Playing the game of life with myself again . Its me , the judge , the culprit , the criminal . I get myself into different things ... different problems ... Like a well so deep , only a fool would fall on his own accord .
Totally felt ignored . It doesnt apply to some people , only to those who i recognise . I try to please them ... ? But hate is still hate after a day or a year . I really hope it'll just fade away like of those memories that one would forget . But , it might be better this way ... so , now i can carry out my plans without needing to concern or worry about other's welfare . My decisions are made long ago ... The only reason why its not carried out is because of people around me ... They're affecting my decisions , my plans . Ive thought for a moment , it hit me that its not what Ive always wanted . But , now i do realise that all Ive always wanted was not for me ... ? I cant get things i want , while things i dun really want just gets to me like its for free .
Its totally impossible to find someone who u love to love u . But , its not impossible to be that special someone for that someone else . Ive failed . Hoping a chance not to repeat my mistakes . But its all too late for whatever i do . The perfect love in this world is to love and to be loved in return . Sadness shadowed over ... But im all used to it , like a curtain over my life . Save me ? Its all that i deserve ... Spell it ' retribution ' . My life is all filled with myself ...
Concert was finally over , my solos were all nightmares ... Traumatic ... But now its over , guess i dun need to worry about it anymore . Throughout the concert , my focus was somewhere else . I kinda felt more relaxed than practices . Think Ive passed the ' test ' . Hope I-Dec enjoyed himself ... ? Great ...
After that i was supposed to go back to Cheng San CC , but Kenny , Charmaine and i took a cab to CuiLing's chalet , again . She specially booked one night for us , because we had a concert so we couldnt stay ... who knows ... i slept there yesterday already ... i was drunk ... thats why ... Victor still forced me to drink even after that incident yesterday ... I took 2 shots , and im already half dead ... I dunno what happened ... think i really fell asleep ...
Im drunk again ... ? Didnt i swore that i wont drink again ? Promises are always meant for breaking , arent they ?
Sorry , i had no more time to wait . Its affecting everything ... though even if ur decision would change , and i would happily accept , it would change many things . So i really hope theres still a chance for friendship .
The fellowship is breaking , one by one ...
Fun With Words
Useless Quizzes
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| You Are a Dreaming Soul |
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| Your Element Is Fire |
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| Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence |
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Your Guardian is the unicorn. You have long since
attained the power to heal. You are cautious,
and kinda in your own little world. But you are
also clever, magical, and kind. You are timid
and cautious, but doesn't mean you are a
coward! You are a healer, and so is you
Guardian!
What type of Guardian do you have? (Like Dragon, Wolf, Phoniex, etc.)
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PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking
for a relationship. You cannot live without it.
Your lover must be passionate and you want
that you and your partner melt into each other.
He/She should not try to take the domination .
You dont want a relationship without passion,
and the sexuality plays a big part. The first
moment you meet him/her is one of the most
important. There has to be something between
you , you cannot explain. From the first moment
on everything must fix. But when this passion
disappears you disappear to. For you it is
better to leave than to see your love
restrained.
~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
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| C | is for | Confused |
| H | is for | Helpful |
| O | is for | Openhearted |
| O | is for | Odd |
| W | is for | Wacky |
| E | is for | Excellent |
| I | is for | Industrious |
| K | is for | Kind |
| A | is for | Adventurous |
| N | is for | Neglected |
| G | is for | Glitzy |
| You Are the Individualist |
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| You Are Not Scary |
 Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet? |
Your inner soul is calling for help! You always
seem so depressed, lonely, and feel like an
outsider. You may have a cold, sad exterior,
but in all reality you are hurt inside and
bottling up all of your anger. Everyday you
wonder why are you still here when there is
nothing left? You use to once be a happy,
loving soul, but it was damaged by 'them' and
seems like it never can be fixed again.
However, you have yet seemed to realize that
there are people out there that deeply care for
you. They secretly have a thing for you because
they find you to be dark, mysterious, and full
of secrets, not to mention being the prettiest
person in the world! You like to enjoy your
time by yourself expressing your feelings
through forms of art, and enjoy nice quiet
scenaries that just dazzle your mind with awe.
Your bedroom is basically your sanctuary where
you can hide out, hidden from those who gave
you all of the pain. Try to loosen up and have
some fun! Never start frowning because you
never know who's falling in love with your
smile :)
What Is Your Inner Soul Trying To Say? (With Pics, See All Results!)
