Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Forever Means For Ever ?

I gained weight ... U think i care ? Yes i do ...

A simple answer ' No ' just keep ringing in my head . One simple word , could mean a thousand . I dun understand ... please elucidate ... Why am i so enamoured by that creature ? I dunno ... guilt ... ? Maybe ... i need time .

Had a performance at Fullerton Hotel . Some people invited us there to perform , of course i get paid . It was ... horrible ... ? It was quite badly done , to me . Everything was so messy ... the communication wasnt that clear too . At least the song i wrote , ' If ' , was dedicated to the newly weds . We took cab back to the CC . The totaly fare , including the trip there , was about ... $25+ . Scary ... Poor YiLeng , she got kinda badly injured . The YangQin fell and it got her right foot . FuKang , WeiMing and i were busy looking for the First-Aid box . We didnt know what to do ... We took all the bandages and wrapped it all around . FuKang is a real funny guy . I can see the inner child within . I just envy how he can be so active and carefree sometimes . FuKang really made us vomit blood ... We missed so many cabs ...

I was walking home , when Sharon messaged me . She got me thinking ... now , im kinda in a bad mood . Dun really wanna talk abt it . Hate ? Love ? Its both ? Guess its called stupidity . Equivocal thinking ... ? Euthanasia for me ... ? Yes i do need it ...

If anything , whateva it could be , that affects friendship or relationship is gonna happen again , i swear it'll be the last straw on my back . Exonerate me from all blame , from all this troubles . Trouble wont trouble me if i trouble trouble ... ? No , guess i trouble myself with troubles that i dun wanna trouble at all .

Guess i really need a break , i need a break ...