Chosen And Destroyed

Open ur mouth wide , and i will fill it !

Dun be scared , i dun mean anything literal . Its quoted from the bible , so ... relax ...

Well , Jasmine is bothering now ... telling me that she is bored . Well , like who isnt ? Anyway , i just threw her behind , with one of my new compositions , and well ... here i am , blogging .

Life is great , amen ? Im so totally sure about that . Was letting my cousin use the computer , while i had a great time with my CDs . I browsed through the CDs , and it brought me back memories . So , i arranged my basket of lyrics , u know ... those leaflets they have in the CD covers . Yes , that one . I keep everyone of them , and throw away the cover . Well , so ... i was arranging them , and sorting them out to how i would classify them . So , i found many old CDs , and some really horrible ones . Some of which were bought by Mom , like as a gift , and its either pirated , or really kinda lousy . And some others were bought because i was really bored . Like in Malaysia , if i were to be alone , as in with Mom , but without my own CDs as entertainment , i would buy one pirated one and hope that it'll provide me enough for my bottomless boredom pit . Was lying on bed , listening to CelineDion and reading her lyrics . Well , i would have to say that im quite lucky to live around the same period with CelineDion , at least she is still alive and kicking . There wouldnt be quite a reason why USA would find an outsider to sing their national anthem . This kinda canticle should be sung by their own blood , but well ... CelineDion is just too good , who can deny that ? Go ask Christoven .

Just read through my mails , and found one by Terence , the guy from NAFA . Well , its to inform me that ive to submit another new group work on the first day of June . Im sure maybe the one we handed in was a failure . So sorry to Fhairil , because he did all his work , and we did the least , especially me , because i was busy with my other pieces of work . So ... i think this time , i will do my part . SiHan has much to do , he has his own essays for SAS and even harmony re-assessment ... and more . Well , im kinda free anyway , except if YouGuo will be letting me play for the new composition by RobertCasteels .

I called him this afternoon , when i wake up , and he said he aint going to school . And well , we talked . And i urged him to play for the piece , because he promised anyway , or else ... it wont be very nice . So , we talked about things ... and other interesting topics . One of which was referring our friend . I dun think i wanna say it here . Well , betrayal is some ways .

YiLeng just sent me a greeting from France . Well , how sweet is that ? Im diabetic . Anyway , she was asking if im coping well with CSCO ... and some matters about personal well being . Thanks to YiLeng , and well , honestly , i aint coping quite well . But surely , something must be done about it . Im ready , and im going to end this once and for all . I'll settle my 'debts' with CSCO , and maybe resign my post . But firstly , i didnt apply for this post at all ! Funny to me , but not to some , and surely , not to those who might suffer because of my failing duty .

Going to school to meet Audrey tomorrow . Well , we're going to the zoo on Thursday ! How exciting ? Finally . Anyway , i dun think Audrey is going . Honestly , i dun think i can wake up that early to meet u guys . But , for the sake of ... the trip , i shall try my best . But im pretty sure , being students of NAFA , and music students , we'll all be late . Like that ice skating trip , we were late as compared to the actual time set , by almost ... 2 hours . Well , but trying to make a point to be punctual will be my target ... for my new resolution .

Im helping Christoven now with his blog . He wants to insert songs , so im pasting the codes for him . And chatting on MSN with YouGuo , talking about bringing the Pipa to Africa and stuff ...

Long introduction , i know . Im kinda busy chatting with people in MSN . U know , sometimes ... when u wanna blog , but people talk to u , then of course , its better to reply first , because blogging can come later . So , wheneva i blog , there's definitely people chatting with me , either on the phone , or on MSN . So , distraction can sometimes make my blog entry sound kinda chopped up .

Im placing the burning white candles around the computer now . Lighting up the burning papers ... and spinkling sand around my chair ... The crystals are reflecting the weak gloom of the candles . Vague figures form against the walls , like dancing shadows . Im closing my eyes , feeling the silence , and letting my soul float to whereva the wind is bringing me . My mind is shutting down , slowly ...

And now , where am i ? What am i doing here ?

This is getting kinda nonsensical ... lets just get on with the entry ...