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You are 87% Sagittarius
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| You Are From the Sun |
 Of all your friends, you're the shining star. You're dramatic - loving attention and the spotlight. You're a totally entertainer and the life of the party. Watch out! The Sun can be stubborn, demanding, and flirty. Overall, you're a great leader and great friend. The very best! |
| You Are a Christmas Sweater! |
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| Your New Years Resolution Should Be: Wake up before noon |
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| You Have A Type B+ Personality |
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You are 35% Sketchy
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You are a human shadow. If a loved one needs you,
you are always right at his or her heels! Your
deep social connection with human beings
produces your qualities of genuine caring and
charisma. However, at times you are naive to
the true nature of your loved ones. Remember
that humans' gift of free will does not always
lead them in wise directions. But your essence
of love and friendship represent the other
precious gifts of humanity. Overall you are a
strikingly valuable and innocent being who has
a lot to give.
What Kind of Shadow Are You? (with gorgeous pics)
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 Sagittarius - Your Love ProfileYour positive traits:Your playful nature brings out the happy inner-child in dates You're willing to take risks in love... and reap the rewards You've got a killer sense of humor that gets talking with any hottie you meet Your negative traits: Sometimes your sarcasm comes off as biting and abrasive You can be brutally honest, tactless, and truthful even when it hurts You're such a free spirit that you find it hard to commit to one person Your ideal partner: Someone high energy who will pick up and out with you whenever Is creative and fun - thinking of new adventures for the two of you Is bold... and not afraid to tell you "I love you" early on Your dating style: Unpredictable. You never know how the night is going to end up. Your seduction style: Daring. You're always pushing to try something new in the bedroom. Full of imagination. You've always got a new fantasy you're dying to try. Spritually driven. Sex for you can be an other-worldy act. Tips for the future: Realize that while freedom is great - sometimes a stable relationship is better. It's not all about you. Focus on your parnter's needs every once and a while. Make up your mind about your parnter, and stick to it. Your fickle will ruin things otherwise. Best place to meet someone online: American Singles - tons of flirting and fun to suite your inner extrovert Best color to attract mate: Purple Best day for a date: Thursday Get your free love profile at Blogthings. |
the sad teen. Everything in life is f*ckin'
miserable. You constantly look over your
shoulder and wonder who is judging you...even
when you are alone. So naturally, you have
become a little paranoid and pessamistic. Your
personality can be one demensional but
confusing. You are constantly bored with life
and wish that something could spice it up. You
have a unique view on life and have identified
the problems with school society (Ex...what
makes popular people, how the student mind
works...) You would rather be alone because you
hate being hurt. You tend to think that no one
understands you, not even your parents /
guardians / friends. But that is just the
opposite! The people who love you want to
help, but they don't know how because they have
a feeling that they will say something wrong
and turn you away. You have to let them know
that you are willing to hear what they have to
say...and it might do some good to listen to
them.
Some fields you might consider going
in when you are older...Judge, author,
songwriter, producer, therapist, psychologist,
philosopher, or forensic scientist. You need a
job where you can express yourself and your
views on life. Or you need a field where you
can judge others and predict what is going on
in others life. Either way... you have the
personality to get you a good job that will
support you throughout life.
What type of teenager are you?
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Your Heart is Blue
What Color is Your Heart?
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cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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you're a gaurdian angel. you fight and protect the
people you love and vaule.
what kind of angel are you?
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You are a violin. You are very held back and
quiet. You do what you want and that usually
means something quiet like reading or writing.
You are calm and perhaps considered dark to
some. But you rarly talk to anyone besides
your close friend or family.
(BEAUTIFUL anime pics) What is your soft toned intrument?
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You are Patrick! You are kind of an idiot, but that
doesn't slow you down one bit! Your best friend
is Spongebob, and together, you two can
accomplish anything!
Which Spongebob character are you?
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 | Legolas Greenleaf If I were a character in The Lord of the Rings, I would be Legolas, Elf, a son of the King of Mirkwood. In the movie, I am played by Orlando Bloom. Who would you be? |
LOVE is your chinese symbol!
What Chinese Symbol Are You? -- Updated (7/21/03)
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| You Are A Romantic |
You are more romantic than 80% of the population.
