of them 'fighting' ... but again , its always that amusing . Christoven has alot of guts . Well , hes a very guy actually ... but i dunno how DrKan grew that bad impression out of him , maybe its his frankness . It runs in his traits .

Our presentation was not that humorous as how she would expect . We went through many things on Haydn ... and thats all that we did . A bit of some embarrassing sections on me ... and other than that , nothing else . SiHan presented everything ...

After that , we all headed to watch Samuel's concert . He treated me to the tickets ... How nice of him ... ?

SCH is a horrible place which brings nightmare which haunts my very being . Its kinda usual to witness a sight like this , band people there . Well , its normal , but it isnt for me . Wheneva im there , its usually those socialising time , when u see people u know and so u update urself with what they're doing and stuff . Well , i was totally lost there , because there wasnt any single soul which i know , except for the SCO staff . The usual crowd for a concert was also different , maybe because its a secondary school concert . Well , Samuel was out , shaking hands . Like ... nevermind ...

The second song didnt fail to make me sleep . The first was fine , because its something new and refreshing . The last song of the concert woke me up too . I sat with Audrey and gang ... and they saw me sleeping . Well , Samuel conducted a few pieces , and for that , i watched , and cheered . Other than that , i slept pretty well . Im sure i almost hibernated . I was in a dormant state ...

The concert wasnt that bad . I enjoyed it ... especially the supper part . We went to eat ... Samuel , Mark , Evan , Jwen , Richard , Fairul and Jefri . Well , Jefri is from ACS . And thats a hell place where a guy can come from . Im sorry for being so irritating and cold , but thats how i am . Well , for an ACS guy like Jefri , it isnt that bad . Maybe its the Muslims only ... I noticed that all Muslims are very nice people , except for some . The world is beginning to change for me ...

We talked about mutants and how some of our classmates can be mutants too . U wouldnt wanna know ... its evolution .

After eating ... nobody could decide where to go . So , we snatched the cab from Mark and Jefri , and we headed to Richard's house . I think i shouldnt have went ... Its time to be a cold blanket and think for myself . Well , i told Mark not to be late , because i thought i definitely wont . Who knows , i got scolded for being late . Well , i understand that he was very upset . He scolded me over the phone and told me the reflect upon myself , and he hung up .

Its time to reflect . Ive done wrong ... and being such a bad leader as i already am ... theres nothing i can do . And to think of it , ive foresighted this , and i did post a similar post about this . Well , im so disappointed with myself .

Woke up around 8am , and i did sms Mark that i might be late . Who knows , i went back to sleep for a while , which next turned out to be already 11am . I thought im so dead , and next moment , Mark called . I woke Samuel and Fairul up ... and Richard . Well , he opened the door for me , and i left in a hurry . I took a cab down .

When i was there , they were working . Shaun was nice , he said it was alright . But of course , it wasnt ! Mark was looking pissed ... and he said they were working fine without me . Well , sorry . Nothing could be undone , just a lesson for the future . Well ... well ...

Goodbye WeiKang , its seriously time to change . Will blog more tonight ...

I once posted an entry on being late . And this time , again i must repeat what it said ... again , im late . Late for what ? For everything .