Well , today , i stayed home whole day . And actually , i thought of visiting Dad , till after dinner , i found myself feeling kinda ... unwell , so i headed back home from the bus-stop . I was spending , or wasting actually , my time playing games in my oven , also known as my room . It was dark , and really , really warm . It felt so uncomfortable ... but well , ive made up my mind to do things as planned , and not break my own schedules over and over again .

Didnt just played games , but kinda refreshed my knowledge with some stupid games in the clan channels . Answered questions ... and got points for answering them rightly . Well , so im now like rich , with $220 . But , its not real money ! So , what do i do with the money ? I really dunno ... Can i exchange for some gifts or something ? Well , anyway ... they asked general questions , which mostly , i could answer . But for the questions on movies and actors ... i was totally clueless . The actors involved were mainly from my grandma's generation ... ? Horrible questions .

Nothing much happened , other than quite a period of time spent on refreshing myself on the holy book , the bible . It was dusty and old ... so , i swept away the dust , and i turned its yellow pages . Well , guess i havent really lost touch yet . I remember the books and the sequences , and i even remembered certain chapters ... which were kinda impressive , for my own entertainment . Well , was thinking about some lines ... and reading and chanting them over and over again , and actually found quite a wierd contradiction within the lines itself . Im not analysing the bible here , but im just ... actually , quoting some statements out .

The people were afraid to go up to the mountain to speak to God , because of the fire . God would speak to them from the midst of the fire , face to face in the mountain , but nobody went . Moses stood between God and the people , and reviewed the ten commandments , which were created by God , and was expected out of the people to observe and learn them well .

He was the one who brought the people out of the land of Egypt , out of the house of bondage . And what happened after Moses led the people out of the land ? U guys know about it ? Well , uve watched it on TV before ... but thats just the happy ending , when the people were led by Moses into God's promised land . But what happened there ? Well , thats actually when God opened his arms to outsiders , not just the people of Isreal . Because , they were too blessed that they tested God , and drove God into anger and wrath . Thats how it all spread ... and how we , not me , are Christians now .

You shall have no other gods before God . And shall not make for yourself a carved image , any likeness of anything that is in heaven above , or that is in the earth beneath , or that is in the water under the earth . Because , u shall not bow down to them nor serve them . For God is jealous , visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children to the third and fourth generations of those who hate him , but showing mercy to thousands , to those who love him and keep his commandments . Of course , u shall not take his name in vain . Remember the seventh day , u and ur slaves , donkeys or cattles and family , shall not work , but rest well . Honour ur fathers and mothers , as ur commanded . And the obvious ones , for that u shall not murder , commit adultery , steal or bear false witness against ur neighbours . And lastly , u shall not covet ur neighbour's wife , or desire their fields ... or worst , ur neighbour !

Will God cast off forever ? Will he be favorable no more ? Has his mercy ceased forever ? Has God forgotten to be gracious ? Has he in anger shut up his tender mercies ?

This is anguish . People meditate within their hearts , and their spirits make diligent searches . They will open their mouths and be in a parable . The dark sayings of old , which they've heard and known , because God has told them . So now , its passing down , generations down to generations , with praises to his wonderful works . He established testimony and appointed a law in Isreal , which he commanded their fathers , that they should make them known to their children . The generation to come shall know them , and the children who would be born shall arise and declare them to their children . They who may set their hope in God , and not forget the works of God , but keep his commandments , will not be like their fathers ... who were from a stubborn and rebellious generation , a generation that did not set its heart aright , and whose spirit was not faithful to God .

Well , Moses led the people as God told him to . In the wilderness , God took care of the people . He divided the sea and caused them to pass through . He made the waters stand up like a heap . In the daytime also , he led them with the cloud , and all the night with a light of fire . He split the rocks in the wilderness and gave them drink in abundance like the depths . He also brought streams out of the rock , and caused water to run down like rivers .

But they sinned even more against him ! By rebelling against the most high in the wilderness ... and they tested God in their heart , by asking for the food of their fancy .

Can God prepare a table in the wilderness ? Can he give bread also ? Can he provide meat for his peopel ?

