Their Lives , Not Mine

Downloading very big files now ... waited for almost half a day to download 3 of them . The last 2 now ... Anyway , today was devoted to my dear computer and i , solely . Skeptical political promises are still bothering my mind ... but , what do i have to worry about ? Actually , as Singaporeans , we usually would just let the governement do whateva they think is best for us , and we can just slack off and not really care about that area . Mom always say that ... Singaporeans are like that , they'll never open their mouth . But wait , if im one , i wouldnt drool on bus anymore !

Anyway , i had a great time yesterday . We went skating , buffet and lastly , lounge . I paid for SiHan and Christoven ... then for the buffet , i paid for them all . Lastly , Christoven paid for the beer . Well , now ... the next thing is to go find a pair of spectacles for me . Quite unconvincing right ? Honestly , ive been wanting a pair for quite a while already . The problem with me is that ... sometimes when i read a book or something , then when i lift up my head ... i cannot see clearly . In short , my eyesight is getting rather poor . When i get my new spectacles , i think i'll knock ur socks off .

Last night , i played till morning . Was playing with Cyril , and he was telling me his relationship problems . Well , kinda sad , i know . But quarrelling is the spice in life , isnt it ? So , u have ur ups , and surely , its time for ur downs . Dun be sad ... but for me , i kinda pity u . Why ? Look , if someone says that he or she likes u ... but yet , treats u badly ... then whats the point ? U know , kinda similar to some crappy people . So much for the trust and the love u put in right ? They arent appreciating it ... and i bet , they're only having fun . So , where is the love ? Not here , not there and definitely not with him or her . Cyril , dun follow ur heart ... follow ur brain !

Next was Klein , and his cousin . Well , was talking on the phone with him , and his cousin kept shouting over ... and talking nonsense , kinda funny though . Apparently , his cousin had some problems ... and was feeling quite down , so he went over to accompany her . How sweet ? Well , im not really that close with my cousins ... so , forget about that part .

Im currently talking to Klein now ... and he told me that he doesnt have internet at home . And how does he talk to me on MSN then ? Im confused . So , isit from the computer or phone ? Wait a minute ! Im so stupid , because he is at his friend's house now . Anyway , he uses MSN on his phone . How cool ? Or maybe ... im just kinda lagging behind with technology ... and fashion too . Klein going to sleep now ... so nevermind ... forget about him for a moment . Lets head on with tomorrow'w programme ...

Im going to visit Dad tomorrow , around afternoon , if i can wake up . And maybe after that , i'll head to school ... to check about next semester's timetable and maybe ... if my results are out . Ive to pay some fees too i think ... My module havent been paid yet , the one i failed last semester , due to attendance . Fuck ! Im still damn pissed with it ... next year , i'll be seeing that fucking white head again . I hate that , i hate that ! He is irritating , sarcastic and he cannot teach . What kinda use is he anyway ? Other than ... the fact that he can play the Piano and has composed or written books before . One fact to face ... he cannot teach ! Thats just that .

I thought of a few activities which we can engage on during the holidays . Firstly , ice skating , again . Secondly , maybe a trip to the zoo or something . Thirdly , chalets . Fourthly , we can go overseas , somewhere near , like lets say ... Malaysia or Thailand . Other than all these ... i think we can go cycle in Pulau Ubin . I promise , this time ... it wont be like last time , when there was a high tide when we're at Chek Jawak . I wanna see the little crabs ...

So , im not sure whether how many would wanna come . If the NAFA people are busy , then forget it . Well , reality check here ... everybody has their own friends outside .

Disappointed .

Im somebody who doesnt hang around with my old school friends . Well , Samuel always say that secondary school life is the best . Well , true ... for them , because they are referring to their lives , not mine . For me , maybe NAFA now is a different way of schooling . Back then , its horrible to meet people with bad characters . Even now in school , theres already quite a few which are misfits and bitches . Im glad that its better than the other levels ...

So , again , am i the protagonist of my life ?