Enervated

Just got home from a midnight cab , and surprising ... only cost me around $7 , from Mt Alvernia Hospital . But before that , i shared a cab with Dedric down to Mt Alvernia Hospital ... so its around $6 , and together ... maybe $13 . What the hell ? Again ?

Woke up finding my cousin , Timothy , opening the door . Well , he was the one i fought with the other time , so he is currently still sleeping outside . Anyway , it was a call from Jane . Weird , why dun she call me handphone ... She told me to hurry down to the hospice by cab . So , i quickly headed into the shower . Grabbed my bag , and put on some new clothing . Took the Pipa too ... last night , i was practicing the Pipa around midnight , and later . Well , i dun have a Pipa now , or else , i'll practice too . Lucky Chester , he gets to sleep well tonight then .

Found a cab , and again ... stupid bloody aunties snatching cabs . Well , got there fast ... and it was kinda expensive , considering the peak hour . Got inside the hospice , and found Dad there ... sleeping . Jane wasnt looking good , like as usual . So , i took a seat beside , and held Dad's hands . Well , he is suffering from this state which he cannot differentiate reality with his own dreams . So , he is very confused ... and he havent eaten ever since last year when he was admitted into hospital . He was sleeping , and he did the action of holding a spoon , and then bringing it closer to his mouth , then he chewed . Well , of course , there was nothing , its all a dream . Jane cried watching him do so . For me , i found it rather sad , but to look it on the brighter side , he is doing something he likes , so ... let him be . There is nothing we can do now , but to make him feel the most comfortable . He talks about things from his dream , and i couldnt understand much , but i somehow got the idea . Jock was there too , and we were all so tired . Dad went back to his sleep , and i was holding his hands all the time ... and i laid my head gently on his pillow , and took a nap too . Well , im so freaking tired , because i slept late last night .At the hospice , when i was there , Dad was sleeping so soundly , he couldnt wake up . Jane was trying to wake him up , to take a look at me , and to inform him that im around . So , she was holding his head close , and whispering into his ears , and holding his hands ... touching and rubbing it . Well , there was no response . I went close , and i called him . He opened his eyes almost immediately , and then i held his hands . He was holding my hand tight , and gripping it , while he returned to his sleep . Mine , not Jane's . Amanda went to buy some food for me . And after that , the doctor came . Well , he then told us that the previous doctors made mistakes in his condition . Well , fuck the doctors . Honestly , its the doctors creating more problems . Its a patient cycle , where they go around hospitals , and thus allowing them to spend their money as profit to the hospitals . Fuck the doctors seriously ! Whats their problems ? I cannot understand why its so complicating ...

So Dad said that he wants to call his Mom . Well , that'll be grandma . He took the phone , and he didnt know how to dial . And fucking Jane didnt help him call ! What the fuck ! Still dare to tell me . At that time , i was at home still . Well , im not in the mood for curses , so i'll spare u off , u fucking bitch !

Jock , Amanda and i took rest in this small room . Its supposingly for the staff only ... and thanks to that nurse , we had the privilege of resting inside .

I left for school around noon .Got to school , and didnt know what to do . Got into the studio beside LiuYan's . The room was so smelly ... i couldnt take it , and i dun really like the sound too . So , i went to practice at the back , at the window , outside . Then , Sebestian asked if i could get a studio , maybe i was too loud . Well , so i went over to another corner , behind the classroom . YongRui then came , so i told him to listen to my piece .

Then , i went to listen to his too after that , since i promised . And it wasnt that bad , just some performance problems , not much of musically faults . Well , i dunno his piece , so i could only help in suggesting the tricks for performances . Hope it did help .Got back to my area , and to find out that my stand was missing . Whats the problem with people , i know ive been away ... but after all , its used and occupied , so why take it away ? Idiotic fuckers !

My eyes are closing now . Gonna make things really short ...

Went to play outside the studios , at the printing area . I was attracting attention from parents and children . Many came forward to listen , and asked about the Pipa . There was this mother who asked so much , very friendly of her , but kinda ... too much ... There were cute children too . Well , then QiaoFang came , and i taught her nonsense . Time past so slowly , i practiced so much ... and i thought it was already around 8 pm . Who knows ? Its not even 5 pm . Im so tired .

After that , met Dedric and Kenny at the area . They came , and Kenny took my Pipa to play . We went to eat with QiaoFang and Viki . We ate chicken rice for dinner ... kinda nice , but kinda expensive too . It was then that we talked about many stupid stuff ... and after which , drank soya milk over at the next stall . Played the mind games with them , and i think the age gap is such a factor for bad communication . They didnt get it ... and Viki was like ... why not play it after graduation .

Well , they created this programme booklet for their graduation recital . Very cool stuff ... and Adams was looking at it . He also talked to Dedric about some SCO stuff ... about money and pay ...

Went on with my practice over at the recital hall . Mark just ended his , and he helped me record my playing , which sounded really bad . Well , i'll rather believe that its the recorder's problem , but of course i know , its aint true . Dedric and Kenny came in too ... and Kenny practiced his Ruan at the back . I was on the platform , playing my piece . Im pretty much screwed ... with incomplete portfolios , practical exam and Dad's condition .

Well , talked to Dedric about things , and he explained himself . Well , dun wish to mention names here ... anyway , we talked about for the whole night , even in the cab . For Kenny , he was in a bad mood ... partly because he couldnt play the piece fast enough . He was really practicing his piece slowly , but i guess its not intelligent enough . I improvised on the accompaniment of Dedric's piece , and i played with him for fun . I was playing the pieces from his Suona book . Well , i noticed that Suona's pieces are all about harvest , new year , some lucky crap and mountain stuff . U get what i mean ? I dunno why ... but its kinda stupid . His exam piece sounded really nice . Well , then after which , i went around taking pictures .

QiaoFang needed me to bring home 3 guys from Malaysia for a night . Well , im kinda willing , but Chester's starting school already ... so ... i guess theres not enough space . Who are they ? Not some kinda gay party , or some cockroach party which i saw just now ... downstairs ... so many of them . Anyway , they are from the music conservatory in China , and they are coming to watch YouGuo and gang's recitals .

Sorry to bore u , im really shagged . Im going to go bath now or something ... or maybe not . Im fucking consumed ! Burning out soon ... so , sleep well people . Goodnight .