Dilemma

Like the commencement of a new day , its already yesterday , like the start of a new life , that's yester year ... Today is already the day when we're already friends , and we've only known each other for long , thus we can only look back and laugh at those days when we're strangers . WeiXun just read my blog abit , and he said im productive , because i blog everyday . Well ... i do , and to think of it ... its not productive at all , its neither impossibly consumptive . Its a norm , only others arent one . And no , im not really stressed , WeiXun .

Many might have came online just to read today's blog , because it'll somehow be special . It goes out warmly to the broken-hearteds , and sure enough it goes out to those in a dilemma . I hope somehow i can shine some light out from the mud that ur trying to salvage ur reflection ... because , its impossible for anybody to see themselves clearly from a bad rumination . Like ive always emphasized , nothing is normal to this world , because normal is only what u think is normal . Dun let the world outside change ur perspective . Thats why ... villians are surfacing more ... because superheroes are too embarrassed to face the public .

Like this song , i can be ur angel if ur willing to let me . Anyone ... listen to its lyrics ... This is the dear song that cried me to sleep everynight , a long time ago ... I hope it'll touch urs .

Some romance in the air , through the air , to the ears ... kinda sweet and brings back sweet memories of my own nightmares . To think of it , the sweetness almost killed me at that instant , but yet , it brings back hesitation of letting it go . To think of it , hasnt life been sweet ... ? Retribution to what u might consider , i think its not ... I think ... its something like a fairy tale , and always like one , they'll end with a happy ending . But , of course , dun dream too far , because not always a fairy tale would be left completed . Well , things might be like mine , an uncomplete episode of the fairy tale , where things were left exacerbated . Of course , my heart was like a heart of glass , that'd fallen straight into the ground , where its soul is shattered and its form , ruined . To think of it ... how romantic can love be ? How shortlived ...

Sorry are useless . Since u know that its impossible to go on with something u like , then u shouldnt have made the first step . Sometimes people get addicted to things like that , they thought its fine , just a puff , but who knows ? Hes already addicted to the cigar . If uve made one wrong step , of course , u should be forgiven , but think about it ... uve done something which might have already hurt somebody . Its not a one way thing , its both ways . Active and yet passive ... I think by saying sorry to end a problem is the dumbest way and the laziest way of how human can express themselves . Be it a relationship or a simply offence ... sorry isnt enough , though it only make things either worst or better , but it doesnt solve it still . Dun ever do anything that u know u cannot afford to ... because in the end , ur hurting not only urself .

What i seriously think is that , once ur 'polluted' , its impossible to totally clean urself off the path u've walked . No excuses ... but , if love is seriously the thing ur looking for , dun care whether if a prince loves a slave , like Cinderella . I cant remember what i wanted to say ... but u get it ?

For me , love isnt in the air . I just played along to my feelings ... and sure enough , they were played back to me . Now im confused ... but im sure ive more sense of certainty over what im feeling , compared to somebody else ...

Wednesday is the busiest day of the week . Sure enough , i just woke up from this 15min nap . Its horrible , im so tired ... i feel like dying already . DrKan didnt give mercy ... she threw all she could , and its not all she can do u know ... I bought my big pen to school , and everyone was laughing at it ... eager to touch and feel it ... and then write stuff with it ... then some even took picture with it .

We touched on Classical Era today . And come on , im still stuck in Baroque . I studied everything that came out from DrKan's mouth ... because im somebody who came with no knowledge of music history . But today , she wanted us to find recordings and stuff ... it'll terribly difficult for me ... and i think i must work an extra mile just to fulfill her requirements . Im so stressed ... Then we had some stupid talk by Adams about Concert Attendance . Anyway , its crap ... so sleepy , so i took a quick nap . Method of Analysis was kinda easy , but tough because of the workload ... Im gonna die really ...

Sightsinging was replaced by a trip to the Arts Museum . We went there to appreciate art ... but in the end , the climax was still the building of our , Samuel , Fhairil and i , own city . The art pieces were the still the same types that i saw when i was taking arts for Os . Ever so boring ... but then we went to the section last year , one building a city urself . Then we started taking off our shoes and played ... then we took a picture of our creation . Everyone was waiting for us , because we were building our city , while some already went back to school ... we were late . Saw some really good oil painting on canvass . Anyway ... thats it ... boredom .

Lawrence passed me the score of his composition and i think ive to play it for Music Platform . Anyway , its the same song ... "Devil's in the heart" remember ? I think its nice ... and i hope this time i wont screw it up for him .

After school , Jwen , Fhairil and i took cab home . I went to NYP for rehearsal . Angela , Evan , Fairul and Samuel took another cab home . The rehearsal was wasting my time ... it took so long just to arrange the chairs and the lightings and stuff ... I was at the backstage , making sure everyone had their instruments tuned , especially the LiuQin , this awfully high pitched instrument . Unlike SeetohPoLum from SCO , i havent heard one so nice before ... and JiaJin's of course . The rest sounded raw and metallic ... and rusty .

After that i knew i could have my taxi fare claimed . So , actually today's cab fare is free , but i dun think Jwen would be smart enough to take the reciept ... so , forget it .

Life sometimes just isnt fair . Its not use crying over anything ... because all we know is that human tears wont cure any wound . But ... only the tears from the sincere hearts and join the gap between torn relationships back . Like the bi-metallic strip , it bends and yet still ... dunno .

I treated my new slave , acted by Tillabong again , to Japanese meal . Aint i nice ? Forget it ... hate those people who arent grateful for anything .

Some virus is acting up again ... guess i'll have to do what ive to do , again . Like in life , its impossible to remove freaks out ... they'll come back , shameless creatures . Well , thats it for today i guess ...