Guardian Devil ?

Yesterday i chatted with YiChun over at MSN . He came up to me , and the first thing he always say is something negative . Firstly , he will call me name . Wheneva he does that , my heart skips a beat , because i will be somehow shakened by the things he will say . I knew it , i can expect something , its always filled with surprise . I hate that ... but i really dunno whether to hate or like him . He is irritating at times ... Anyway , he responsed to me nickname , because i was very fed up yesterday night because i missed the masterclass . He said i was an attention seeker , which oviously im not . I prefer to be hidden behind the Pipa , and just play in an orchestra somewhere at the back , preferably behind the percussion . Anyway , i told him to delete me off his MSN list , since we dun even talk much , or we dun even have anything common to talk about , he like toys , i like music , there is no direct link somehow ... His response was another surprising one , he said , why would he wanna lose an old friend ? It really shocked me , my heart kinda melted , but i just feel like im so naive all over again . Better not talk about this anymore .

Stop being so nice , Gildon . There is no good folds in return . Ur just being used , over and over again . I believe more in retribution than good harvests . Im so naive , really . Whats the point in helping someone like that . Its not worthy ... seriously . Forget it , the way we treat each other is totally in a different attitude . We see things differently ... forget it ... i dun even need a friend like that . A friend , or more of a known stranger is somewhat better .

No wonder the people reading my blog has gone up , almost by one fold . Anyway , thanks for reading my blog , my classmates and peeps from NAFA . Thanks ... but i wonder who is the one who started to spread and tell the others to read . My blog is sad ? Not really , it just lack of my usualy humour . I think everything has a limit and i try my best to not allow humour to cross this yellow line . I want to put a clear stop here , and allow myself to contemplate and focus on what i think . I like to put my thoughts in words , but i dun like to write , i prefer to type .

YanYu's lesson today was kinda fun . We watched WuYuXia's VCD on the song "XuLai" , also known as "The Sound Of Silence" . This song is so expressive and fun , though my finger is like burning now . No choice , i had to play this for exam . There is nothing difficult about this piece , it just require more understanding of its history .

Im so tired today , especially after the discussion with DrKan . Really thanks to Samuel and Mark , they did most of the job . I must say , im very lucky to have them as my team mates . But i think its their misfortune to have me ... Anyway , i overslept on the MRT , and i alighted and Admiralty and took one stop back to Sembawang . I drooled again ... dunno why ? Whats wrong with me !? My mouth like got so much saliva ... i think it must be that time i got 4 ulcers , then my lips kinda protruded , then i think i got used to it ... now , wheneva i talk or sleep vertically , i will drool . Its so damn disgusting ... dun laugh , i dun want this to happen ! It has never been like that before .

Think nowadays im more open than before , at least i talk and socialise abit , unlikes my days in ACS . I think i dun even know whether they have my record there as a student or not ... Life in ACS for me is really interesting , i couldnt believe what kinda student i was . I was the super slack and yet the one who passes his exams , though certain papers may fail , not just once . However , overall i did quite well . My attitude and conduct has always been excellent and very good . Attendence wise , its the worst . But i always manage to run away from problems ... That include the usualy detention classes or homeworks ... I have no idea ... Are the angels or devils helping me ? I dun care who does , but all i want to say is ... thank you .