Friday, January 14, 2005

Life Itinerary

Stayed at home for the whole day . Only went out for dinner at around 7 with Sherwin and Matthew . Then after that , we went to the arcade . Matthew is like lily-livered . He said that some girls looked like Ah-Lian . Well , think they heard it . Poor Matt , he was watching out for their Ah-Beng boyfriends ...

More of relationship problems . Not mine , others . Really dun understand why things have to end up in such a manner . Isit the way things are dealt along the way , the process when the relationship , the bonds get embedded . Im not a prig , but i believe in this kinda bonds . They are very important to me . I wouldnt allow things like that to sour relationships , its broken in the end by the other party , though how much overboard i may be sometimes . I regret . i simper to all that ive reflected . Its too late to start again . Like a candle that has burnt out , the flame is doused , it shines no more light . Though the candle cannot start burning again , we still can start a new candle burning ... ? Pondering upon words like this . I wonder if its true . Life is like a river , it has many courses . At different stages , it has different features . Mine is a viscous flowing liquid . It has been hard , real tough . Strenuous ... ? Its getting me sleazy ... Vitriolic expression to life . Torpor ... ? Apathy ... ? Vagabond ... ? Nomadic ... ? Vagrantly moving on ... Yen of friendship . Abdicating ...

People around me are turning evil , or am i the one , blinded by my own's imagination . Its crazy , its wild . Adept at contemplating with so much depth ... ? Laconic ... ? Dun think so . Im not a lowbrow ... Definitely not . I just feel that people are leaving . Well , people come and go . Though how much i wished they can stay , its reality . Like a parchment , kindling in flame , im ruining myself , jeopardizing my life ... ? Im haughty ... ? Like said , im not a prig . To make friends , i've to be one too . Maybe im a little frigid . A little fiend , menace .

Impish thoughts , illicit ... Idiocy ...

Need a zizz out of this life . Doldrums ...