Well , behold , he struck the rock , so that the waters gushed out and the streams overflowed . He heard all these , and he was furious ! A fire was kindled against Jacob , and anger also came up against Israel . Because they did not believe in God , and did not trust in his salvation . Yet he had commanded the clouds above , and opened to doors of heaven , had rained down manna on them to eat , and give them of the bread of heaven . Men ate angel's food ... and he sent them food to the full . Manna , in the bible is the food that miraculously was provided for the Israelites in the wildnerness . Now , its like spiritual nourishment of divine origin .

He caused an east wind to blow in the heavens , and by his powers , he brought in the south wind . He also rained meat on them like the dust , feather fowl like the sand of the seas , and he let them fall in the midst of their camp , all around their dwellings . So they ate and were well filled , for he gave them their own desire . They were not deprived of their craving , but while their food was still in their mouths ... the wrath of God came against them , and slew the stoutest of them , and struck down the choice men of Israel ! In spite of this they still sinned , and did not believe in his wondrous works . Therefore their days he consumed in futility , and their years in fear . When he slew them , then they sought him , and they returned and sought earnestly for God . It was then that they remembered that God was their rock , and the most high , their redeemer .

Nevertheless they flattered him with their mouth , and they lied to God with their tongue . For their heart was not steadfast with him , nor were they faithful in his convenant , they ought to be destroyed . But being so filled with compassion , he forgave their inquity , and did not destroy them . Yes , many time he turned away his anger ... and did not stir up all his wrath ... for he remembered that they were but flesh , breath that passes away and does not come again .

Well , thats about the Israelites and how they sinned against God though how blessed they already am . So , here is the lesson ... God wants his people to believe by faith , and not like the past when he appeared to them and redeemed them from their enemy . So , get out of ur comfort zone already ...

God turned the rivers into blood , and their streams that they could not drink . He sent swarms of flies among them , which devoured them . And frogs , which destroyed them ... and he also gave their crops to the caterpillars , and their labour to to the locusts . He destroyed their vines with hail , and their sycamore trees with frost . He also gave up their cattles to the hail , and their flocks to fiery lightnings . He cast on them the fierceness of his anger , wrath , indignation and trouble , by sending angels of destruction among them . he madea path for his anger , he did not spare their soul from death , but gave their life over to the plague . And there , he destroyed the firstborn in Egypt .

Well , the Israelites werent faithful , and they moved God into jealousy , with their carved images . And when God heard this , he was furious and he greatly abhorred Israel . And delivered his strength into captivity and his glory into the enemy's hand .

So , after reading this sypnosis on the story of Moses and his people ... with God , of course . How do u feel ? Im not sure exactly that u'll feel like a saint , but surely , it'll stir up emotions within .

Im tired , and ive blogged for 2 hours . Yes , Audrey , another long entry for the day . Goodnight people ... and sleep early . Im going out tomorrow ... and im waking up early , if possible .

Well , something similar is coming up soon . And that'll be the movie of , 'Da Vinci Code' . Well , its about a conspiracy by the Catholic to cover up the true , or not , story of Jesus . The Vatican knows it is living a lie but does so to keep itself in power . The story helped generate popular interest in speculation concerning the holy grail legend in the role of MaryMagdalene in the history of Christianity . Critics have attacked it as inaccurate , sacrilegious and decry the many negative implications about the Catholic .

In Christian mythology , the holy grial was the dish , plate , cup or vessel used by Jesus at the last supper . And its said to possess miraculous powers . The legend may combine Christian lore with a Celtic myth of a cauldron endowed with special powers . The grail plays a different role everywhere it appears , but in most versions of the legend the hero must prove himself worthy to be in its presence . In the early tales, Percival's immaturity prevents him from fulfilling his destiny when he first encounters the Grail , and he must grow spiritually and mentally before he can locate it again . In later tellings , the Grail is a symbol of God's grace , available to all but only fully realised by those who prepare themselves spiritually . Well , we've seen this before on TV ... remember ? IndianJones drank the blood of Jesus from the holy grail . Now ... to think of it , ive poor memory ... was it him ?