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| Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male |
| Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you! |
| You Are 90% Psychic |
| You are so very psychic. But you already predicted that, didn't you? You have "the gift" - and you use it daily to connect with others. You're very tapped into the world around you... Just make sure to use your powers for good! |
| Your Love Number is |
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You're very open minded, and you could see yourself in any number of interesting relationships. And being extremely independent, anyone you're with has to give you space. You approach new lovers like they are a subject, learning everything about them. But once you've "mastered" a new person, you often feel like exploring some one else! |
| You Belong in 1968 |
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| Your Seduction Style: The Natural |
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| You Are "Dizzy and Giddy" |
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| You Were Nice This Year! |
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| You Are a Pundit Blogger! |
 Your blog is smart, insightful, and always a quality read. Truly appreciated by many, surpassed by only a few. |
| Your IQ Is 85 |
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| Slow and Steady |
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| You Should Learn Spanish |
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| You Are Rocky Road Ice Cream |
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| Your Power Color Is Indigo |
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The Keys to Your Heart |
| You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
| In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. |
| You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. |
| You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. |
| Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
| Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
| You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
| In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
| Your Birthdate: November 30 |
| Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness. You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable. You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words. You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic. You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller. Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue. There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work. You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative. |
| Your Hidden Talent |
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Your Slanguage Profile |
| British Slang: 50% |
| Southern Slang: 50% |
| Canadian Slang: 25% |
| New England Slang: 25% |
| Aussie Slang: 0% |
| Prison Slang: 0% |
| Victorian Slang: 0% |
| Your Career Type: Artistic |
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| Your Expression Number is 1 |
| You have the skills to be a top executive or businessperson. But first you must develop your natural capacity to be a good leader. You are truly original - with a creative approach to life and a very sharp mind. You reach for the sky, and you have the potential to reach it. Assertive and straight forward, you have little need for supervision. You are self-confident, self-reliant, and courageous in your convictions. While you sometimes fear loneliness, you prefer to be left alone. A bit self centered, you may be hard to life with at times. You also have a strong dominant streak - which can push others away at times. |
The True You |
| You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. |
| With respect to money, you spend carefully and save your pennies. |
| You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others. |
| The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. |
| You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly. |
| When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends. |
Your Dominant Thinking Style: |
| Exploring You thrive on the unknown and unpredictable. Novelty is your middle name. You are a challenger. You tend to challenge common assumptions and beliefs. An expert inventor and problem solver, you approach everything from new angles. You show people how to question their models of the world. |
Your Secondary Thinking Style: |
| Visioning You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights. You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details. An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path. You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum. |
| Star Wars Horoscope for Sagittarius |
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Your Deadly Sins |
| Sloth: 60% |
| Wrath: 60% |
| Gluttony: 40% |
| Lust: 40% |
| Envy: 20% |
| Greed: 20% |
| Pride: 20% |
| Chance You'll Go to Hell: 37% |
| You will die with your hand down your underwear, watching Star Trek. |
| You Are 70% Normal (Really Normal) |
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| You Are A Little Honest |
| Sometimes you do the right thing, but not often You prefer to look out for yourself most of the time But sometimes honesty does get the better of you Here's hoping you answered this quiz honestly |
| You Are 40% Left Brained, 60% Right Brained |
| The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports. |
| Your True Birth Month Is August |
Sauve
Romantic
Attractive
Observant
Loves to joke
Easily jealous
Easily angered
Learns to relax
Loves to dream
Thirsty for praise
Loving and caring
Brave and fearless
Extraordinary spirit
Careful and cautious
Independent thoughts
Angry when provoked
Loves to make friends
Sensitive but not petty
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Loves to lead and to be led
Thinks quickly and rationally
Knows how to console others
Poor resistance against illnesses
Firm and has leadership qualities
Talented in the arts, music and self defense
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| You Are A Good Friend |
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| You Are In a Decent Mood |
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| You Are a Drama Princess (or Prince) |
| (You are more dramatic than 50% of the population.) You're not over the top dramatic, but you have your moments. You know how to steal the spotlight... And how to act out to get your way. People around you know that you're good for a laugh. But at times, your drama gets a bit too much for everyone. Tone it down a tad, and you'll still be the center of attention. |
| Overall, Your Observation Skills Get: B |
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You are Superman
| You are mild-mannered, good, strong and you love to help others.  |
Your results:
You are Malcolm Reynolds (Captain)
| Honest and a defender of the innocent. You sometimes make mistakes in judgment but you are generally good and would protect your crew from harm.  |
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| You Are Somewhat Honest |
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| You Have Your Sarcastic Moments |
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| Your Inner Child Is Sad |
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| You Are 48% Abnormal |
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| Your Life Is Worth... |
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| Your Social Anxiety Level: 48% |
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| Your Blogging Type is Artistic and Passionate |
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| Your Luck Quotient: 60% |
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| Your Learning Style: Enthusiastic and Imaginative |
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| Your Blog Should Be Blue |
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| Your Brain's Pattern |
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| You Are 58% Impulsive |
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| You Are 44% Slacker |
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| You Are 37% Selfish |
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| What Your Face Says |
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| Your Love Element Is Water |
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| You've Changed 48% in 10 Years |
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| People Envy Your Compassion |
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