Bolt Out Of The Blue

Amazing somehow that i still can blog ... Well , im blogging at Pacific Coffee . Yesterday's was at ChengSan CC cafe ... I dunno how am i gonna blog again when im not gonna go out during the weekdays ... Im feeling so bored now . Computer at home is dead , must as well say that things to do at home is limited ... ? Well , thats the point , boredom and ennui . Again , they've entered into my world again ... From the ceilings , from the walls , from all around me at the corners of my room ... The darkest corner , is yet the place where i sleep everynight ... So dead , so bored , so lifeless ...

Today's practice was again , boring . Why ? Though we had the new scores , but i still think that practice wasnt as fun as how it used to be . I want combine ... Next week , if still no combine ... then maybe i wont go anymore ... Pipa solos again ... so stressing ... ? Actually , im numb , not feeling any excitement at all .

Like mentioned , im numb ... Tomorrow's the release of O level results . I dunno how badly i might have done , but , judging from how much i studied , i think i deserved a fail . I was deeply affected by many problems . Emotionally , mentally , psychologically and physically breaking down at that point . A crisis , at the wrong time . I managed to go through that period though , it might seem as a bliss , but now , the results are coming . I cannot change the outcome , it was a test , ive passed the test , but with what honour ... ? I think achievements are what people deem as a quialification . Like a certificate , its just a piece of paper , but its price seemed priceless to many . Actually , things now arent that truthful ... Certificates can be bought with money . But , no matter how ... its still reality that rules this society here . Its a place without emotions , without sympathy and feelings . Its called , " The fittest shall survive " .

Reality ... i dun wanna mention much . Ive bitched enough of that topic already ...

Guess everybody is tired ... A warm and humid afternoon ... but blessed with a cool evening sky , showered with merciful rain , to wash away that stress , that tiresome looks off our faces . Washing and cleansing every soul that accumulated stress like a thunder cloud . Troubles might cloud at our brows , wrinkling , and making us look so much older . However much that we might have suffered under cloudless skies , and bearing all the heat of the sun , there is still the beautiful rainbow after every storm . A little bit of sunshine will do us good ... weathering away that troubled looking face ... Weather is just fine ... fine ...

A bolt out of the blue ... ? Yes , i might agree ... weird topics at weird posts ... at weird times ... But well , its what i just thought of ... with nothing ... or with something in my mind . Something mentioning me of different things which ive heard of whenmm i was younger ... or maybe some stupid remarks or philosophy which ive came up by myself when i was bored . This little boring days ... with that little bit of crazy thoughts could sometime do u good ... ? Yes .. true ... totally agree with that . Its called ' rotting ' to me . Its been a habit ... On buses , in cafes , at sleep , in my dreams ... anywhere , anytime , anyhow ... Its just a thought , spared from destruction put into good use ... Its nothing ... just another crazy thought ...

So , dream on ...

But ... Dun dream , when its over .