Rain Drops

Im feeling this burn inside me , am i sick ? I think ive been feeling kinda queasy ... nausea and stuff ... I dunno whether i should see a doctor regarding some issues ... well , maybe next time . I think i may die anytime soon , lets say ... 5 years more ? Some may cheer out loud , and some may not ... but well , life goes on for everybody . Afterall ... today i realised that im forever playing the second role . I will never be of the first class ... and for that , im just somebody passing by in somebody's life ... I pondered over this for like ... already a year or so ... So , am i the protagonist of my own life ?

Came home from a long bus ride with Fhairil , then i think i drooled on the bus .

Wednesday , like how dreadful it already sounds ... indeed is the worst day of the week . Today , everything was fine ... except for music platform . LuHeng and Angel's pieces were nice , i thought . Reid's was ... kinda long . Anyway , i enjoyed myself , and to think of it , they all have something in common , except for LuHeng's , which was like techno throughout , but can tell that there's some basic principle of harmony ... funny .

Sight singing was like ... new . We had combined class with the year two people . Then we sang some choral pieces . They were kinda alright ... except for the second piece which sounded really weird ...

DrKan was extremely sarcastic today . She made jokes of the Violas ... scrubbing the floors during the Baroque period ... then now in the Classical period , it gave a new rise . It was intended like a pun against Christoven , poor thing ... And then she'd even told some very high class jokes ... nobody laughed . She understands that ive some difficulties with my work , because afterall im never in touched with Western music before ... thus , i'll face some obstacles with my work . She came to me , and explained everything to me ... but of course , im not dumb , i know ... but its just that i need time , i'll think slower than anybody else ... Well , if u got Chinese scores ... i can do it within like 10 seconds for u .

I wanna thank somebody , for being so initiative to help me . Well , thanks to him , i finished all my pieces for the Methods of Analysis class ... Found pieces by Scarlatti , Beethoven , Haydn , JS Bach and some other composers ... then i managed to even print out the scores , thanks to Audrey . Well , the person is SiHan . But who knows maybe he just went there to actually just buy his necklace thingi ... then just helped me because he had nothing to do ... But afterall , its out of good will isnt it ? YongRui was horrible ! So selfish , kept printing for himself ... then i needed somebody to print for me , while i find my page , because i'd forgotten to citate the page numbers ... But in the end , he helped .

When i was done , everyone was sitting outside , looking rather moody . Then they were all acting moody ... talking like one and stuff ... very dumb . Then i played along ...

Did i not mention , i went to buy CDs again ...

Anyway , we went to eat again , though im not hungry . I was tempted by some good looking handsome curry . So i ate ... then after that , we played in the arcade . Stupid games ... so funny ... Then Fhairil was like dancing and playing the drumset kit ... so professional . Well , guess he plays often . YongRui was driving his crazy cab ... and i think he has a bright future ahead being one , because he was like awesome ... ? SiHan was playing tennis ... and i dun think i can see him being one ... so nevermind . Audrey and i did nothing ... sat around , jumped around and laughed .

Guess afterall theres nothing much , but yet its so physically demanding . Im tired ... and ... i feel kinda ignored today . Like always ... but , thanks there are some friends i have in school ...

Rain , rain and rain , its already January ...

Ive got no time to practice Laurence's composition with him , and the other time the performance was kinda unsucessful because we had different ideas about the piece . Well , im so sorry that ive no time , and he seemed rather pissed . Well , theres nothing i can do ...

The obvious will remain the obvious . And somehow justice and fairness in this world will result in the same consequence ... meaning , no matter how , the evil will always lose ... but its just the matter of time . For this ... we know the rain will drop , and the sun will rise no matter how many times it set ... For love , u know , i know ... and i shant speak about it . What is meant to be , will be .