Jittery Tomorrow

If im making u uncomfortable again, i really dunno what else to say or do. But well, maybe we should stay away from each other if thats the case. I dunno, but the things that people say are kinda irritating... but, well... if i can take it as just a prank and joke, i hope u can too. Well, dun be so serious. As for me, i was thinking just now whether how it must have felt for u. So, i thought i should just isolate myself, again.

I woke up late for rehearsal at TP. Jasmine was late too, but i was later... because i stay so freaking far! So, Mom fetched me down, and i got there to rehearse the piece that we're competiting this coming Tuesday. Its an ensemble competition, and its going to be tough. Why? There are many other strong groups out there, as for us, we're still kinda weak. I dunno how others might fair, but... all i can say is that we have to practice more, in detail. Well, i agree with Louis that we should practice more on the prilimary piece than the finals. The finals can take a break, because we shouldnt expect that we'll be getting in. So, lets just make hope by practicing and going into detail for the first piece. Anyway, they wanted to add in Percussion, but JiaZheng strongly insisted that they shouldnt. Well, i have to agree with her that there must be a reason to why the conductor didnt want Percussion in the piece, and moreover... its kinda too late to add in any instruments now to cover up the flaws. But true also that we've to think of something to cover up or distract the judges from the small little problems. We dun have any big issues to deal with, but there are too many little holes which spoils the whole piece. Anyway, in the end, we took out the Percussion. From tomorrow onwards, it'll be exactly one week away from my own solo open category competition. Im so... excited. Anxious? Nervous? I dunno, im so unstrung.

After the rehearsal, i went to school. I thought about practicing but, in the end i didnt. I played games, and i kept losing. Well, then... i messaged AlbertLin and YanYu about the road closure tomorrow. I really hope that nothing will go on during tomorrow's rehearsal. Firstly, there'll be some road closure, and it'll affect the traffic. I dun wish anybody to be late, especially those who are driving if there is any. And moreover, i hope that we can finish in time. Im not intending to practice there, just going to run through and feel how the atmosphere will be like. Im so ruffled now. I dunno how to expect the expected. Well... what else can go wrong? Before i sleep, im going to check every single thing that im going to bring. Hope that nothing will go wrong!

Anyway, after staying in school, i went off to DBS building, which is opposite SCH. After Andy call me, then i realised that Mayflower and Manjusri is having a concert tonight over at SCH. I didnt know about it at all... it shows how disconnected i am from CSCO and people around. Anyway, i went for the sound check. Remember? Its the performance of those aunties singing and uncles screaming. Well, the performance was over, so i got my cheque! Im going to deposit the money into my account as soon as possible. Before the performance, i had dinner with JinBo and Jimmy. JinBo, as u might already know, is the DaRuan player in SCO. As for Jimmy, he owns a company which offers chamber music studios and other stuff. He asked whether i know Raymond. Of course i do! Well, then he told me that Raymond teaches Pipa at his shop. Well, i knew it. Why? Because the address looked familiar. I went there before to collect Raymond's Pipa last year. Remember? Its at JalanSultan, and thats the place i wanna bring Christoven to, to see the long sleeve shirts that i bought.

Anyway, JinBo is a very nice lady. She is very friendly, and she doesnt look down on people. Well, during the performance, LeeNa, a professional YangQin player from Malaysia, kept laughing and smiling. Well, the performance was kind of... dunno how to describe. Many funny things happened, and i sat beside LeeNa, while JinBo sat beside her. Its a funny arrangement. But well, during the sound check... there was this uncle who looked rather serious, and he is super extra! He repeats everything that the conductor says. Anyway, the people who sang tonight... were kind of... funny too. Well, i enjoyed performing with them. There were other instruments, of course. But well, there were a total of 18 songs! Imagine, i sat there until i wanna die... to experience the singing, and some horrible wierd stage movements. I thought about calling people to come, like SiHan or Christoven. But well, i figured that it'll be hell funny for them, that they'll laugh non-stop... and thats it, they'll ruin the concert. Well, its really that bad! Anyway, i got JinBo's number before i left. I hope i can do something good to the society, maybe by introducing some students to her. She told me that her students are all very small kids...

Jonathan is asking whether im angry. Well, im not. Its just that nobody really understands me, except for those back in ACS. They know how i am. But well, i dun wanna say...

After the performance, i called Andy, and he told me he left already. Stupid, he told me to contact him and maybe go out for supper... and he left... Well, i met up with YiLeng, MiYan, Kenny and gang at SCH. They told me that the performance was alright. ZhengYao said that YanJun's tremolo sounded kind of weak. Kenny said that she skipped a part. Well, the rest said that its alright. Well, YanJun, practice hard and win the competition, at least get into the finals! Same goes to Alvin. Anyway, im going for the camp tomorrow. Its CSCO camp again! And well, it was kinda fun last time. Every year, there'll be this music game, and every group, which comprises of different instrumentalists, will have to present an original piece at the end of the camp, during the BBQ. Well, as for me, i went through 3 years of composing for the camp already. The first time, i got second, while Patrick got first, because i cheated somehow. The second year, i used a theme from some piece, therefore i got the most creative award. Last year, i got the best composition award. Well, its so funny to think of it. Last year, there was only 2 teams. Why? Because the game got kind of screwed up. Nobody had time to write. Every year, i'll stay up at night to compose, and in the morning, i'll produce scores for them to practice. Well, pity i wont be there this year. I really hope that the game will go on. Im going tomorrow to find out!

I wonder what will tomorrow bring? But, what if tomorrow never comes?